unsettled

ponder. ponder. ponder. always.
whats life. i know the answer. i know it, but do i really?

una inquetud dentro del alma ke no se calma

...

gg

yeeeeaa boi. kim yuh na got gold. gg.
I dont know why, but when it comes to the olympics, world soccer cup or world series for baseball, i become a fanatic. i become super prideful of my homies from korea. :P it must be a korean thing in the blood or something. but i must say i am very proud of kim yuh na. she broke all the records in the world, she must be like the best skater in history. i was 100% sure she was gonna win anyway. after looking at her skate over and over again on youtube, i noticed how gracefully she did it. i also watched other skaters in order to compare her to others, but i must say that yu na is truly the best. dang she givin me chills up ma spine.

i also respect Rochette. she lost her mom 2 days before the first day of competition, yet she managed a bronze. i dont even have words to describe how brave, strong -hearted this woman is. i think if it were any other girl out there, she would have definitely had a soul shattered heart full of despair and given up. good good for canada too. i like canada. but i like korea even more.

short track 500 still on. korea gooo. hwaitings! we can get more golds.

anyways. today i woke up early to go to class. i took a shower. a 5 min one. i am a very fast shower taker. then i skipped music lecture so i could go talk to my soc professor. i ended up in her office for 2 hours. it was good stuff though. got questions answered and got my thesis and main idea down, which is good. talking to her made my life so much easier for the next 5 days or so.

went to teh y and studied there for a bit and went to work. today work wasnt as bad as before... i was actually busy the whole shift. i had to attend to customers one after another which meant that today, business was getting going. im sure the owner made the right choice by lowering the price for dinner. now its totally worth it. for 7.99? all you can eat... thats a super deal you cant even find in LA. i would go there while it lasted, because they will probably raise the price again.... as soon as they get some business. ohh now instead of working tuesday/thurs dinners, i work thursday dinners and saturday lunches, which is not all the bad at all, except that i will be missing out on my sleep time on sat, but it will be a great incentive to wake up early... since i have to be at work by 10.

this weekend is all about stacks. soc 3ac. paper. college writing. paper. ohhh shoot me nowww. i might go to barnes or borders in emeryvill or the marina to chill bymyself. i will though! ive always wanted to. if someone wants to join me, that would be cool too. but i just want to get out of berk. i feel inside my own world here when there is so much to see out there. whatever.. i doutb ill do it, but actually no, i will go this saturday.... JA! yes i will.

one of my all time favorite songs ever. lyrics-wise. where is the love . black eyed peas. you, yeah you, listen to the lyrics. not superficial, all in the name of justice. you knows it.

i have an interview tomorrow for another part time job. at 10 30. but i dont even know if this lady is even interested in me. whatever, ill give it a try... its not like i really want the job anyways, but you know... whatever goes.

ok byeeeeeee. SLEEPY. SLEEPY. SLEEPY. jeez.

puro chamullo

es un milagro lo ke paso ayer. no te lo podriai creer. por la primera vez en mi vida como estudiante en berkeley, dormi a las 8 40 pm. nunk en mi vida he tenido mas sueño como tuve ayer... pero igual es pk comi muy bien.. ayer fui al a casa de mulan, virginia, joy y janet. nos invitaron a comer. lo ke prepararon pa comer fue alfredo con pollo y pescado .. aunke sake todos los pescados, ensalda, pan de ajo y de postre mulan nos sirvio una tarta de frutas con helado de vainilla ke kedo eskisito y justo despues de eso me desmaye.. me kede dormida en la casa de mulan.. .fue sin kerer eso si, pero me desperte justo a las 7 30 pa mi clase a las 8. dormir justo 11 horas. se sintio re rico.

pero para decirte hoy.. me dio lata hacer todo. osea.. tengo 2 ensayos para la proxima semana, uno para el lunes y el otro para el martes,, las 2 para diferentes clases.. he empesado en uno pero el otro es puro papel investigacion.... me tengo ke poner las pilas ya. asino todo a ultimo minuto y voy a cagar de seguro.

no he escrito en arto pero me da paja.. y mas encima toi raja. tengo tuto asike de pronto me voy a dormir despues de hacer unas cositas..

por otro lado, hoydia fue un dia bonito, especialmente la lluvia la lleva. jaja. me encanto la lluvia todo el dia, aunke no sali mucho, pero filo igual disfrute del dia y tb lo ke me gusto fu el viento. me encanta un dia helado con lluvia mas viento. ke combo mas perfeectoo. ecepto ke la nieve le gana a todos pero eso no puede ser realizado pk no nievaaa. mañana suepuestamente tb llueve.. y tb el dia proximo y el dia proximo.. en concluso... llueve toda esta semana incluyendo la proximaa. ke chancho. dice ke llueve todo el dia viernes y sabado... :) pero mala la onda pk tengo ke tar enserrada en la biblio todo el findee de seguro. si señor.

iba a escrbir sobre algo mas pero se me olvido y no kero pensar tanto pa solo escribir en esta custion. asike me voy piolin. chaolin. ;)

minimum wage

im tired... yeah like always..im sleepy.. yeah like always duhh. im a student.. i should be tired 24/7 ? right... yeahhh. its 4 in the morning.. and i cant focus... i dont know why im always doing this at this time... why do i leave everything to do at this time... i just realized...my sleeping schedule is a mess, yet again. i study and do work at night.. while i sleep during the day.. OH MYYYYYYYYS . not good. i should seriously fix it.

but the good thing about tomorrow.. or today? is that my college writing class got cancelled since the prof needs to meet each of us individually, so i only need to go to my music discussion tomorrow, but i am stuck at the moment writing a musical autobiography due at the beginning of class. why is that there are people that are born with a musical talent, or are more artistically developed than others...i hate that. because i have no musical talent whatsoever.. and i suck at art too. i basically suck at everything. i was born with no talent. well actually what i believe is that every person is born with talent, but you have to seek for it until you discover what it is. i believe some people live their whole lives not knowing what their talent is and some people just discover it really really late in age. i think i have yet to discover the "talent" i was born with. ..

i am suppose to be working on my music essay! lalalalalala. i cant though im too sleepy,,,however i onl have half a page to go!!!!!!!!!!! jeeeeeeez. hwaitibngs!

today was the volleyball game. we unfortunately lost.. but its ok. i guess. its the first game. but still it feels kinda wierd. .. but i had forgotten how fun volleyball was.. despite the loss and despite feeling nervous the whole time... i want to play again! but hopfully i will balls this time around .. and really help the team out.. today i didnt feel like i did.. i am still not very comfortable around the court, but hopefully soon i will! but im so excited for this season... and i think ill be very entertained by some people so it will be very interesting.

i got hours cut :( since the business is going downhill.. they are cutting down my days.. well i only worked for 2 days a week, so now its only once a week. i guess im kinda ok with it, but i still kinda wish i could work more hours because im attracted to my work for some kind of reason. but hopefully the business will prosper eventually and ill get more days.. ive been thinking lately and i would rather work at as a waitress than at the library.. i like moving around and serving people? i dont know.. im not even sure about my feelings towards that stuff.

whateverrrrrrrr. i aint takin this no moreeeeeee. i need to sleep. !!!!!!!!!!!!!!

gogi asado.

vinieron los papas de jessica y nos llevaron a cenar a un restaurante koreano... no he comido comida koreana en mil añosss asike hoy estuve rellena. fuimos yo, jessica, stella y los papas de jessica. los agradeci mucho por la comida pk lo encontre muy rico. pero en verda no tan rico como pense ke iba ser. el sabor de la carne no fue a mi gusto. pero si dan artos guarniciones asike no fue tan mal en todo caso.
lei casi todo un libro... el libro ke toi leyendo primero se llama the sleeeping dragon.. ya toi por terminarlo... muy entrete.. eso es en lo ke gaste mi tiempo todo el sabado.

no termine ayer lo ke estaba escribiendo pk me distraje hablando con sara. despues de venir del centro de estudio abajo, yo y sara caminamos a noelanie a su casa. al volver, las 2 fuimos pa mi piesa a tratar de estudiar,, pero lo unico ke termanios haciendo fue charlar por 4 horas... por eso dormir a as 7 30 de la mañana y desperte a las 4 de la tarde -__-

pero de lo ke hablamos.. fue muy importante para mi... le hable mucho sobre mi vida y por lo ke estoy pasando en este momento y de mi vida anterior en chile, y en prepa.. no me arrepiento de haberle dicho lo ke le dije. me siento mucho mejor diciendole a alguien lo ke siento pero no son muchas las personas en ke puedo confiar y decirle mis secretos y pensamientos mas profundos...

algunas veces siento ke tengo mucho tiempo del ocio... pero en realidad no tengo tiempo para eso pk tengo ke hacer muchas otras cosas ke se deben hacer antes de tomar tiempo para disfrutar...como hoy... lo unico ke hice fue leer un libro cuando debi haber hecho mi tarea para el lunes..... tengo ke escribir un ensayo ... y no he empesado. jajaja lo ke dije ayer fallo a la maximo. no pude ser productiva por la mas ke kiera. ojala ke hoydia... sera mejor...

el gerente de restaurante donde trabajo me mando un mensaje diciendo ke solo vamos a trabajar una vez a la semana pk estan en un estado inmanigable con la plata. da mucha penaa. pero buee ke se puede hacer.. y creo ke jessica va a renunciar... pk a ella no le gusta mucho trabajar ahi.

toi cansanda ... pero siempre digo ke estoy cansanda cuando escribo aki. eso tb parece traer un presentimiento muy raro y negativo.. pero asi estoi... en este estadoo . no puedo mentir :P

me voy. chaito panzon.

a good read. fancy teapot.

ate lunch with gina my cuz :) @ crossroads. ive never had lunch at crossroads before. since i came here as a freshmen. it was wierd. i didnt really like the food today. i dont like dc food. yucksss. dang. i feel spoiled. if i told this to my parents they would probably say... that i dont know what real hunger is like. and i do agree because i do not know. i am sorry i must feel this way about dc food. today was also the first time i didnt eat pizza at the dc. every time i eat at cafe 3 or at crossroads, i always have pizza, because its my last resort. if there is nothing good, i just eat pizza, which is not very healthy, nor very pleasing for my stomach. i just had french fries and a turkey samwich, which i didnt even finish. i did enjoy lunch though because i got to spend time with my cuz.

i am super tired because last night i stayed up until 4 in the morning revising a paper?! that i dont even have to put so much effort on since another draft was due today. jeeminicrickets.

i just realized i eat a lot at gbc... i like their samwiches. i eat there almost everyday for lunch.

today i discovered that a lot of people know about my blog, or have at least read it once... how ? i dont know... i thought it was kinda secretish because i didnt tell anyone. maybe like to the max, possibly 10 people. does that mean i cant write more personal stuff on this thing.? whatever. i dont care. go ahead. you are the one in for it anyways. its boring anyways... so i think by reading this.. you might be wasting 10 min of your life. JJAJAAAAAAAAAAA. i m just kidding. i like you. whoever you are who is reading this. ok im jk about that too. whatever. welcome reader. join the club.

mulannn gave me 2 books to readddd. very excited. :) i will be reading crossfire and the sleeping dragon by miyuki miyabe. its suppose to be about mystery, murder, suspects, run aways, disappearances, and suspense. thriller to the max. coooolios. i will be starting them tomorrow. i will spend the whole day at stacks tomorrow. i have a paper due on monday and a midterm paper due next friday i think? let me be productive tomorrows. hopefully on tomorrows entry, i will be able to say that i got something done. hwaitings!

career fair was the bomb. since i didnt get to go to the caltopia last semester.. im getting my dose of free office depot this time around. yeaaaaa boi. i wont be able freeload like this after soph year though.. .. i could if i were shameless.

yay for the WEEKENDDDDD. i love you weekend. IVE BEEN WAITING FOR YOUUUUUU. this week felt long. but its gonna be gone like the wind. :(
ohhhhhhh yes it will. i dont have college writing class on monday :) yay me.. but i have music discussion at 4.. dang that ruins my day. oh wells.

korea korea korea korea 2010 :) + hong kong?

dont want to think about the future.

oooohhhhh i re toook my myers briggs test... soo i took it for the first time last september/octoberish? i got an ENFP. but recently i got an ESFP? which is super shady wierd because i always see the big picture... i disregard details for the most part, so the test either fails or there were some miscalculations. whatever dudes.

sleeepy~ i always feel hella sleepy when i write on my blog.
im surprised to have come this far with my blog. so loyal. indeed. it must be the spiffyness. yes we are going round and round. .. thats a random line from a song i really like. . how wierd.

i also just realized that more than 50%~60% of my songs on my ipod consist of korean songs. or maybe as high as 70%. i am so koreanized... dang. its because of the socalness.

i have to catch up on so much stuff. just in general.. not only with school work. ok ah whatever. im too sleepy to continue.

beeeeewhyeeeeeeee. ;) geeohhohhhdeee. eneyegeeaichtea.

los buenos tiempos. con los buenos amigos.

se sintio como un largo dia. no se pk sera pero haci se siente. eso si ahora estoy muy cansada. hoy no fui a niuna de mis clases, no es pk me desperte tarde, pero pk no kise levatarme... tonces fue por mi flojera. pero buee ya no se puede hacer nada.

comi almuerzo con mulan en gbc. justo despues de comer, fuimos al la feria de carreras. ? creo ke haci se dice... yo fui por puro placer.... no exactamente para buscar trabajo ni puesto de interno. pero si disfrute del paseo pk recibi muchas cosas gratis :P traje mil cosas del lugar... desde plumas a usb drives hasta libretas y reglas. pero tuve muy cansada despues de la feria :( pk taba cargando mil cosas.

tuve ke trabajar hoy. desde las 5 hasta las 10. ke lateraa. el gallo con kien tenia ke trabajar... mesero se fue a las 7 30 y me tuve ke kedar yo sola trabajando hasta las 10... pero eso prefiero mucho mas pk no se siente incomodo... pk igual no habia gente asike se siente raro caminar de ida y vuelta practicamente haciendo nada. pero trabaje arto hoy. yo solita. ordene platos, limpie paños, servi agua :P. pero la dueña del restaurante esta un poco loca eso si. poreso no se si kero kedarme trabajando ahi. pero igual al mismo tiempo me siento re mal pk no creo ke dure mucho el restaurante pk no tiene clientes. apenas viene gente.

no supe ke tenia una prueba mañana... no he estudiadoo. creo ke me voy a pegar un tiro. y mas encima tengo un ensayo para mañana.. ke todavia no he terminado.. pero los parpados estan por caerse encima de mis ojos. ...

estoi en u3 con noelanie y sara. tamos puro desperdisiando del tiempo... -__-
nos escondimos para ke no nos echaran. jajaja. mision cumplidaa. ;) talvez terminamos durmiendo aca.

hoydia sake mi camara para probarla... creo ke todavia fallo :(
cuando podre tomar buenas fotos.

tengo sueñoo. pero noooooooo. tengo ke resistir!
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

mind boggling things

i've been feeling pretty down since yesterday, but im just not showing it. if i show my sadness, people will start asking me if i feel okay. i dont like it when people ask me that, so i guess i suppress everything.

I think i just have to calm down and think things through thoroughly. i havent been this sad/hurt in a long time. i wish i could seriously express myself fully here, but since its public stuff, i cant really explain everything.

hopefully i will figure it out soon.

on a happy note: i finished my essay due today at 2 .. just woke up at 9 to finish it. it didnt turn out as bad as i thought.

ester bought me gypsys :) thank you estarr

i finally got a mouse. i didnt know my dad sold mices?mouses?mice? :P but they look super cheap though, but the scrolling thing lights up blue :P very cool.

i want to learn how to take pretty pictures so badly. i didnt like photography that much until college, when i got exposed to so many beautiful picture on other people's blogs. whenever i see a good picture, i get chills and goosebumps. wierd huh. yeah i think so too. but i should read first.

no pain no gain.

vacio.

hoydia fue un dia doloroso.

me duele el alma. me hace falta un angel.

se siente como un cuchillo a travez de mi cuerpo.

me duele mucho la cabeza.

ch-ch-ch-charming

im tired.

played with alot of snow today.

im tired.

feliz dia de san valentin

de nuevo un dia bonito desperdiciado. pk me levante re tarde.

bue estoy tratando de estudiar ahora. denuevo. a la nieve.

despues escribo mas. toi ocupada. :P

i am a bear

yeah. so i hibernated today. yeeya. basically the whole day. i didnt come out of my room until it was pretty dark. i just went out to go study at stacks. i got some stuff done today. must say the day didnt all go to waste. good jinggles.

ate dinner at gypsys with the jessica. i ordered a calzone for the first time. i usually never order something new. i always get the same old, because everytime i try something new, i always end up hating it. this time was no different. i ordered the quatro something.. but it contained 4 kind of cheeses. i love cheese. but this was cheese overload. not really. but there was one cheese that tasted hella wierd. my taste buds totally rejected it, therefore so did i. im never getting that thing again. but wierd thing is. at cheescake factory there is this 4 cheese pasta which is really good. but that calzone fails.

i was gonna get a crepeee, but i had food overload so no more for me, but my roomate got a nutella with banana one. as i saw her eat it, i wanted to puke.

on another note, i am very disappointed at the korean ice skater dude who was in 3rd place, but because of his greed he utterly failed. so basically, korea was first, second and third on the short track, but the 3rd place dude wanted to the gold, so as he tried going for it, he took out the second place dude out and they both fell, leaving the 2 americans for the second and third place. this kinda taught me a lesson. just accept the fact that your third. :D poor second place korean dude. he didnt even do nothin. he could have really gotten second place and i would have been happy. but oh well. treats you right third place dude with your greed.

ordered a free tshirt today. cheyaaaaaaaa boiiii. it says: the world's coolest, jjangest kid in the world. yessss. :)

i wonder if im ever going to reread these entries.

maybe when im on my deathbed and i have noting else to do except lay in bed... i will reread these and i will laugh at myself. good new future times.

i just realized i have enough money to buy a used car.

i dont want to eat monekeys or ducks. i dont like ducks. not even cooked. i dont want to eat escargot. [escargoo. i like saying it. it sounds so posh] or dogs. i dont like tofu. i dont like eggs. i dont life fish, shrimp all seafood, i dont like hot dog, no eggplant. i will add more to this list when i remember.

i need to find roomates.

nothing is ever free in this world. half true. half false. this is the explanation of it blah bloah blahldkf hekdli helkadl blah blah blah kdfkethey d blah blah blah kladjlfkjthehid. blah blah blah. pshhhhhhhhh are you cereals??????? yesh i is.

there i go.

i wish you could see my roomate in her natural habitat.
actually me and her would make great gagwomen. maybe i should pursue that career. i would be very good at it.

jessica said i laugh like her grandma. what an honor.

if you know spanish. say monja really fast lots of times because in reality you will not be saying it.

i think everything in this world should be free and we should all live happily ever after yeah?

ok sleepy time. bye bye.

jajajejejojojijijuju.

largo findeeeeeeeee. ke lindo.
hay ke pasarlo pato bomba.
chhhh.
no tengo ganas de escribir.

mi dia fue como cualkier otro dia. bue casi siempre es.
tengo ke escribir 2 ensayos este finde. eso si es mala onda a lo maximo.
mañana tengo ke trabajar como nunk.
a empeñarseeeeee. vale vale vale.

:)

energy drained. sucked. vanished.

i am seriously on the verge of going on a sleep binge for the next 4 days. i cant stand it no more. i am about to collapse.

since i donated blood yesterday, i was really sleepy and tired therefore i was going to sleep at 11, but dude. failed attempt to the maxx. i ended up sleeping at like 4 am. faillllllllllllllllll.

today! was officially my first day of work! i feel hella bad for the restaurant though. i think they might go bankrupt. no customers at all for dinner today. seriously only a bout 5 groups of people came to eat. id rather have a job where i actually have to be constantly doing work because doing nothing and just standing there is super awkwward. i was suppose to work from 5 - 10 today, but since there was no costumers at all, the owner let me go at 8 30. how sad. really fell bad.

after work i went to christine's house and ate kimchee bokums that ashton, christine, and fran made me. it was good. then apple pie. then ice cream. now im here. trying to do my hw at somwhere. im really sleepy. tired.

oh yeah today i didnt go to my 11 o clock class because i fell asleep atfer my 8 o clock class, i was suppose to take a shower right after my 8 oo clock class because i have 1 hour and half before my 11 class, but instead, i was doing something else. rather than going to my 11 o clock class, i went to sleep exactly at 11. i slept until 3 i think cuz i needed to take a shower and go to work .

the korean buffet place is prettty good. i havent tried it but it looks really delish. but it is super expensive though, its liie 13 or 14 bux for dinner. im tired.

i want to climb half dome. really really do. if anyone asked me to go right now, or anytime soon, i would yeyuuuuhs right now. nojoke.

i neeed to do my freakin hw rightnow.

i need to sleep------- im so sleeepy.

interesting job.

something seriously sucked energy out of me. because my eyes feel heavy. but i cant. no. i cant. i need to finish this. but i havent even started it.

can i sleep please. i think sleeping is good. is nice. pretty. soothing. majestic. creepy. funny. entertaining. peaceful. i wish i could sleep for eternity. does that mean i wish i were dead? but the way i said sounds much better.

i havent seen a butterfly in a really long time.
i want to take good pictures.
i need to do my hw.
i need to go to rsf.
i kinda want icecream.
is valentine's day a national holiday or something?
i am versatile.
adfadfasdf asdfj;ajdfljeigh alj;lajdfajf lj.

pantssss. pants. pants. JAJAJAJAJA.

en el otro lado del muro.

nokero escribir. toi mas cansada ke las a;sfkjas;dlfj. patillas.
tonces no deberia . pero me urge escribir todos los dias.

consegui un trabajo :) primera.

soi mesera.

sera mi primer dia el dia de mañana. desde las 5 hasta las 10. ke me esperara mañana.

done sangre. me siento bien. pero tengo sueño.

compre una polera manga larga. bonito. azul marino y dice berkeley. pero cuesta caro. pero en el momento ke me lo probe se me antojo comprarlo.

no tengo mas ganas de continuar.

chaitos.

sailor moon

class at 8. i woke up at 8. jeje. i feeel gross at 8.
came back and showered. music at 11. today music was nice. we had guest performers. country that is. i dont particularly like country music, but i was surprised by the band's performance. more than surprised actually, i was amused. they played well over 40 min. the music was interesting, but not enough to make me stay awake for the last 20 min of class.

went to romonas. had teriyaki chicken. it was ok. ok.... but i dont want to get it ever again. went to the y. ate there. stayed there until 4. i read. finished all my hw then i went to play. :) nrb with jessican and su :P

i might get a job. finally. at the new korean bbq all you can eat place above the nrb. the nrb and the restaurant are owned by the same person. spiffay. but yeah im going to my first training session next tuesday. but it feels hella strange. i think im guranteed the job, but now that i might get a job, i feel like not cool.
i do have a lot of free time, and i always thought it would be nice to work since i wasted so much of my time, but now that i might get a job, i feel sad because i wont be able to chill as much, but whatever. even though the pay is not that high, and we get no tips, i still want to work just for the heck of it. maybe just for experience.

went to pray at first pres for an hour.

went to oakland to eat jjajangmyun with sen, johnny and raymond. it was aite.

end of day. seems long. but maybe not.

i watched sailor moon. :) old memories. i used to watch it when i was 7. bring back lots of childhood memories. i was gona watch a couple of more episodes, but that would seriously be a waste of my time, not that i dont do other stuff to waste time.
i think i was neptune... or mars.... i dont remember. but i wasnt sailor moon. i wanted to be sailor moon, but i wasnt the ringleader in my neighborhood. swell.

i want to go bungee jumping so badly. lets go.

marriachis

dia comun y corriente.

comi lonche con kate, malice y sus amigas en cafe 3. la comida estuvo blahhh. no hay mucho ke hablar de la comida de por ahi.

estoi en la biblioteca en el momento. creo ke llegue a las 10. pero en una hora y media, no he ni empesado y ni completado nada. ke bieennnn. pero nose pk me distraigo tanto.

kiero ir a mexico. pk se me da las ganas de ir.

me gusta la nueva cancion de 2pm. tik tok. tik tok.

hoydia la cosa mas rara me paso. estaba caminando despues de comer cena y estabamos tratando de buscar una clase para ir a ver un decal, pero nos perdimos asike tratamos de encontrar otro edificio, pero derrepente un vago nos empeso a perseguir. corrimos por un rato hasta ke mi amiga se tropezo y se cayo. el vago nos alcanzo y nos asustamos tanto ke empesamos a correr de nuevo hasta ke llegamos a moffitt. pero estaba buscando mi cel. se me habia perdido en uno de los edificios. ke mala onda la ke tuve hoyy. pero bue... peor seran otras cosas. como la muerte. pero en fin, fui a la casa de mulan, virginia, joy y janet para comer. :P delish. hablamos como por 2 horas y yo y joeun nos tuvimos ke ir pk se nos hacia tarde.

no estuvo taan mal el dia supongo.

tengo ke empesar con mi tarea ke no he empesado. tengo ke despertarme temprano :(

Ya esta vez enserio me voy. cachantun >

weekend. weekend. weekend. over.

late night. hagen dazs cherry vanilla ice cream. fail. totallnty fail. full stomach. ate until exploded. faaaaaaaaaaaiiiiiil. ok whatever.

friday. bible study. sleepover at alameda. fun. girls sleepover to the max. i ve never experience anything like this. its like my childhood dream came true.
jewelry making. earrings, bracelet, rings, blahalhala. doing each others hair. baking. actually i didnt partake in any of it except that i got my hair done. i got the 'princess hair' ewww huh. its ok no one will ever see it.

sat morning ate breakfast and went back to berk. slept for 4 hours. i dont know what i did for 3 hours. then fulton house. ate dinner. i dont know what else we did and then ended watching dark knight. except that by the end. i was the only one watchint it. dark knight is pretty good. i never watched it when it came out because it was one of those typical comic hero movies. but it was intense watching it. some parts i didnt really catch because i dont know why.

sunday. prayer meeting. service. asian ghetto. computer. 2 hour nap. computer. cardio kickboxing. more rsf. came back. fail. late night. ice cream.

i has to read. for tomorrow .. like 50 pgs of a book. i think i should do that right now.

ohmyyyyyyyyyy. ohmyyyyyyyyyy. i want something salty.
ok i have to read. bye.
i dontknow if i should go back home for spring break. what am i going to do here. what am i going to do there.

how do i tell my dad that i might not play golf at all.

AHHHHHHHHHHHH. FRUSTRATING.

pesto. i love pesto.

I want a job. but maybe not a good idea. i dont know what to do .
im seriously the most indecisive person in the world. i always decide at the last minute and sometimes i regret it. but whatever.
I guess im not gonna get a job this year. i will wait until next year. i just realized i have to enjoy all the free time that i can possibly get before i go into the crazy world of study, work, school blah blah blah . "real world" per say.

classs today. ok ok . im proud of myself. ofcourse. for waking up for my 8 am class and actually pay attention during the lecture which i normally do not do. .soc acutally is pretty interesting, which is a good thing. i think i should go sleep at fulton more often :/ i want that house. so nice. bathroom and kitchen lovin. i wanted to live there next year.. but boohoo i guess no can do.

im starting to stress about roomates and housing for next year. i dont know who to room with yet. i need to choose carefully i guess. i dont want to live in apartments. dont want to.

i had lunch with emily today. we went to a fancy italian restaurant on college. dont remember what its called. i had pesto pasta with ceasar salad. dElisH. yuuuum. i wento back to y to study. i studied. i didididdididid. really did. took a quiz online. then read book. SO PRODUCTIVE TODAY. i must say.

why must it rain again. when i dont have my rain bootssss and an umbrella. my shoes got wet. whatever. rain hates me and doesnt want me to wear my rainboots. rain wants me to suffer. good job rain. good job.

ate dinners at elisa, tubs, cuz and jessica's place. elisa made some freshmen chi ppuki. soooooo freakin good. and some kimchi boochingaes. satisfied my tummy.
came back home . as soon as i open the door jessica's like lets go to rsf. Im like noooooo. i dont want to. just wanted to chill, but no. she forced me. but it was for the greater good. lately, i dont want to write. whatever.

I finished reading the "real world" by japenese woman natsuo kirino. good book. good. i want to read her acclaimed "out". exciting stuff. im into reading again.

i want to take focus on photography decal. i really do. i went to the class yesterday, but very slim chance in making it into the class. they're only taking in 15 people. about 50 people filled in an application. sadness.

i is pasta lovin.

aoids. does it only work with english words....

esperando

estudio estudio esudio.
mucho ke hacer.
en la casa de ashton.
estudiando.

re enrolled

yay me. i got re enrolled for soc 3ac. its gona be hella hard to go to that class every tues/thurs at 8 am. but i guess i have to do it.

everytime i say 'do it' or hear it somewhere i get reminded of the nike logo and the 'just do it' slogan. i guess i just have to DO IT. (nike sign) ting.

i have a quiz tomorrow. for soc 3ac. im doomed. i sense a gloomy shadow. dang im lame. i dont know if ill know the stuff because i didnt go to last week classes. yet again. JUST DO IT. forceful.

my laptop got a virus yesterday. hella annoying pop up saying i had a virus. i finally got it fixed today. my life has become so much easier.

i went to rsf today. hope to go everyday. no. i can DO IT. saw steph and sarah there. they went pretty late. saw a couple of more familiar faces, but i forget.

lately, since the beginning of the semester, ive been feeling pretty bad for people. there are a lot of people who pass by me and say hi, like they know me. they do. but the sad part is that, i dont remember who they are or their names or how i met them, but they know my nameee. it has to be more than 15 people that have waved at me or held a conversation with me not knowing who they are, but since i feel bad, i pretend like i know them. :P not cool. i know. hopefully this semester will be better and ill remember peoples names and faces.

i miss socal korean food. i dont want korean food from berkley. i want fulleton's bingsoo, donkatsu, dweaji galbi, samgyubsal, jadol, lapokki, jjajangmyun. especially my mom's food.

rightnow. begops.

virus

como siempre, no tengo ganas de escribir, pero no.se pk me molesto en escribir ke me molesta escribir. odio este laptop. lo odio.
kiero uno nuevo. no me importa si tengo netbook. kiero uno nuevo.

a cultural black sheep

i am one.