i fail at college.

i took my first final yesterday. asian studies. i had to write an essay. we had 1 hour and 20 min to write it. so from 5:10 to 6:30. i started writing my essay at 5:45. it was 6:15 and i still had 2 more questions to answer. so 2 more paragraphs. in the 15 min i had left, i wrote the worst 2 paragraphs i have ever written in my life. that tells me a lot about my final grade. i dont even have to say anything.

today i took my second final. earthquake. i'll just say one thing. i thought there was going to be 50 questions. 25 consisting of the new material learned and 25 from the previous material. lets just say i didnt even look at the previous stuff, i just studied the new stuff. i got the test and find out that there are 80 questions. 50 from the new stuff we learned and 30 questions from the old stuff. i wont even say how it went.

last final tomorrow for nutrisci. im not even studying right now. i should. i've yet to learn from my mistakes. another all nighter tonight. currently at the y doing this. im hungries. going to get some gypsys. tomorrow after last final, im going home right away. im babos. i should have bought my ticket for friday. now i'll be rushed to pack and leave to the ariport.

my state of mind right now: numb? from studying. finals. stress. not enough sleep. headaches. failure at college.

hard? nah. im just really babos when it comes to making the right decisions.

how many more times do i have to fail to get it right? perhaps never. how sad.

shalalalalalalalalalalalalalala.