green thing

today. felt longish. dont know whys. but it did. to my dismay. OO like scream face.

dont really feel like writing today. so ima keep it short. short.

-woke up.
-did stuff
-ate lunch at homesis.
-stayed home watched some tv.
-went to rancho.
-pick up bro from alpha hagwon. poor guy. sat for 8 hours a day.
-sibling shighan with bro and sis at barnes :) JAJAA. was feeling nice. did dt's there and bought my bro his christmas present: books. he likes it. what can i say.
-dropped themm off at homsis.
-i went to pick up chunky
-went to vjjs house to pick up her snowboard. dang she lives in a hella shady place. oh i think i already said that, but dang at night. its like saw or like texas chainsaw masacre or something scary like that. shoot. no lights or something. first time i went on high beam. oh and no signal either. spoookay.
-went to rons work. stood there like retards looking into the glass. see how little kids play at little prince. waow little prince= a high class playground for children. shoot. ohmygosh i wish i could take pics and put it up. its ridonk.
-we go to rons house. we chilled for a bit.
-go to nrb. OHMAN. what good therapy for the soul . sHOOOOOOOT. i havent been there in exactly a year. didnt even go over the summer. cannot believes. i misssed it! especially with hs friends. oh gosh but too short. only 1 hour. dad was >:/ so had to go homesis cuz kinda lateish i guess. whatevs.

me snowboarding tomorrow. excited :) havent been in a year. i bet i still suck. ima fall down on my butt a lot. and stuff. ohlordy.
melona bar. tomorrow? YES MUCH.
ok
me
goes
now
me
tired
and
sleepy ish
goodnight. ish.

shoot for the stars

its such a dayish.
i didnt know the canadian border looked like that. drivers license and government id. i guess you dont need a passport. waow so simple and easy to cross the borderish. he wanted to comit suicide. and he got a bloody nose. and he had to kee his hands in the air. move to the left and stuff ish. nosebleed eww gross. get down on your knees. why suffer. handcuff. there are some crazy people. fbi.

thats what i wanted to be. an fbi. solve crimes. and get the bad guys. get trained. with guns. and stuff ish. its kinda cool. not only that. but . its legit. its something smart and stuff. but ive realized. that i cannot. because i dont meet the criteria. sad. i would though. but i wouldnt like to brutally kill someone or torture them for answers and confessions. thats kinda low. me no low stuff. its all about being sleek. cool. sly. real coy. to get it out of theres. i cannot be so cool. im so lame. gosh. whatevs.

today i woke up. got readies. called chunky. man that girl dont never pick up her phone like eber. gosh. so i had to go to that girls house to bring her out. to mah surprise her mom came right up to me and chunky was in the car. so picked her up. went to my homie. signed up for winter retreat. banked it. then went to banana bay. waited for vjj and mike. then we ate togethurs. second time in rowland/diamond areaish within 3 days. i realized that the pad se eww and pad ke mow is better at berks. banana bay is not that good. so i guess. today. i missed berks thai food. after eatings. we goes to cue to take pics. personally, i dont really like taking cue pictures. i think they be a waste of money. but gots to go with the crowd on this one i guess. cant be the party pooper. like poopity poop poops. bbang.

visited vjj's new house after. she lives in hilly secret place in hacienda heights. kinda shady mcshade shades. but oh wells. wouldnt wana live there cuz its i dont know. really grassy and big hilly mountainy. but its nice though, the view and stuff. wide spaces and stuff. i guess its depending on your taste. spent some time there. vjjs grandparents are hella cute jajajjaajajaJAJAJAAJA. they are.
we goes to brea mall after. eugene joined us there.
i spent like 2 hours at pacsun cuz i needed to exchange a jacket. MAN talk about indecisive. i MUST seriously BE the most indecisive person in the WWW. foreals. its gona even take forever to explain what i went through in those 2 hours. basically short. i couldnt decide between like 2 or 3 jackets. i got to exchange it though. period. good stuff.

i dropped off chunks at her house. came home. watched some tv. ate some good din din w good banchan. :) lovely.
the street life must be hard. but sometimes i think ppl do it because they want to. they like it? i dont know. i wish i could ask them. i wish i could ask each and everyone of them their life story and how they got there. that would be pretty darn interesting. i wonder if i could do that for a living. going around like that. that would make me a bum too? JAJAJAJAJA. yeah it prob would.

my brother is annoying so is my sister. so so annoying.
som epeople in this world are really really scary. and can be scary and are psycho. like piggys in their pig pens. so so scary. like nervending parts of the body.
oink oink.

psych seems pretty cool. maybe not.
i dont know.
my legs i cant feel. heartburn . spicy? i think so . imnot sure whatever.
JAJAJAJJAJAJA hydroxycut.
ok im done.

samba

annyoung chingoo with changoo head. changoonim. stone bart.
I forget all the time.
I forget what i do all the time. bummer ish. kinda. whatever though.
i have good sleeping schedule now. not very good. but its ok. cuz i actually sleep at night and wake up with the sun is up.

woke up today. blah blah blah and then met up with kevin at islands. dude gg. the menu at islands has calories right next to the dish or whatever. DUUUUUUUDE GGGGGGGGGGGG. the burgersss are like 1300-1700 calories. gg. ohmygoodnes. i dont think i can eat more calories no more from any tgis fridays, rubys, islands, applebees and whatevers mores. its siiiiiiick. so many calories for a freakin burger. ohmygoodnes. im glad i dont go to those. i only had half of the burger anyways so i guess that was better. i was full anyways. gave the other half to mom. :) then we can be fps togethuuuuhs. yeeeeee. kevin bought lunch anyways. so all good.

then came home and chillaxed for 2 hours. then went to borders at brea. met up with skimmy pants to do dts. i bought a molskin snoopy special edition thing. i dont really even like those. just cuz errone has one i dont wana get it and it s just bleeh but i like snoopy and i need a journal thingy so i just got it. its kinda expensive though. like 4 bux more than the regular one. ish. dang i thought that thing was molkaskin. freakin skimmy pants is a liar pants on fire who wants to seriously go in the fire. we stretched dt on for like 2-3 hours ish. we was gona go to brea mallskis but too late :( dropped skimmy pants off and thens i went home .
home sure is good.
its like coming home to food. kinda. kinda.
but i really did come home for food. had some good ol bap and gim and o jing uh. man so good :) that be all i need. for meal. so yum yums in the tum tums.

soooo close to getting cameraa :) yayayayay. almost ish.

im hungry.
i need to get a phone. im sad. i dont know which one to get. i have a black berry right now, so i thought i would get a bb bold, but everyone saying no good. go with droid. but droid is like meeh cuz its touch screen and i dont really like touch screen, but internet surfing super smooooth. what a sleeeeezaay. man. im so undecisive. i hateme. everyone should just hate me. maybe people already hate the me.

like all the time. like everyday. i havent had bingsoo yet. who the hek cares if its cold gash. i want my bingsoo. but i realized that i love bingsoo. banana, and strawberry and kiwi and watermelon and something anish something stuff and other stuff is so yummy. i wish i could cook but i suck at cooking. MAN im not even saying that cuz i say that. but i SUCK foreals. i cant even make rice or mandoo. oh mygosh i tried making mandoo and i seriously SUCK. its so freakin nastay. the mandoo i make. how hard can it be to make mandoo. put oil on the pan and put the freakin mandoo to cook and whatever. but no. there must be something more to it cuz apparently i dont know.

quiero cavalgar en caballo. ahi estan los muertos. con sangre. asqueroso. que mas podemos hacer mas que mirar desde el mas alla. jujujuju.

after cutting nails. it feels super good. so fresh like ahhhhhhh and like bunch of squigly lines. but it hurts a little when i press the keys. oh wells. the world is kinda funny.
berkeley really makes me think alot. i dont really like thinking, but berkeley makes meh think . i need some veggies. i always thought kimchi was veggie and ok and enough, maube its not. dang blockbuster is still in business. i thought it went bonkers long time ago. ish.
ok bye. im kinda talking nonsense now. bye bye.

icky stuff

hi hi hi hi hi. helo helo helo.
i didnt do anything on christmas day. stayed home all day. i didnt do much except for dt and watch tv. watched some korean dramas with parents. quite fun.
went to play golf with my dad.. i don tkonw why i kinda have to keep on practicing. i guess i do though, so i dont completely forget it since i devoted so much of my serious lifetime to that.
and then i dont remember blah blah blah.

sunday. i went to riverside gp with vivian. went to service. saw some old faces. good to see sieun, ray, lydia, and other ppl. i forget. :)

a;sldfjasldfjasdlfajs. im tired.
came back from homsis at 6.
went golfing with my dad. again. its ok.

went to rowland to eat with jose and johnny. ate at gypsys. admit it was good, but not worth the money.
dropped off jose at homsis.
went home and spent time at hime.

time for me to get a hair cut and to cut my nails.
ive never had hair longer than right now. its not too bad right now. not bothering me or anything, but i still think its too long. my nails are so long its bothering me. alot. when i type, when i scratch, when i shampoo my hair blah blah blah.

i need to go to the mall. and get something. i dont know what but i do need to get something. :)

got all of my grades. didnt do too shabby :) best semester ive had in college since ever. i got a disappointing B+ in polisci though :( gash i coulda done better now that i think of it. but ill just say thank God for no C's this year and no failing or something. since so many people didnt do too well this semester. :( i need to cut my nails.

woho for after christmas salesss.

aww man. my face has gotten oilier :( i liked it non oily. bo.

ok bye byes. :)

christmas eve

woke up early today. had to meet up with ronny and chunky for lunch. havent seen chunky in a forever years. missed that girl. something special. to make me smile. we met up at starbucks. sat down. and chatted for a little. just catching up on lyfe. man im hungry. so yeah hungers. so we went to eat lunch at yoko. me nd chunks shared some donkatsu and odeng. since my freakin appetite is not back :( miseryyy. oh wells. nevertheless. it was yumm fun for my tum tum. we stayed there for a bit and moved on to the starbucks again. sat down hung out for a little and decided to go to brea mall.

at brea mall i bought my mom her michael kors handbag and since i was already there i bought her a wallet too. dang. i can already see her radiating smile. face.ish. i dont think ive ever really bought her a proper gift. :)
right now i dont care about soccer... i never really do.
chunky bought a gift card at urban. bleeh. we left. my dad was waiting at me at home. so went home.

me and dad visited 4 different cell phone places. -______- i dont know why. i didnt even change my phone today, but i am seriously in between a bb bold, curve or a droid or a galaxy or -_____- i dont know.. and im super indecisive. me sad. whatever. we were roaming around like bummies for like 2 hours. then i just wanted to go home.

my parents and my bro went over to michael's house to eat dinner. i didnt want to go. kinda likke for no reason. my sister didnt want to go either. i dunno if i did good in staying cuz they ate galbi. parents said they were gona come back right after the dinner. yeah right. that aint happenin.

im hungry. i dont know how to cook anything in my house. so i had cereal and milk and a korean peanut butter ppang and a choco pie. i made my sis the last ramen left. i guess we had a ok dinner. both of us. cozy and stuff.
JAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAAJAJAJAJAAJAJAJAJAJAJA.
ronny called me at like 10 ish. we went to pho 21. i hate pho. i really really hate pho kinda like alot. i hate pho. pho is not cool. pho is kinda like poop. because its kinda like not cool. alot. came home and talked a bit. started the pianist at home. waow what a depressing movie. so freakin sad gosh.

my face is so soft. like baby's butt. i did a mask thing yesterday. waow so sweet. smooth everything. dang mask thing does wonders. like alice in wonderland.
ok i wana go to sleep now.
i feel like im not doing much with my time. but i like it. kinda.
whoooooooooooooooooooooooooooosh.
merry almost christmass

weather reverse

man. weather lookin good. no good though. i hate it. man . come on. in needs to be rainy. and gloomy and colder.

i kinda forget what i did today. jaja. jeje. jo jo jo.
hmmmmmmm. oh yeah . i woke really really early in the morning. waow. yeah. its good i guess. woke up early to go to do dt with vivian and skimmy pants at starbucks.
good stuff. was there until 12 ish or so.

met with emchoh to eat lunch :D
gave her her late birthday/late baptism/early christmas present jaja.
ate at souplantation. yeeeeeeeeh. i like that place. i like the greens and i like the pizza bread and the cheese bread and the mac and cheese and the spaghetti. ohh that last one just kinda... cuz sometimes its kinda not good. foreals.

dang i spent like 2 hours just talking with her, catching up about life and blahs. it was all good in the hood. chillaxin. man wish we had more of these times. i never even saw her like once in berks. i will next smmesteeeeeeeeeerrrrrrrrr. oh figity fig fig fiiiiiiiiig.

then i went home. and i bummed around. bumming around is good. feels real good. with cearmic heater next to me.
ceramic heater is my new bestfriend. his name is stanley. because. it reminds me of a train face.
im hungry.

and sleepy . ok bye bye.

outside world

hello. i went out for the first time today. i went to downtown LA with mom.
my mom went to give her friend her present or whatever then we went to eat jjajangmyun and ttangsooyuk. it was good. except for the fact that i couldnt eat much. waow i cant believe it. but yeah i had like less than half a jjajangmyun bowl and like only 5 ttangsooyuk pieces :( i have no appetite. this sucks. i hate being sick. i am no longer fp anything for now.

a;sdlfjaslfasj RAAAAAAAAAIN. i love it. except no rainboots and rain stopped kindofish.
its kinda really horrible when youre hungers but you cant eat. its a wierd feeling. i hate it. im hungry but i cant eat. cuz my stomach feels wierd. its like wierdy wierd wierds. a;sdlfjas;dlfjadfa. i want to eat all the gogi in my fridge. we have like stocks of bulgogi, galbi, steak, sangyupsal, chadol in my fridge :( i havent had any of it yet. a;dlfjasd;lfjasdf. saaaaaad. the only thing ive been eating is fruit. JAJAJA. which is not that bad cuz i like fruit. i actually crave fruit. and i like fruit. fruityty fruit fruits.

I cant sleep :( ohmygaaaaaaaaah. i think i might have insomnia or something. i keep on waking up randomly at night and its so hard to fall back asleep. i wake up at like 5 in the morning and cant fall back asleep so i watch tv. and watch the news. the lady and the boi say: ohhhhhh storm storm floood flood. good things happen.

whyyyyyyyyyy my body screwed, my sleeping schedule screwed, desires to go out screwed. since i dont feel so good i dont want to go out like anywhere. i cant even see the light right now.

but i have a ceramtic electric heater thing next to me which keep me warm. sa;ldfjsa;ldfj jejejejeejjejejeejojojojojojijijijijajajajjejejejeejejjaijijjujuju. i have to go to mall tomorrow to buy presents.
i would buy my dad something, but he never uses anything i buy so its pointless. aaaahhhhh. i have to go shopping. i dont want to.
i want melona bars. they be light green. yummy. milky. melting in yo mouth. pure yummness. what a seductress melona bar be.

my laptop is finally fixed! YAAAAAAAAAAAAAY. im SOOOOOOOOO happy i can type the numbers 4 6 8 0. its almost like a privilege to be able to press on these buttons. YEYUH BOI.

my neck hurts. when i turn left. *stiiiiiiiing. *twiiiiiiiiitch.

i think i have bags under my eyes. except that its not really visible, but underneath it all, its there. i can see it. MAN THIS IS THE WORST FEELING EVER. im so sleepy, my eyes want to rest, but my mind wont go to sleep. what a ppang ddong face. cognitive dissonance. JAAAAAA! cheya boi. freakin psych term for final. JAJA. jejejjeje.

my broder is a baby brat face. waow. gosh. what abratty brat brats. chipotel brat.

i finally know the difference between a CUPCAKE and a MUFFIN waooooooooow. INNOVATION! INSIRATION! cupcake have icing, muffin dont. JAJAJAJAAJA. noiiiiiiiiice.

YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY. my dad is gona get me a dslr for christmas :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDD YAYAYAY. i didnt think he would get it, but dang dad is cool. jk. appa is always cool. despite feeling so crappy this week, i feel super duper thankful for a lot of things. and i thank God for his mercy and love because i can surely feel him working through me somehow through all these struggles.

:DDDDDDDDDD i have mixed feelings about my feelings. i dont even know if that makes sense. whatevers. chaop.

ohmyygaaaah

shoot me foreals. last naight was the worse night of my life.
i really thought i was gona die. :(
i had high fevers. i was awake all night. i had to wake dad up at like 1 in the morning cuz i was getting shocks all over my body. how is that even possible. i dont know. its like some eletric thing going on. ohmygaaah. horrible. i couldnt stay still for about 2 hours. my arms were paralyzed and i couldnt move my hands. if i tried moving any part of my arms, it hurt. and if i looked down ohmygash, it hurt like bees sitting on yo butt.
im so thankful for daddy. he stayed up with me and massaged my body until i was ok. i finally fell asleep at like 5 in the morn, but woke up shortly after. ohmygash. i hate being sick. i dont think ive ever been this sick in my life. ok maybe i have but not within the past decade.

didnt do anything today. i think i took like 2 to 3 hour naps here and there cuz i didnt sleep at all at night. stayed home. its kinda suffocating. my head hurts.
im dizzy. i guess its ok since it happened after finals. but stillll. i cant go out. :(

but im thankful! for the rain! yaaaaaaaaay. i loveeeees the rain. and im thankful for my family who takes care of me when im sick. except for my brother. he freakin hits me when im sick. what the hek. no matter how many times i tell him to stop hitting me, he still hits me, knowing i have mom sal. whatevers. i feel miserable though. i really do . its gotten better.
i havent met any of my friends yet. ad;fljlasjdfa. they all be working. its so different now they in college. its like workin people now. makes me look kinda bumish.

i cant look at too much light. it hurts. or something. or uncomfortable. or something. too much for my head.
i have to cut my hair. really really long. but i dont know how much to cut it. asld;fjasdlfjasdl;fajsdflasdfa. prob gona be crappy.
i guess sickness not too bad. i can stay home all day and watch movies all day long errday. bro got a month free of netflix. movies are not that good. its actually super bleeeh. but whatevers. i guess i can watch the princess and the frog.

i dont get why people get a sugar high.
i cant stare at this screen no more. its hurting my eyes or my brain or something.
bye bye. jolly jelly belly in your tum tums.

home->mom sal

hommmmmmmmmmmmmeeeeeeeeee.home. home hoooooooome.
yee yeeeeeeeeeeee boii.
but im sick.
man yesterday was grueling 8 hours. but i got home. broke in my house through the window.
thats how safe we should feel at home :)

slept for 15 hours. oh yeeh. actually im sick. i got mom sal. throat hurts, body feels freakin cold when heater is on, body hurts and head hurts :( actually i dont care. i deserve this after making my body work sick hours during finals and dead week.
IM COLD!
whatever home feels good.
had chipotel tonight. its not that special no more cuz chipotel is so available and close to homesis back at berks.

im not sre what i will be doing this break. just chillax. i dont know. whatever whatever whatever. me bum around house. and me sleep all day. i shouldnt do that. all i know is that imsnowboarding lots. joyful joy oh joy.

ok i cant even write anymore.
me sick me cold me out.
bye bye.

FINAL

destination at its service. a;sdlfjas;lfjdal;f. SHABOOOM. like mayo and ketchup.
waow i love ketchup. i seriously cant live without ketchup. its like ash kachum or what ever pokemon namj. ketchup good with chicken, any type of potato, including chips, steak, keesh or howevey you spells that, i cant think of anymore at the top of the cerebellum but ketchup make errthang bettas. oye loca.

finals week is like a weaksauce. got nothing on me. but today is opposite day. me sinks. but oh well.
poor neglected sad blog. me has more important things to do now. you know. bigger and better things. maybe. just maybe.

i am a caveman. i just need beard. thats all. i could probably make it with my hair. its be long. anyway. my sleeping pattern be so messed. my days are nights and my nights are days. what can i say. its the life of an owl. except that i dont coo coo or wwoo woo, dont have big eyes, but thats ok i guess. man this week is crazy. i feel crazy. normaly i dont feel like that. its finals week.

i am doneeeeeezzzo with POLITICAL SCIENCE USELESS THING for thing. jk. it must be useful for someone. but just not for me. i dont even vote. i dont know anything about the issues or whatever. i could careless actually. but maybe in near future i will be more interested. polisci is dreading. i would rather take a bio class. and i hate bio. man but me fail essay portion final because i bsed it so bad. i wrote it in like 3O min, but not enough time. my grammar is worse than a 5 year olds. sad. i spent too long trying to answer the ids, which i think i did fine. not great. just fine. i didnt really study for it. but i dont feel like i shoulda studied more, i think i woulda done the same. so that be good. no actually kinda great.

i man i dont think ive slept at regular hours. the earliest ive slept in like the past 2 weeks might be at like 5 ish. which no good. what keeps me sane is pandora. man pandora kinda great? except that i skip lotsa songs cuz i dont like. i dont like the fact that the times you can skip a song are limited. cuz i dont like kinda like a lot of songs. oh well. i also find out that pandora includes kpop. not too shabby.

i think this semester might have been one of the hardes semesters in my life. oh joy. it was like an emotional rollercoaster. relationships here there little bit go go cra cra. man but im so happy that this semester done. i dont get post grads who say they miss school like ginasong. i wont miss it. doing the work . no. bye bye i will say. dang my pandora is playing some ses music. i dont really like their songs. just like one. why must i have a final on friday at 7pm. man finals is one hater of beckysong. it just wana punch my face and leave me bruised. actually i wouldnt mind if finals did that cuz then i woulda have an excuse to not take finals. kinda. question mark.

so me dont know when i go home. i want to go on friday. that would be ideal, but too packed and time tight. then i would forget a bajillion things at home and regret and sigh and sigh some more and be not happy at home. JAJAJJAAJAJAAJAJA. im procrastinating like max right now. so bad. whatevers. i want a new camera. i was talking to the wrong jason. im dumb. so i might go home on saturday or sunday or monday. i want to go snowboarding on saturday too. man only if vivian took us :( why only guys go :( a;sdlfjasdlfasjdfalsjfalsf asl;fjasdlkfjasdlkfa. me too. i wana go.

i love winter. and cold. i hate the sun and the hotness. its not cool.
whwhen im done with finals. im going to cry. fake cry. because no more tears left. since i used up all of them during my sleep prob crying about my hair disappearanceness. yeah there is no point to hide it or evade it. i cant wait to go home and drive, sleep, eat, watch tv, and play with my brother and my sister. and watch movies. and snowboard. oh yeah baby. and eat. yeah thats right. im FP universe. oh man i want a british accent. oh man i love music. oh man . ohman. o woman. oh woman. OHMYGAH. me fail. psych final oh well. my appa and bro always said im good working as cook at mcdd. how encouraging of family. oh man i feel loved. yes i do.

i ma be me some moccassins. yes i am. yes i am . yes i will. oor maybe not. cuz i want sperrys too. i think ima just buy them tomorrow. oh yes. like korean thing you eat. OH YES.

yay im sitting here. moffitt. doing nothing. jejejeje. this is kinda great. dang me gay.
today again. stay until like 7 in the morn. go sleep at jiyoung's house. actually my first home because i dont even go to my apt. havent really slept there since more than a week ago. i should just move in with them. DUUUUUUUUUDE i wana go snowboarding. ohmygashi.

im eating grape fruit snacks . its pretty yum yum . i had gypsis tonight. gypsys? whatevers. i have a frog on my laptop. my dad fixed my other laptop. YAAAAAAAAAAY. yaaaay. man i actually wana stay longer to sleep all day. if i go back home. dad is gona make me wake up at 9 in the morn errday. waow oh joy. so much for winter BREAK.

apple clouds are goold. cielo de manzana. ok i have to study now.
good song of the night: misery- maroon 5

:D

black shopping

heylow. fa;sldjfasdlj blaarggggg.
today i was tired. today im tired. today my leg hurts. owieee.
man day started at 7 3O. left to cabazon outlets. gasddddddfotank tank chooo chooo.
started shopping at like 9 5O ish. man not much to see there. deals were pretty good but the clothes was meeeeh . didnt see anything i liked.
me only thng bought was one zip up. one cardiganish thing from pacsun. mk mini wallet. anntaylor scarf. plaid shirt from tr. polo half moccasins/slippers. actually i dont know if its only for in house usage or outside too. man me ? toing.
my bro bought lotsssssaaaa clothes though. looooosaaaaaa clothes. my mom didnt buy that much.
dad and sis stayed home cuz dad was bleeeh from yest night. sister is lazy.
what a poofball faces.
shopped/walked around until 2 3O ish. ate at mcdiddies. went homsis.
me tired. boomchikka boom.
tried to sleep for an hour. but sister was creating ruckus. she was going crazies for reals. she was hella mad that we didnt take her to cabazon. she said no one woke up her , but appa woke her up tons of times. she said she didnt want to go . dang what a bratty brat brat. gosh. so she cried for an hour. she locked herself in my parents room and bawled like bear. gom angry gom. inceesssant crying is annoying. jeez. so me be nice sister. so i told her i would take her to freakin brea mall.
she wouldn budge, but then she decided to go. dad gave her 1OO bux.
we went to brea mall. and shopped. i bought pants JAJA. she bought her stuff at justice.
how wierd that they changed the name from limited too to justice. for cereals i dont get it. whatevs.

then i go drop jenny off at homsis. go behind barnes. park car. meet ronny. then go meet grace at her store. then we see fany. wow fany is so bbumbuunae. i dont know how he says hi to us. i feel so bad for chunky. i always had a bad feeling about fany. gosh.
so me and ron had a good talk with him. gosh i was mad. but i chamasuh for chunky and i guess it wont really solve anything. whatevs. hes a coward.

then me ron and grace go to paris baguette. pick up sue. sue bring us ppang from pb and some pudding and samwiches. basically leftovers. was yum yum in my tum tum. we go to garden grove to eat at byul dae pyo. DANG. it was good. all you can eat krn bbq for 15 bux. gaaaaaaaash it was like dweji bulgogi, bulgogi, samgyup, chadol, some intenstine ewww, dwenjang jigae nonstop. gosh DEEEEEELIIIIIIIIIIIIISHHHHHHHHH. yeaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaboi. dang we ate until we exploded. ronny bought for us. JAJAJA. a;sdlfjasld;fjs. sanks. then what happened.
man i dont remember.
hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.
oh went home. dropped off grace and sue.
then ron came to my homie we played xbox and then she left.
then me sleep cuz dang what a freakin long day. my legs hurt like cruch time . cruch crunch major cramp in my left leg. a;dljfadslfajsd;lafsjdfalsdjflj.
dang my sister is spoiled.
bratty mcbrat brats.
man i dont wana go berks.
i dont want . toooooooooooooooo.
freakin berkeley. gosh.

man me and dad. we keep clashing. gosh. a;sdlfjdas;lfajsd;lfjas;dofjas.
chincilla. buy chincilla.

merry thanksgiving

hello.
so todaay was turkey day. how ironic. i dont like turkey. at all.
i woke uup super late. well its not that late actually. 2 30 ... which is not that late. my dad actually woke me up.
actually he said. if you wake up this late one more time. you cant come home anymore. well me? im like ?????? to the max. what an asian dad. at first i hated him. but then. i calmed down. and let it go. kinda understood? no not really, but i let it go.

i didnt go out the whole day. again. which actually feels good. man this is the couch potato life fsho. cant get any lazier than this. DUNG. dang.
i shoulda gone out. but now that i think of it..i think everything woulda been closed. oh man i just realized its black friday. i was gona go stand in line for something. but there isnt i desperately need in my life. just neeed some clothes. i guess. some stuff here and there. im debating whether to go to best buy. but i dont think so. oh wells. whatevs.

2 family friends came over to eat din din. we had turkey, gravy, cranberry sauce, veggies, corn, pumpkin pie, tomato salad, steak, i forget what else. i didnt eat any of it. i went to the kitchen and ate bap, odeng, and potato JAJAJA. nd kimchi bokum left over. and melona bar :D it was good good.

it was kinda awkward. the dinner that is. jus cuz. man shopping is a hassle. now me thinks real hard. it is. walk everywhere, from store to store. gosh what a hassle. ok i rethink about that one now...

ok i kinda too lazy to continue writing.
but i will end this post on what im thankful.

- God's mercy
- my mom
- dad
- brother
- sister
- relatives
- ability to move, see, hear
- for hair
- health
- language
- travel
- friends everywhere in the world
- my house
- bathrooms
- apt in berks
- roommate
- small group
- church
- FOOD
- money
- cars
- airplanes
- cell phones
- sleep
- animals

there is so much more. but that would take me a billion years. :)
THANKS. THANKS EVERYBODY THANKS THANKS EVERYBODY. :)
thanks everything thanks thanks everything.
im just grateful for every thing. its so sad, that many times we forget how lucky we are to have so much. because foreals. we dont even know what bad is. cuz we have never experienced it. A;LDFJADSLKFJ . im such a brat. ad;lfjl;akjdfla.

why complain. regret. sulk over the past. what a dumb dumbs me is.

JEEEZ. BE HAPPY WITH WHAT YOU GOT..! becky jok shim bul ji mah.

more than neglected- whatevs. HOMES.

yeeeeeeeeeeeeeeh. poor thing. this thing is.
i dont think ive neglected my blog for longer than i have now.
last time ... was nov 4? dang its been officially 20 days since.

AND im HOME. yeah home. lovely home what can i say. man actually im prettty happy.
so happy soo happy.

anyways. lotsa things happened this month. just dont remember. cuz me has short term memory.
oh man i got a pimple on my chin. shoot it hurts like a mother. ;ladkjfa;ldsjf :( i can touch it with my upper lip. JAJA.
came homsis yesterday or actually 26 hours ago.
got a ride down from jiyoung nd ellen. caravaned it with andrews car. left berks at 6 afternoonish. man i gots knocked out. i slept for most of the way.all i know is that mr fruity carols be crazy driver. but i like. its exciting. nd she blast music freakin loud. its like where are my eardrums relative to space. asd;lf ad;lfkjadfl;aj. man but i love that. i dont know anyone else who would continually blast music that loud for 6 hours. its amajing. i like.
prior to berks i never knew there was christian rap nd stuff. its pretty good.
im currently in loves with lucrae's God is enough and identity. its pretty good.
i need things that pump me. i dontknows whys. whatevs.

God is enough. God is enough. You are enough. tin tin tin tin.

so upon arrival at LA we hit bcd ..tofu place at 1 in the morn. i had bibimpap. it was aite. good stuff came after at the i love boba. MELON SMOOTHIE FOR THEwin. yeeh. so good. it tastes even better at 2 in the morn.
after andrew took me homsis.

was planning on surprising the appa nd umma. but failed. kinda. i needed a toothbrush cuz i didnt bring any knowing my dad had lots of extras he buys pack at cotsco. i tried to be pretty quiet. but fail. my dad woke up and looked up at me staring at me thinking i was some kind of wierd psycho who just broke into asian home. then mom woke up then sister woke up. stared at me all three of them funny site actually. then mom goes what the hek are you. who are you. after 10 seconds of silence. me say. ohhh. mee helllo. boo. then umma goes aaaaaaaajajajaajaja. okyeah . surprise. but i guess it was ok . no biggy.
then i go to bros room brushing my teeth stare at him as he sleeps. he be heavy sleeper so i didnt think he would wake up, but he opened his eyes.. kkinda and closed it again. opened it again. smiled then closed it then openeed them real big nd kinda shrieked threw blanket at me nd goess oh you scared me foo. then he gives me hug then goes back to sleep. what a strange child.

whatevr. happy . stuff. i stayed home all day today. did nothing. but thats what i love about it. i didnt do anything. but I HAD BOMB A FOOD.
for dinnar i had samgyupsal and shadow babies. my mom made this delish gamjah as banchan and made kimchijun for me. i went to buy melona bars and strawberry bars at hanam chain. also visited jihae at fancy+ good stuff.
MAAAAAAAAN HOOOOOOOOOOOME FEEEEEEEEEEEEEELS SOOOOOOOO GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOD. i dont wana leave. for now.
dont really have plans for now. but i guess its for the best. even if i did. i would change them.
all my friends are working during this week nd weekend. :( gosh. gaaaash.
man i wana go snowboarding. but they all be workking. gosh i feel like bum . wanjon guhji status. gosh.

whatevs.. ima cut my hair soon . MAN. no . no jk. i cut hair. and ima dye it. i wana do something ive never done befoRE JAJAJAAJAJAJAJA. i would have to cut 15 inches off orsomething. that would be a stunaah. ja . ive wanted to . but dont have the guts to do it. ill do somthing.
but im kinda sad. ive been balding. foreals. my hair is so much thinner and i dont have alot of it anymore. i used to have a lot of hair and it used to be think,, now its thin nd less of it. everytime i touch my pony tail. i feel sad. aaaahgahh.
one thing ive learned this semester is- be thankful for your hair.

my bro is kinda spoiled. what can i say. im using his 24 inch monitor as we speak. nd he just got a new xbox 360. bratity brat brat. whatevs he be cool cool.

gosh. just the thought of next week ( monday test thursday paper friday oral ) :( adl;fjadl;fajdlf asd;fljasldfjadlf. its lik e. coli. eating up your hair. ohgosh thats kinda horrible. nd nasty. dang why am i not sleeepy. what the hek.
my cell phone has no battery .

i skipped wed morning. gosh 2 unexcused absences is detrimental to my grade :( i think its gona be 1% off. whatevs. whatevesr ;LFKAJFD;LAJF A;LDKFJ. id much rather be homsis and eating that stoopid grade.
whatevvvvvvvvvvveeeeeeeer.
dang i hate that i cant sleep.
chunkiiyaaaaaaaaaaaa imisssh you.
man i should sleep. but my eyes wont close.
thats FUNAAAAAY JAJA. ok . whatevr.
i was chatting with someone today and my sis was looking at my convo. suddenly she gos "unni why are you like laughing like JAJAJAJAJA (how american people would say it) why arent you like laughing like HAHAHAHAHA." im like dang. my own sister. that kinda hurt right thur.

man since i aint got nothing to do tomorrow. maybe i go . OOOOOOOOOOH. studies? jaja. hmm naah. thats kinda really lame to do.
allen is crajee boi. he stays up until like 6 in the morning on thanksgiving day to watch bio lectures. :o im just kinda surprised someone would do that. he dont look that nerdy eithr.
my sister be funny. so it was my bday and she gets me this tofu pillow the cute ones they sell at the korean stores. i mean i really like it. and she goes. i got it for you. for your bday. am i like. dang.. she does that? i mean those pillows cost like mad fortune... for pillows.. you know... its like 25 bux. anyway. im kinda touched she would use her own money to buy me that.. JAJAA i tell this to my bro nd he goes.. oh no... that was michael's mom who bought it for her JAJAJAAJAJA. dang thats nice. jajajaajaja. i just think its funnay. then bros like dont tell her. then i told sis. JAJAJ. actually she goes.. dude i bought this for you comeon.. then i go no you didnt . nd she gets all shy mode nd stuff. JAJAJA. but i forgot that my bro told me it was a secret. oh wells. whatevs. i guess its kinda cute. OK IM THANKFUL!

OHMAN. its thanksgiving!
BUT i will write another post on that later today.
ok im going now. cuz this post is too long. and i dont wana make it longer incase i have t to come back and look through my blog . ill be too lazy to read too much. lame. ok
GOODNIGHT. or good morning.
man mommy did laundry for me today. JAJA. felt nice.

aaaaaaaaah. good to see the fambam. feels ad;fljad;lfkdjfa .
:DDDDDDDDDDDDDD

the 2-O

YEAH MAN. ok so ima changed person now. ofcourse. i changed of decade.
wooohoooooooooooooo. im cool. composed. classy. oh yeah the 3 C's you know it.
uhu.

no. im going to cry.
man. yeah i am .
shoot. i didnt feel this depressed before.

im hungry.

i want shadow babies.
i want to go homsis.
i want
something.
maybe
me be
a
recluse.

man why the hek do i spend so much time on this.
no i dont.
postsecret is interesting
i want to go to the sea and find me some not fishies cuz i hate fishies. how about some galbi and samgyup and bread and stuff. i hate filling. its not that good.

I FAILED PSYCH MIDTERM oh yeah baby. life hates me. cool cool. i really did.
cuz i didnt know
like half of the answers foreals.
man QQQQQQQQQQQQQQQQQQQQQQQQQQQQQQQQQQQQQQQQQQQQQQQQQQQQ
thats a lot of eyes.

im thirsty.
im thirsty too. shoot.
if i could have one thing in this world. i would have something good.

OHMYLORDY

OK SO I HAVE FREAKIN 5 MIN LEFT. AND I CHANGE FREAKIN DECADES.
WOWOWOWWOWOWOWWOWOWO. WHAT CAN I SAY.
DUDE NO. OHMYLORDYYY
I AM SAD AND IMA CRY
AODSHFAS;DLJFAS OHMYGOSH.
;ASDLJFASD;LFJAS;DLFJ ;ALSDKJFASL;DJF L;DJF;LASKDJFALSDJF . FA;SDLKJFAS;LDJFAS

THIS CANT BE. IM STILL TOO YOUNG TO GO THROUGH THIS.
IN LESS THAN 5 MIN. IMA GO THROUGH MY FIRST MIDLIFE CRISIS.
SHOOOOOOOOOOOT NO NO NO NO.

i really dont wana change decades.
cuz
ive been here for some time. 1O years exactly. oh my gosh. no. i really dont.
i kinda cried today. cuz i dont wana be 2O
ohmygosh.
no.

i am miserable.

SLEEEPYH ADS;LFJASLD

RAININGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG YAYAYAY.
ok so right now. its raining. JAJAJAA rovereeey. YES. its awesome. why? because its raining and i love rain. but but but. at the same time i hate it. because. im not at home. im aat skim's house. and im prob gona spend the next 3 hours here. doing what? i would like to say... pulling an all nighter... you know.. keeping my eyes open, i would like to say.. doing something other than breathing. but NO i know. it will not happen. so lets see how long i can last. but foreals. rain is awesome. i think ive been sitting here listening to the rain FOR The past hour or so. that is how LOVELY IT IS. insane you say?! fear nooot. its making me sleepy. -____- i dont have big strong umbrella to protect me. :( which means me get wet to class.
man i hate korean.
no actually i hate all of my classes. gosh. hateful. studying? man thats for nooobs. yeah not for me. fsho.
ohmygosh. im full.
i had like dinner at ray and sieuns place.
man we has ribs. shoot i dont think ive had meat in like... 3 days. .. jaja jk... wow 3 days is nothing. i thought it was longer than thAT... ohswels.

man im sleeeeeepy. i mean i could sleep... i mean skim is sleeping right infront of me.. what a nzerozerob. she said "me skim, will stay awake- pull allnighter" wow fail skim fail to the max. i see her with my eyes. shes clearly sleeeping. and me? cleary im doing nothing. yeah thats the best way to describe my awakedness right now. its raining though! so its lovely even so. ohmygaah. my shift key is wierd. its acting up. its about to become like the four six eight zero key. oooooooooooooooohhhhhhhhhh man. its ok i guess its ok .
wowowwowowowowwo. al;fjdal yesh yesh yesh yeshes.
man TODAY WAS PRODUCTIVE. OH YEAH IT WAS MAN. shoot. it korean at eight till 9 and then homesis oh yeeeeh boi. AND SLEEP oh good sleep from 9 3O till 3 45pm wooooooooohooooooo baby. that is some good sleep right there.

man i gota stop doing that. well. what the hey. live life the way you wanted it now and then you die happy. jk. i dont know. really. something very abstract. like painting. like vangoh. or vangho. ;LDJA;LDSKJF JAJAJAA WHAGTEVER.
owowowooww im so sleepy. but i didnt brush my teeth yet- oh yes very a;ldsfasdlfjasdlf.
man did i say il ove the smell of laundry. man i really like fluffy things for some wierd hella reason. who knows why. fluffy is good though really good.

oh man i got like this wierd pimple thing right about like super right above my upper lip ... im not sure if its a pimple.. i mean whenever i touch it... it hurts. and its a dot of whiteness. like a very smalll ball of whiteness. im not sure how you get rid of those. oh man its almost 5 in the morning. if i sleep now. its GG ... no korean test. fosho. oh shoot. what to do ... stay awake? man i hate my stupid right side shift key right now. its stupid.

oh man IM EXCIIITEDDDDD WWOWOJROEWIRWOEO its raining. catsis and doggies man i hate hotdogs. its not raining hotdogs . because i hate them. so its raining maybe watermelon because i love watermelon---ohhhhh also peaches and pineapples and grapes. yesh cuz i love them.
man i smells like laundries. ohhhh sooooo gooooooooood. and smelly good.
man i miss HIGHSCHOOL. YEAH REMEMBER HIGH SCHOOL. THOSE WERE THE GOOD DAYS. those were the days when i could skip school whenever i wanted cuz i always had mommy to call in sick for me. oh yeah good days. except that i was a overachiever.. hard to believe yeah. man me too. i hated missing class cuz i thought i would miss something really important. man was i stupid. well senior year i had major seniorities so it dont matter. i didnt really go. well actually i only took four classes during my senior year and finished school at 12 so no point in really skipping cuz im barely even taking any classes. but still. man . i hate college. ok not really. but sometimes yeah but sometimes its cool man i should make most of it, but sometimes i dont feel like it.

man i am sure of my INTJ status now. i am sure. i proved it. in my head. i know so. i do do do . man i dont getwhy people wont believe me. but they should. why not.
MAN TODAY I bought my plane tickets for forty bux. wow cheapness yaaaa. i thought me no buy but at the end i thought whatever i thought about transaction cost and it was better for me to fly so high in the sky. yeah . so me be coming back on jan 15th yeeeeeeeh. man i wish i could stay home longer. so i could sleep all day, snowboard, sleep, snowboard. man what an ideal winter right there.

man a;ldjfa;sljfas;ljfa;ldj ;LFGJDG;LAI HATEMYLFE OHMYLORDY. i have psych midterm next tues and ive only read 1 out of 6 chaptetrss;dalfjdslfjasd;lfjasdlfjdas;lfjdas;fljd; i hate myself. jejeejejeje. what a stressor. hower tower. power of the flower. fa;dlfjd;sla gosh shoot me. now. im so freakin SLEEEEPY. man today me had this kinda second-tier melona bar.. but it was pretty good. it wasnt as milky and creamy but still good but im full and my stomach is full too. man.
i cant take this no more... jajajaaj DUDE TOMORRw i bet you... ill write... that me and skim miissed korean and the test and wow gg our lives. JAJAJAJA. lets wait and see but i have a feeling that we wont wake up. man unless i dont ut alarm clock at all. then we are dead fsho. but i will put it cuz we need to wake up. but i mean there also could be the posssisbility of extreme sleeep. no hearing. no nothing. kaboot.
well lets not hope for that.
whatever.
ju ju power.
i need to do something
like sleep
or ima
seriously
die
yeaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay.
ok bye bye.
i will ttyl. JEJE;ALJF;ALDSJFAL;JF;LAJDSFLASDJF;LASJDF ;LASDJF;LASDJF;ASLJ

IM OLD

ok so i just read my last post.
man i sound retard. JAJAJAJA.
i just realized how retarded that sounded. oh well. i musta been on a food high or something.

so i will try to write more often. because i like writing my thoughts. because it liberates my mind from all the poop inside. so basically this page right hurr is the toilet. :D
good though right there. score.

southwest airline tickets for 3O bux.. thats a steal. i would buy it, but i aint needin it cuz me get a ride from mr fruity carols for thanksgiving and then winterbreak.. the offer not available. so whatevs.

man i need to spend more time at home. i will. starting tomorrow. no wait tomorrow i have to go to stacks. i think.

man i need to start eating better. this sucks. my eating schedule has gone hiya. wayward. basically. i never eat until dinner time. ja. that sucks for me. but ive been craving chipotel since forever.. so i think i will get it tomorrow. for lunch. i dont think ive had lunch in like a week. JAJAJA. thats really bad. man i think me ruined my body system already. my dad is gona hate me. he warned me about this. this sucks. oh well. its ok. when its my time. it will be my time.

man cant believe the semester is coming to and end already. oh swells. it was ok. but kinda really fast. wish it stopped for a little. so i could take a breather and chilx.

im kinda scared. because next week. i will be 2O. man thats a scary number. im changing decades. i dont know why im so scared. well im not really scared. cuz if i was really scared i would have to poop in my pants, but i dont feel like pooping in my pants. its more like. i dont want nov fourth to ever come. it should just stop on nov 1st or something . yeh. just stop. im not a teenager anymore. thats scary too. which means. that i have to grow up. man. life is complicated indeed. but i dont want to grow up yet. the world out there be too serious. yeah life has to be serious, but not all that much.

man i am technologically challenged. my laptop broke, it wont turn on- blank black screen. and the stupid four six eight and zero key wont work on my netbook. gosh. and scratch on my screen. but all in all. i am thankful. MAN AM I THANKFUL. for what i have when i dont deserve.

maaaaaaaaaaaan ive realized how much i love my mommy and daddy and my brother and my sister. man you need college to teach you these things. why am i bad daughter. i dont know. i need to be better to my parents. they do so much for me. man im s p o i l e d. so rottenly spoiled. i get everything that i want basically. i should be more thankful and take care of my stuff better. man i miss my mommy and my daddy despite the fights that will arise when i go back home. its ok i still love them. i wonder when ill be able to muster up the courage to say the 3 simple words: "i love you".

this week. me been freee. very free. no pressure. but wait till sunday. ohman. allnighter JAJAJAAJAJ. and sat all day at stacks. i hate myself. i mean i could have read so much yesterday and today. and i wasted it.
i didnt go to korean, soc and polisci wow gg. cuz i woke up late. i hate sign in sheets they should die. and break free. and fire. and KABOOM.
aish .. i think ive already missed more than 5 times. korean is gona gg me. good. ohhhhhhhhhhmeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeen.
i want to go watch a movie. man actually i want to do lotsa things. but im too lazy. how sad. there are so many wonderful things to do in life. but im too lazy to do those things.
man foreals. im not girly. foreals. i really am not. i AM NOT. i say i am not. so thats the end of it.

did i say i crave shadow babies? reallllly bad? maaaan . i want them so bad. thats the first thingim doing when i go back homsis. im eating THAT. i wana go snowboarding. soo beeeed. living in apt sucks.

i need to cut my nails. they are LONG. man my stomach hurts.
man. I NEED TO STAY HOME.
i had cake twice. today and yesterday.
brenda's bday and ari's bday. sweetness explosion.
ok. im getting a camera. i think ima either get a xsi or a t2i. either used or new. dont matter. im getting it.

i also need ralphlauren goodbye dry lotion. and uggs. and skullcandy heeadphones. a and f vest with fury hoodie. and a job. i have to get those asap. maybe uggs not so much. but whatever.

im dying my hair foshiiiz either this thanksgiving break or winterbreak and cutting my hair. but im also scared of that because they always cut it wiierd. like mullet and some eightys style or something.

man the jjangs has to sleep now. one day.
one day i will be able to sleep before 12 i believe i can.
GOODNIGHT. stomach is upset i should make it happy somehow.

so different

man suffermore year is so different from freshmen year.
to the maax. is like waoh . where did you come from yeah? dang. uhu. rainbow at the end of the sky. but where the hek is the end... you know? ok not really huh. yeah its ok. me too. we are both lost. yeah. like always.

man ok. so i really have to do this but i dont knw why i dont write. i have to i have to. like before like before. MAN. ok? ok . shoot. i forget everything. i do . i did. i will.
man one thing though. one thing.
ME LOVE COLD WEATHER. AND COLD COLD COLD. yeyaaah. so good. man.
i love it. i mean i just love it.
and i want a new backpack already.

man i cant wait to go home and eat me some shadow babies and all that good stuff.
man suffermore year is so wierd. fsho.
me feels wierd.
i dont know where my next meal comes from. man basically. me bum. yeah im bum. no problem.

i dont know what else there is to say. cuz everything i wanted to say i forget. so there is no point in continuing this post JAJAJAA.

twinkle twinkle little star

YES! done with the first wave of midterms! YEAAAAAAAAAHBOI. ... thats what i thought. BUT NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO. why? cuz second wave starts next tuesday!! YAY. hurray. i hate you. ohmylordy. ive wanted to shoot myself for the past month. i just wana die right now. i wish i could.

whatever. life goes on. so what if i express my misery on to the world. is that going to change anything? no its not. what the hek. im so stupid.

ive neglected my blog for 2 weeks i think. the longest i have ever. so strange cuz freshmen year was so carefree. i would have a midterm the next day and intead of studying i would be writing on my blog. what the hey. but things changed this year. its not me. its my brain maybe mentality that changed. i dont really know how or why i do the things that i do. all i know is that i do them.

i would like to write down the accounts of the past 2 weeks. but sadly. i forgot. because i do have terrible memory. boohooness. but i do remember styding at stacks alot. oyeah. did i mention i hate polisci? well im done with that midterm. i probably failed. which you know its totally fine. because if i fail that midterm then i will get a bad grade in polisci and then i wont be able to get into media studies. you know.. its totally fine.

last weekend was sierra lodge trip. it was pretty spiffy stuff. not too shabby. playedALOT. kayaked. ALOT. ohmylordy. that was like 20 miles across the lake. JAJA. i thought i was foreals gona die and my arms were gona come off. overall had a good jolly time. i got sick on sunday.

monday through thurs i spent studying . or more like tried studying. well its more like i kinda gave up studying. JAJAJJAAJ. yeah no more dude no more. too much of it. im sick of it. so no more. studied with freshie sung. i dont think that helped all that much. for the midterm that is. but whatever. freshmen are indeed freshmen. but me... i wasnt like a"freshmen" you know. i was cooler, composed and blowing your mind like the wind. woooosh woooosh. yeh. just like that.

yesterday i went to cotsco with tin and skim. JAJAJ. thought i was gona buy more, but seriously i never go home. so what is the point of buying food that is gona be rotting in the fridge anyways. so i just bought chicken and grapes. JAJA. im satisfied. i hate apt life. foreals.
dude skim bought like 2 months worth of food. i could never do that because i know i would never eat at home anyway. i already have salad rotting in the fridge.. i bought it at cotsco and had it once and never touched it again.
ok then i went to bt.and there i dont remember what i did. oh
koinops.
then i went home i think. to get my clothes.
bible study. they changed the name .
tc practice. exciteddish.
then me and paige sleepover at mulan's homsis in alameda :D
it was fun . i was hella tired. i felll asleep in jiffy. lube.

today morning they woke me up. i was hella sleepy. came to suzie, gina's place to eat brunch? but only fobnim, annie stroter, jessicatsai were here so we ate with them. i was hella sick this morning. ew i felt ew. then baby jayden came. oh how sad. i couldnt even touch him. i hate my sickness at this moment. im so sad. then baby hamster came too :( im so freakin sad. man this was like torture . seeing them from afar and not being able to hold them.. gosh.

then i went back to sleep. cuz seriously i was hella tired/sick. but i woke up and me is all better now. oh yeh.
cake batter ice cream. oh yeehe.
i have a majorly hurting pimple blossoming right under my left nostril. its so lovely.
man i have to write my paper for soc.
i dont wana.
i wana sleep.
eat chipotel
dude. this blog is almost a year old. waaaow.

home in a month. .
i cant wait to eat GOGI. uh. i havent had it ever since i left home. i WANT GOGI! I WANT SHADOW BABIES AND GALBI AND ALL THAT GOOD STUFF. NOW. ;dsfljas;flakjsf;ladsjkf duruuuung tapi tapi tooopekkaaaa. now.
mystomach hurts.
byebye. hello paigy. byebye.
i failed korean test.

disturbing

it has been a day. a day where. i come to understand.
its about redemption. and other quirky things like chimichongas. ohh yeehhh.
and burritos and quesos.
man i love queso.
so much.
man i want to go to cheesecake factory :) and eat eat eat. its like sing sing sing, but its eat eat eat, i should make a song about eat eat eat. yeh that would kinda be awwesome cool and nice. i guess.

i wana eat the 4 cheese pasta and steak. man and their quesadilla is good. so yumm yums i wish i could go for my bday. man my bday i dont wana hear that. again.

man im full. my tummy is full. for the gummies.
psych 2 is wonders. i likes. but really not class. no make sense forsure.
something quite deluded.

oh man i have to work on my polisci paper tomorrow. all daaaay. i really hope i can finish it or at least be half way done with it so i dont have to deal with it much later and then freak out like crazy like i usually do. jeeeeeez.
ok work on it work on it.
not keeeewl. it be kinda ewwwwwwww.
oh man october 1st.
again .
i m starting to sleep alot again. man not good.
alot.

man i really wants right now.
the skull candy headphones. and maybe timchoi'syellownorthface backpack. i m seriously considering it. to buy it that is.
kimchijigaaaaaae.
today was fun.
i think. it was quite the fun funs.
me now equals tired.
me goes now.
bye bye.

a crooked mind

soft face.
i love those.
but i havent really washed my face for a long time. with face wash that is.
just water it. cuz im too lazy. oh yeeh. but i do brush my teeth twice a day. sometimes thrice.
i should put a mask on .. sometime soon. so my face be soft. i either have white or black heads i forget which, but they be haters. but i dont have them as often i guess. its a good thing. a;dlfja;sldjf.

this week has been somewhat whatevers.
i realized that stacks was my home for about 17 to 18 days sraight. waow. seriously waow. and many more to come.
psych 2 midterm was easier than i thought, but i didnt go to the last 5 lectures, so i missed out on lecture questions. me genius. but whatevers.
but after midterm i wasnt relieved. i was kinda sad. because i has freakin another paper due next week. GRREATT. and i dont even know what to write really. i tell you.

ive realized how much i hate the studying part of college. here i break it down.
1. i suck at math. last math i took was trig in junior year.
2. i hate bio. last time i took a bio class was in 9th grade.
3. i suck at chem. i almost failed that class in hs.
4. lets not even talk about physics
5. i thought i liked us history, but no. no more of that.
6. i dont like english. i hate writing essays.
7. i would do psych, but got bio and chem. hek no.
8. i really dont wana do soc. but im already taking some classes for the major. i really do not want to take stats. gg my life.
9. basically i hate everything.
10. i just want to be fbi. jeez.

i hate polisci.

im hungry. but i dont know why. i just had a samwich an hour ago.

sometime me feels like going to bcc.

on monday. i went to bt. all day. studied. then stacks. until 2.
tuesday. i missed korean, soc 111 and polisci. yay. actually that was good sleep. then bt. to study. then take midterm. it was f;asldfjasldjfasl;f. then i went to get my stuff at bt. then i go home. i was kinda depressed. i dont know why. i had to write an email. johnny bought me thai noodle. that right thurr is miracle. then stackss but it was hella full so we went to dwinelle. then dwinelle close so we went to stacks. until 2.
heidi was angry/disturbed.
wednesday. class. noooooooooo dis for polisci. ohmygah. i was so happy. sooooo happy. i hate that dis. went home. took a 5 hour nappppp :P felt so good. went to bt. i dont know what i did there. foreals. came home early to talk to heidi.
overall. good talk. sweet girl. me bad roommate. thats the end of it.
in order to make up for lost time- i watched a kdrama w her.

i want to make a goal to sleep before 12. how wwill that happen? i foreals dont know. so foreals i think ima die. because i dont drink enough water. or liquid for the matter.
i think my health will soon be gone. deteriorated. kaboom. longgg byebye.

i hate berkeley weather. it makes me grow some feathers. fal;sdfjalsjfas.d get it. innovation!. cuz weather is hot. weather--> feathers. because its hot. if i have feathers it makes me even hotter. so WEATher and FEATHERS. for some wierd reason i thoughts that feather spelled wrong.

i really want to go home right now and sleep. i want to sleep sleep sleep.
have a good nap and everything. with my besfriends. i really like sleeping with peggy but shes somtimes stares at me wierd. actually mickey m. is also a wierdo. he has big eyes and they be black so dark. that sometimes i get scared and so i smash his face on the wall. but i really like dr. porky. hes nice to sleep with and to hug.
dude what kind of hunger is this. STOP IT STOMACHH STOP IT. jeez.

MAN OK. so this is it. i think im going to buy a new dslr. i was going to pay $250 to repair my canon but i dont know if its worth it, i might as well buy a new canon rebel 2ti or the t1i. or perhaps a nikon d90. im looking into it. i dont know. though. ok i think ima buy a new one. or i can actually just ask one for my birthday. but i would want to pay for half of it because i would feel bad.
OHHHHH. yeah i could do that. i don tknow. whatever. no thinking no more for now.
actually sometimes. i want to be a photographer. im not good. but i want to learn. i have to take class then . ohhhhinnovation.

HOLLAAAAAAAAA.
i dont want to stay in polisci.
i think ima leave really soon. because this is stupid.
i need to do something better.
man i have this wierd hunger feeling which is relaly wierd to the max. max max.
paper paper paper. boring professor.
i want the recon backpack. should i get.... yeah still thinking about it.

MAN. im sad at the thought of turning 20.
in exactly one month and some days. lets say 4 days? yeah AS;DLJKFS;LADKJFSDAJ;LSDAF. im so old. old old old. until bday comes. i will complain about my 20 years age.
actually no. i shall enjoy these last weeks of teenage dreams. as;dlfjsdl;fjslfjs. but im really really really sad though. 20 is an ugly number. because new decade age. uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuh. as;ldjfslfj.
so seulpuhs.

i just realized that parents anniversary is on sept 11.
my family is cute. kind of.

i wish i could have deeper relationships with every person i met. that would be pretty nice. but there is not enough time and not enough space. i think. but i really wihs i did know every single person better.

dude my freakin polisci professor is bogus. HE IS SO BORING AND WHY IS HIS VOICE SO MONOTONE AND GAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHr.

i LOVE THE SMELL OF LAUNDRY OH SO MUCH. i cannot get enough of it. actually its tide. but i dont think its tide. cuz when i go back home the laundry smell is SO FREAKIN GOOD but mommy bought me the same kind of tide she uses at home, but mine doesnt smell as nice. WHYYYYYYY. i dont get it. gosh. gosh gosh.
ok ima going to leave polisci because i dont need it to write my paper. ok maybe not. because actually lydia told me today... that im paying for this class anyways. so i think i will stay.

whatever. dude. whatever.
ok i think i been writing for too long.
hasta la vista. i want a camera.
FP.

home alone

heidi went to pbl retreat.
me alone at home.
since yesterday.

its so funny. cuz whenver she be home..i sleep over.. but whenever shes not home i always sleep over at my place..is kinda funny. and i cant believe 2 nights in a row on the weeekend.
was supposed to sleeep over at mr fruity carols place but their bathroom broke. pooor them i would die. I THINK THE BEST INVENTION EVER. IS THE bathroom. foreals. no joke.

bathrooms are important. i mean yeah. we go to the bathroom to do the things we need to do in order to stay clean. like shower and take care of our business. i think the toilet is innovaaaaation. the sink too.
everything else that comes with the bathroom is good stuph.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4HjR4dLHxy4 need to keep this so i dont forget but i like this.

man
JAJAJAJAJA how is it that i never have food at home? i seriously dont get iT..
as;dlfjas;dlfjasldjfaslfjas;dljfasldjfa. have ccereal but no milk. butter but no bread. onion ... onion for what?! i have no idea. foreals. seriously living in apt sucks. i have no idea what to cook. im so lost. in the aprtment living world.

why in the world. do i get bullied so much :(
first i get called a man. now a hippo.
waow. messed up ppl.

ok fine. ill just live with if it means to live with awesomeness and courage like that. that made no sense but i dont care.

mikey is a yuhj. jejeje. waow such a yuhj. its cool.

today. what did i do.
slept. woke up. stacks. JAJAJAAJ. thats my day basically. foreals. nice nice huh.

i want more JOHN $1SCOOP ICE CRAeam. its so good. ima go tomorrows too.
psych is interesting.
butt i dont wana be a psych major.
i cant stand math or bio.
why do we have earwax. to me its random .

man what the hek now. i have to go pick up johnny.
what a baby. dude. what a baby.
midterm midterm midterm!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
yaaayuuuuuuuuuuuuh.
i need water
i need a water filter! why dont i have one! im so stupid. i need to do laundry
but no coins.
gosh i fail at so much
at making rice too... i think i got it but i really dont.
:(
im saaaaaaaad. bery bery sad.
ok im so full.

i have donuts. i got it. but it looks hella disgusting.

oh man im alone
lonelyyyyyyyy. i am so lonelyyyyyyyyyy. i aint got nobodyyyyyyyyyy. all on my owwwwwwwn. man i wana go to seven eleven and buy me some water.
ok i think i will.
ok bye bye.

not done yet

actually never.
tired. restless. no more.

ok ive decided. im going to become a recluse and become wang-ta status if thats what it takes to be productive.

i hate suffermore year. alot. i suffer.

sometimes i dont understand my own head.
how can i be so dumb sometimes. i mean it is a usable good and potentially hazardous at times, but why. it dont make sense.

sometimes i think im possessed by something because my mind works on its own. i cannot control. i guess for the good of humanity me needs to keep away from the world for some time.

i live at the stacks anyways.
i wana die already. siiiiiighs.
ive been thinking about going to bcc for a year or so. it might be kinda stupid, but sometimes, i cannot handle. and some things need to be done.

have also been sleeping 3-4 hours everyday since school started. i am so sleep deprived. maybe. that be why my brain dont function properly. well actually. when does it ever.

liiiiiiiiiight. shine on me. shine on me. enlighten the cheese.
cheese sounds good and yummy right now... like a quesadilla with sour cream tomato sauce guacamole.

also been eating out almost everyday. no- not almost- ist been ERDAYYY. i dont know how good or bad that is. im not sure if youre supp0se to eat out everyday. in the past 2 weeks, ive only eaten a home cooked meal once.

i really like my netbook. i actually really really really like it. '

psych 2 midterm next week. ㅠㅠ
this weekend is another one of those. at stacks. no time for play anymore. for sometime beckysong shouldnt talk to no one and meet no one.

man im really hungry right now. .... i just wana go home and sleep.

i realized that im super really spontaneous. im the up for anything kind of person.

sometimes. toward people. im really thankful. so thankful that i wana cry. the way i express my gratitude is not enough. i wish i could do more. but i just dont know what else to do.

should i go study abroad. junior year. for a semester. either chile or korea.
i dont know.

i turned in my soc111 paper. i should have this sense of satissfaction. but funny. me doesnt. beceause. i feel like i need to do more. continue on with this fight with the books.

mothers who enjoy work, have better health.

what the hek is blast. seriously. blast. what the hek.

i want to go try the maoz vegetarian place. im thinking of becoming vegeterian. ... i think unless you are a hermit, being a vegeterian is quite diffficult. i mean if you be a hermit then you dont really have to be tempted by yummy smells and images of meat or so. but when your family eats every other kind of korean gogi plus steak at home- nooo waaaay joseeeeee.

im very sleepy.
i want to sleep.
i need sleep.

polisci paper. :( gg.
its over-

GGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG

like wrestlers.
i wana take tkd agian.
my hair kinda like is wierd. my bangs front goes flingg but at the ends it gos boom... like hella low and down and on my face and i dont like at all.

ggggggggggggggggg my life. gggggggggggggg. to the max. all the time. ohmyosh.
stacks 24/7...
have been to stacks 13 or 14 days in a row. neverstopping work and reading and sadness and everything. so depressing. really.

yesterday. me FAILED quiz. basically cuz i didnt show up for the class.
JAJAJAAJAJA. i didnt hear my alarm clock. so gg korean.
missed psych 2 experiment thing. gg that too.
but went to soc 111 office hours. tried to study at bt.
got something done. im not sure how much. met up with emchoch ate some yogurtland. yay awesome pawesome talk about stuff. good deep stuff. i love you eeeeeeeeem.

ate la burrita with johnny. what a retard boi. seriously.
then study at bt for something hours. then u3 get copy done something something something.
YEYUHS i get free photocopying at u3 :) yayayaayayayayaya.
WAOW my hair is bothering me soo muchies.
2 in the morninggggg taco bell fail. it was closed.
mr fruity carols jack in the boox. woot wooooot. waow peach ice tea is the bomb. so goodness graciousness.

anything you can do i can do better.
i can do anything better than you. no you cant. yes i can. no you can. yes i can. no you cant. yes i can. :P
thats stuck in my head.

MY BRAIN IS POOOOOOOOOOOPED. OHHHH YEH. foreals. II WONDER IF ITS GONA BE POOPE FOR THE REST OF THE SEMESTER.
i think i should just live at stacks like the books. just stay in a shelf and then get out during the morning.
there is no point of coming to polisci lecture because i dont even pay attention though. i really dont get why i come to polischi... i think ima stop coming to polisci and soc 111. but then i dont know what i would do instead. pointless. OHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH WAAAAAAAAAASHHHHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOM. poinltess.

ohmgysohha;sldkjfasdl;fjasd;lkjfa. why is mylifeso gggggg. all the time. aaaaaaaaaaaaah . stacks today. psych ... i dont know about that. i dont know if i should go. ohmygosh i have to do psych hw ok i will.
ok i dont wana say anything anymore because im really tired and so are my eyes and my hands.
my hair is bothering me.
im hungers jingers.
ok bye byes.

dim sum in the sun

nah.
normally not.
really.
no thank you.
you are very bleeeeh. hmm . yeah sorry.
foreals.
i dont really like it that much. if you were to take me somewhere. dont ever take me to dimsum. a;lsdjfalfjaslfjasdlf.
its ok actually. but just saying.

hmmmmm ice cream. hmmmmmmmmm. fried rice. hmmmmmmmm. stuff.
todaays. oakland for dimsumm. seriously itwas ok. really. im just hmmm trying to express my love-or not so love about dimsum.
but rest assured. it was a good lunch. foreals.

2 30 STAAAAAAAAACKING IT. oh yeah baby. left at exactly 10 pm. waaaaaow. yeah
BOIIIIIIIIIIIIII. foreals. PSYCH 2. i finally caught UP! AS;DLJKFASD;LFKJAS TOO EXCITED UYHUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU. AYAAAAAAAAAAA. YEA YEAH YEAH I THOUGHT THIS DAY WAS NEVER GONA COME. it took me 2 weeks.
oh yeah .
but surprise surprise!!!
quiz on monday. 100+ for p0lisci. midterm essay due thursday. OH BOI. IM JOLLY EXCITED.

me is currently over at mr. fruity carols place. chillaxing with the monster house. indeed. there is mr raccooon. mr fruity carols cleopatra. mr mongolian beef and mr jinjijojong. which are fantabulous ppl .

so i took myers briggs again. for the 5th or 6th time. i gets. the ENFP. hmm. dubious. yes. doubtful yes. but hmm accurate. no. i says. its the first time i gets that. man i really like this house. jejje. the pink sheet cover does wonders when you sleep.
man and they got so much food. itslike they could feed a whole zooo. waow. waaaaow.
i met jinji jojongs friend today. her name is christine i think. or christina. well one or the other. but i think ha;ldfjasdlfj. i dont know what me thinks. i think we connects. i think she loves me. ok jk.. no she dont. but shes cool. jinjijojongs friend is cool..

im currrently so sleepywaoow. man. that kinda sucks a little. everytime i writes on here i is sleeepy. waow. gosh .
hello mikey. good stuff today :P
it was crunch time.
crunch time crunch ang ang ang munch munch munch.
cant waIT TIll tomorrow morning to eat .
man isnt that exciting. to know that the next day you is gona has food in yo mouth. i think its something quite exciting.

INnOVATION yes? succh a cool word. ohmygash. i think its very practical and ...well if you execute it well. its well worth it. :) fshoo.

marissa sorry today no arc with you :( really sorry. me feels very bad foreals.

man i thought would never say this. but i really like one of justin bieber's songs. SOMEBODY TO LOOOOOOOOOOVE . A;DLKnanananannannana. its a good song. i think... or more like i like the beat of the song, i have realized that i dont like a song because of its lyrics, but jus because of the beat and stuff. OOOOOUHHHHHHHHHH. uhus . jejejjeejejje :P
waow JINJIJOJONG IS FREAKEN SMART. dont mess w that girl. hek no. dont dont. ill give you the no no finger. fsho.
ok man its dying time week. OHHHHHH YEAH. NO JOKE. ok
since its gona be this way. hmmmm. it has to be done with apples and appples of apples of apples or apples play apples.
oh yeah
mommy and daddy sold a car. :P
so that means new car. i dont know what the getwhich one they sold. a;dlfjas;dlfj INNOVATION!

im not an idiot. i dont know why so many people call me that.
that is not cool. crampps mah styyyle. oh yeeeeh.
oh yeah jinjijojongs friend's last name is yeh. i think that is seriously by far THE coolest last name ever. YEEEEEEEEEEEEEH. basically. she rocks my socks.
ok
me goes now.
its kinda gettting late.
not really.
its getting nightish. or morninghish.
sometimes the world has some hella wierd concepts.
oh yeah i learned alot today. reading about psych. waow. SEROUSLY . lots of innovations,. oh yeah. good stuuuuuuphhhh. like baby phaaaat. uhuuuuuu.
ok im really really sleepy right now. so ima go now.

PEEEEEEEEEAAAAAAAAAAACCCCCCEEEEEEEEEE. peace sign .

feliz cumple chile

chile feliz cumple- 200 anios. ke la pases re bien. no te he olvidado
y me la pierdo. debe ser de lujo las fiestas ke van a ofrecer durante la noche. y te apuesto ke la van a celebrar grande. no es como ke me importe pero igual al fondo de mi corazon siento un lugar vacio ke necesita ser rellenado por algo ke calme mi inquetud. un dia como este me de vuelve a las memorias de mi neniez cuando todavia estaba viviendo en chile. las buenas memorias de aquel tiempo nunca fallan en dejarme con una sonrisa. lo triste es lo ke hago yo cuando estoi en facebook. cuando veo las fotos de mis amigos de chile, siempre pienso en el pasado. que hubiera pasado si no me hubiera mudado a los estados unidos. seria yo una persona diferent. viviria la misma vida ke vivien mis amigos. las preguntas siguen sin fin. ojala ke un dia .... ke sea dentro de 3 anios, pueda ir de vuelta para estudiar ke sea. ke pase. ke pase.

me is tired. very sleepy for some reason.
today i almost missed my korean class. i woke up at 8:05 again. i did that yesterday too. but today i had a test. the only reason why i wakes up at 8 was cuz heidi's alarm went off. if it werent for that i woulda missed it. big time. waow. i had to run to class. thats the first time i run to class. i hate running to class cu its uncomfortable. foreals. whatevers. i took it.
i slept pretty late though. i think 2 30. maybe that be whys.
me skim and daniel was at fsm studying for korean. i dont really know if we got much studying done, but i gots my papers done and i studied somewhat. who knows if they gots anything done. whatevers.
i also took soc quiz yesterday. waow. i ammm freeeeee. NOT. waow. so not free. what the hek am i talking about. more than anything i feels dead. like hmmm dead skin on your skin. something like that.

after korean test. i came back home. slept. heard phone ring. uaou. joeun and san locked themselves out of apt. so they came to home and pick up laundry detergent. man. gaaaaaaash. i was having such a good nap. they cramped my styyyle. :( ok jk. that is pretty selfish of me. so i was seriously jk. then tried t go back to sleeep buto good. so washed dishes and showered and did some other stuff i dont really remember. then heidi came back home. then joeun and san came back too.
ohhhhhhhhh yeeeeeeeeeh. today was the first time ever. i made kimchi bokumpab. WWWWWWAOW. heidi said it was pretty good. but i think she be lying. just to be nice cuz i put in too much gochu jang and it was hella spicy. waow. hella spicy. but for seome reason.... jang gi ruhm kinda neutralizes the spicyness. kinda. just kinda. but whatever. it was good. to beckysong. it was heavenly delish. no not really. i was jk. because no. it wasnt. but you know what. i mad eit. whae;fjasdlfkajsfda. ok maybe not good. whatever. joeun and san stayed at my homsis until jeff open their door. i went to bt for game and announcement thing.
soudns fun and doable.

then i just stayed a bt . i slept some. and did some something. i dont remember. maybe bobaed it. then went to eat blah blah blahdl jfas;dfj. eat eat eat. then went to bstudy. then sf
in n out. didnt crave it that badly for reason. dunno why. oh i was full that be why. then ghirardelli. earthquake. shake shhhhhake. no more. i dont . man i love icecream but after i eat ice cream i always hate it. like. right. now.

i needs to study . study. i think i aam officials obsessed with studyin. i dont want to, but my brain just wants to . i cant control it. its like robot. it just moves
on its own. or mayeb its like something else. i duno what. whatever. im so sleepy. i would write more random thoughts. have lots stored. but forget easily . and im sleepy and my mind no funtion properly. meeting too many people
this girl named melody is my st=yle. shes kinda cool. not as much as me i think, but shes up there.

i taught slang to these 2 fob girls. waow. so funny. brabiiiiiisimoooo. this one fob girl has legit fob accent. SOOOOOOO funny. i taught her how to say legit, but she pronounces it rigid instead. which cracks me up. but i cannot really show that i am laughing at her accent. i mean i dont really mean to, but its just funny. i mean i suck at korean. so i dont know. its like a give and take? i dunno.
ohmygosh. im sleepy. i cant no more. fooooooooreaaaaaaaalssssss.

MAN I FEEL UPPERCLASSMEN. maaaaaan freshmen are little jassheeks. maaan. ok whatever.
gud nightuh.

JAJAJAJJJAJAJAJAJAJAJJAJJJAJAJA

yeah incredulous. it is.
everything is so seriously not cool.
sleeping schuedule is messed up. eating habits messed up. studying time messed up. lets just call it a messed up me.
my stomach hurts again. dude. my system is a failure to the max.

i am seriously sleep deprived. i know so. i have been reading non stop for alittle over a week now. my brain is seriously frying. not only can i hear it sizzle, but i can also smell it. yeah cool huh. uhu.

been at stacks erday all day. kinda.

yesterdays. i went to school. i didnt go to psych 2 because i just couldnt. just overwhelmed with the amount of work i have in my hands.
did dts at btown.
i know officaly live there.
i stays there until eating with ashton kutcher, but somehow it ended being like me jinji jojong, annie, winnie, this other girl i forget her name at ghetto. then i goes home to do something, i forget what. then i goes to prayer meeting.
then me jenny and rosy goes to ghetto to get donuts. man donuts. i dont think i want to eat a donut for some time.
then we were gona to go stacks but we goes to btown instead. MAN i think the 2 hours or so i was there i got nothing done. shilmangs. to da maxxxxi.
i played with abby, held nico and who knows what else i did. but no studying at all.
so at 11 i decided to go to stacks. ohhhhhhh got some stuff done actually.
it dont look like it but i did get what i needed to get done for today.
so mr fruity carols got locked out of her houssseee cuz she didnt bring her keys.
so she slept over at my place. :)
we talks and sleeps.

today. korean. man early classes. shoot today my goal before 2. thats all i want before 2. i didnt even finish some reading though, but my stomach hurts therefor is all good.
after korean. i eat bagel w skim. bt. then chill then section for polisci. JAJAJAJAJAJAAJAJA i fell asleep infront of the gsi. for about 40 min. whatever dudes. i was tired. but whatever. it wasnt like i missed anything cuz i read it. :P DUUUUUUUUUUDE. yeah i read it. i dont think that has ever happened before. where i read something in advanced. well i have but that was cuz i needed to for that class that day, but this time it was kinda like ohhh speedy gonzalez.

dying. dying. dying. foreals.

1. quiz for soc tomorrow.
2. test for korean on friday.
3. korean report due friday.
4. midterm essay due next thurs for soc
5. next next week psych midterm
6. 120+ pgs for polisci and psych and soc.
7. YYAAAAYUUUUUUUUH. GGGGGGGGGGG.

only good thing happpen today. in my life. volleyball.
man i really suck at volleyball, but really i wana be good, but i jus dont know how. my body wont listen to me. foreals. its not like im dumb and i stand there doing nothing becaause i jus feel like standing there doing nothing. i guess i am just a little slow at being smart and witty and fast. but its really really fun.

i miss my camera.
i stacked it today w jinji jojong.
people always know where to find me.
cuz im either at btown or stacks. :P
ok tomorrow ima be a loner to the mx. i dont think ima go to psych class again.
its like at 3 30 . no i will not. ima go to stacks. well actually i have to eat at home since i havent had a meal at home in who knows how long. and then bymyself i will stack it. and study until the daylight shines with joy and happyness forever and ever like the gummy bears and their friends with pony and dancing.
my stomach hurts.

:(

suckydy suck suck suckers.
bleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeh. byebye.

sleep deprived

lately yeah.
i dont sleep enough.
난 바보다.
but i still have energy despite the lack of sleep.
i havent had one meal at home since saturday or friday. thats pretty really sad.
i dont even know what im eating because i dont eat at home.
:(
heidi must be pretty sad and lonely without me in the apt.

ive been reading like a madman. trying to catch up but as much as i read, i never seem to be able to be on track.

man. ive been at stacks alottttt. ALOOTT. and many more to come.
yesterdays i went to korean. hoorray for mondays and fridays. for korean. but bum bum bummer its a 8 am.
10 am went to bt. did dt (that rhymes, what a mastermind). started reading for polisci.
yesterday eating was bad. i had fries for lunch and ice cream for dinner. :) JAJAJAJa. so bad. messed up eating.
was at bt for about 6 hours. reading reading reading reading reading. reading reading. reading. and more reading. i dont even remember what i read.
then went to stacks w jennyy. but then i forgets to have dinner w someone. :( what a kinda bad person.
근데 그레도 나는 짱 .

haaaaad $1 john's ice cream with 호재. :)) gaaaaaaaaah. finally had cake batter ice cream. it was so DEELISh. i wish i could go erday, all the time. after that we went to study. i cant read anymore. im done with reading. im going crazy reading. ohmygoodnes i cannot no more.

unable to do my job. unable to fuunction properly. unable to unables.

i lost my phone today. at dwinelle. some good samaritan turned in my phone to the office. there should be more people like that in this world. like me. jk. nope not like me.

i am super hungries. wow yeah i am. i had an apple. not good enough. i need to go home and eat. and read. man. my life consists of READING. that sucks. i wasnt like this freshmen year. i wish i was back to freshmen year and takin it chiiiiiilll. but my brain wont let me do that. i dont even know why im coming to lectures. i cant even listen to what the maestro is saying.

LLOYD is a retard. someone needs to go to japan. nurf gunned.

i wish yogurtland went back to the apple flavor one. i like it better than peach. i dont really like taro and pumpkin pie flavor. yuks.

i really dont understand ppl who study at home. i really cannot cannot. sometimes i wish i could od it, well not really.
i want to go to the berkeley marinaaa. take my laptop and watch a movie right next to the skunks and the raccoons. thats what im talkin about.

i wana go see my mom. and i wana eat korean delish food from home. im foodsick.

i need to cut my bangs.

ohmygosh im going home.
bye.
soc 111-good class to sleep in.
polisci1-also good class to sleep in.
psych2-super good class to sleep in.
gona go take a nap now until .. forevers.

rotten

yeeeeeeeeaaaaaaaah. rotting at hoooooome.
lovelyyyyyyyy.
writing on blog has been ever more difficult. oh yeah.
i dont really knows whys.

today . i rot. jejejejejajajaajjojojjijijijjujujujuju.
home all day.
i thought i was gona go study at stacks, but no.
fails jejej. fail fail fail fail fail.
the only thing i did today. was seriously nothing.
OHHHHHH WAIT.
korean market
to get rice, mandoo and yeah thats it i think .
it should last me for 2 months or so . i dont wana go grocery shopping. i hate it. dude with a pssion. i dont know how my mommy does it.

anyways yesterday i went to watch
a korean movie. for korean class
i watched hae un dae... i think thats what it was.. it was good movie. i liked it. i really did actually. foreals.
i think everyone should watch it. really.
it made me cry. kinda .
its about a tsunami hitting korea. busan i think. somewhere there.
after movie i called my mom and told her to stay home for the rest of her life and never come out.
i will never ever live somewhere near a tsunami.
never.

ok you know what its so late. and so sleepy. and no more .
i go ice cream safeway but scary walking so come back.
sorry lloydatrons.
no bus. no more. me solo. come back.

ok
me nighty night night. byebye.

i hate tuesdays and thursdays

with a passion.
i dont know how i m supposed to live. i really dont.
im so freakin sleeepy.
i am writing on my blog so i dont fall asleep. polisci is boring
i slept through most of soc 111. i cant do this no more. this is too much.
i want to give up and not come to class no more. if it were the last year me, i would def gone home and been sleeping at this moment. gosh this sucks like a baby sucking on a tree. the tree is so icky and yucky the baby is crying. yeah i feel like that baby.

i need me a printer. oh yes. i does. i used to love going to stacks last year and i still do, except that i don t like going there. its so far. i dont want to walk. its sooo far. i dont want to study at home. i dont even know why i have a desk. i have never used it. i have junk on it. but i was thinking, ok i dont wana go to stacks should i just study at home. but i dont think ima do that because i wont study. period. i just wana sleep. i know i will. i need me some real something. i really dont care about politicians.

ohmygosh. so to the awesome advice of the wise mr fruity carols. i am seriously considering some other major. she said that i shouldnt do soc cuz that aint no good for life. and i got no job after college. ohmygoodnes. i dont know what to do know. shoot. i need me a counselor right now. but i m too lazy to go see one. ok i think ima do media studies for sure but i have no idea what my other one be.

ohmygoodnes im so stupid. i keep on typing a c after my h's every word. that is ridonk.

i got a new id card because i lost both my other ones. im so genius. i bet you another id card next semester. shoot. im pretty sure ima need a new one twice a year. i can forsee it already.

i am one hella studious human bean. i dont know even why i try. ive been reading alot. alot alot. and studying. its incredible and horrible its incorrible. i really dont know why im doing this. when i could be doing something else. sleep.

DID I SAY I HATE TUESDAYS AND THURSDAYS. i dont know if i wana go to psych today. i really will think about that. i dont want to read anymore! everyday i have planned to read. GOSH. can i please stop doing that.

im going to go get that freaken recon. i dont care. ima just get it. whatever. before i eggsplode.

i want to cut my hair. i think ill do it myself. PUAJAJAJa. ima probably ruin it then write how horrible it looks and then im going to cry on my blog. i also want to dye it. that one i will probably do this weeekend or next weekend. im seriously balding. my hair is thinning. i don tknow what to do . im not only going to have alzheimers but also have bald spots disease. this is foreals. i am not exaggerating or kidding or whatever. i am seriously balding. my hair feels so much thinner. blah blah blah.

i dont know anyone in my polisci 1 class. i dont now anyone in my soc 111 class. i should make some friends, but too lazy to talk to anyone. i guess id rather talk to my computer. rather lame you must think. but fear not. its not lame at all. because i do so. because being a loner status is cool and ok. forsure.

yesterday i didnt go to class. none of my classes. not because of sleep. but i did sleep instead of going to my classes. i had major headache and stomach ache again. I AM ONE DESTROYED CHILD. my body is retarded. it wont function properly jeez. whatever i guess its ok.

i need a job. please.

boys are really 바보. soooo much.

SO this weeekend. i have to read. alot. yay. this is so awesome. weekend is stacking time. plan this saturday is waking up at like 12. taking shower blah blah blah and then going to stacks at like 2 and staying there until 10 or something. OHHHHHHHH YEAHHHHHHHHH.
i wana go homesis.

oh sujin came to visit from socal. jeje. i hadnt seen her since forever. actually since grad. she llooks like fob. FOB alert to the alertnesssessss. so me sujin and jeesoo went to eat zacharys. it was pretty bomb. yeah pretty good. uhu. and then we went to icys or icis or however you speell that.i had the vanilla balsamic caramel. PUAJAJAJA. i had that. i cant belives it too. yeah the ice cream has the balsamic, vinegary taste. aside from that gross vinegary taste, it was perfect. i have no idea why in the world i got that because i couldnt enjoy it. boohoo. you know. i don tknow what about icis or icys is so good. i meean what is all the hype about. its just ice cream. like seriously. i think johns dollar one is better. i think i want to go there today to get ice cream. cake batter. yyyyyuuuuuuummmmyyyy. if i could advertise this i would: anyone who would come with me today to eat ice cream. i buy for you.

my ipod died. i dont know why. well the stupid usb thing for ipod died. and it says i have to reconfigure my ipod with itunes. but i dont got no usb thing. JAJAJA. to lazy to ask anyone for it.

you know whats really really yummy. honey roasted peanuts. oh yeah man. honey roasted peanuts R THE BOMb. i was gona eat that for lunch, but i think i need to finish my green leaves in my fridge.

i dont care about checks and balances. ok 30 min left for my class to be donezzo. i think ima just go now because i cant take it anymore. its not like im listening to that guy.

i need a water filter. i need one desperately. yeah how unfortunate i am.

i want skull candy headphones. like legit big ones. :P
i need to go to rsf now. i have to make membership.
ok i cant take no more. i need to leave.
bye bye.
the guy sitting next to me is breathing hella loud. i wana tell him something, but hes really really tall and bigger than me. so no. its ok.

complications

hellow.
im sleepy.
i forget what happened.
ok this happened not in order:
1. alice house ate bulgogi.
2. church
3. babysit kids.
4. cafe milano me loner
5. stacks
6. skim house. korean study.
7. watch dinner with smucks or something like that.
8. asian ghetto
oh this is in a span of 2 or 3 days. not sure.
9. my ears hurts right now.
10. when i chew and swallow it hurts.
11. life is complicated.
12. friends are good for the soul
13. volleyball hurray!
14. my throat hurts everytime i swallow.
15. no more cereal
16. sad.
17. i want chicken salad. i make em bomb.
18. i love cake batter ice cream. goodness. hurray for 1 dollar john scoop ice cream.
19. im sleepy.
20. IREAD for the first time today. psych 2.
21. got polisci 1 books! aldfjasdlfkjasdfla
22. payed month's rent
23. found out i didnt pay credit car bill month of august. genius.
24. im alive.
25. i have pimple on uppper chin. great.
26. i walk around telegraph like a retard
27. someone ripped the tag off my backpack. not cool.
28. im full.
29. wooooohoo for the word of God.
30. i dont like bear walk.
31. i dread tomorrow.
32. quiz in korean class tomorrow. i studied.
33. i dont want to brush my teeth cuz im too lazy. (but that wont happen. im a teeth clean freak)
34. school there is school this week which means hw due and papers due and stuff. ohmygosh. freakin out here. kinda.
35. goodnight

holla at yo boi

donkey kong.
i am not fully recovered yet.
my ear is still blocked.
when i blow mah nose, strange noises made by my ears. ;sdkfjas;dlfjasdl;faj. it sounds like that. that be the only thing.
im eating way too much now since ive gotten back to my groove.

its been hot. again. and i hates it. ohmygosh yes. i hate it.
my stomach hurts.
jeez.
food. yeeeees. no more starving for a little while.
it kinda sucks cuz me and heidi have no idea what to buy. we have very basic things and run out of food really fast because we buy the bare minimum.
chris chan wents to cotsco today. asks him to get me some foood.
thank you chris chan.
so kind of you.

yesterday slept over at mr fruity carols place. su joined too. it was fun.
skim is epic.
no more words to say.

i need to study. I HAVENT DONE ANYTHING. since school started.
i havent gotten books yet. i dont know what im doing exactly.
i need someone to hit me. punch my face. whatever it is.
i have gotten so much better at king kong shower. im actually super happy. i have a grin on my face. but i wish i could play it more often.

today. i had a quiz. in korean. I FAILED 100%. i thought i had it. JAJAJJAJA. wow i have a delusional head. i thought i knew the alphabet and everything but no. i didnt knw jack. niiiiiiiice. i know. thats sad.

after korean. me and skim we was sitting on a bench at sproul just stalking/staring/checking out people's backpacksss. or maybe it was just me. for 2 hours. i could sit there all day and just stare at people's backpacks. its wonderful. but skim had to go to class and blah blah blah. then met trong. walked with him up until somewhere and bye bye. went back to fruity carols. then me jinjy jojong fruity carols and su went to eat JJAJANGMYUN AND BOMB TANGSOOYUK at chef yu. so freakin boooomb. gehhhhjejej :P went back to katown and studied. i think. whatever.
met timchoi's sis christy. shes so cute and cool unlike her sibling. jk. actually i dont know if tim is cool or not. but they just seem different. that be all.
mongolian beef christy steph me jamie went to zacharys to eat pizza. then went to trader joes. it was good fun time.
then went to pick up grocerys from dwight. then went to home and then went to jamie's place to sing, puzzle , and play labrynth or something. it was super fun. i wana play it again and again and again and again.
came back home. and then now stomach hurts.

im currently obsessed with backpacks. more like northfaces.
chrome on my computer lags. no like here.

peace.