busy first 3 days of the week, as i had so many things due. im really tired, and i know i should sleep more when i can, but i strangely dont and waste my time elsewhere. so stupid.
im really stressed right now. i dont know what to do with housing or the summer. i want to go to korea this summer, but i kinda don't. my dad probably thinks i will be playing golf this summer, but i most probably wont be. its going to be hard telling him. i dont know how to confront him. im going to hurt my daddy's feelings. i also want to take summer school. but i dont know where. and then after i figure out where im taking summer school, i have to find out what class i want to take. ahh so annoying.
I think i will cut my hair. im thinking of cutting it like 10 inches. O_0 it will fsho be surprising, since the last time i had short hair was in... third grade. whatever.
sometimes i wonder if i made the right decisions in college.
i have a huge pimple right under/next to my left nostril. it hurts like a mother father and i want to pop it, but i shant.
i dont want to think about the future. go away. right now.
i have a 2 blisters on my right foot. it really hurts when i walk.
i ran on the treadmill today, the fastest i have ran since i ve been in college. 4.25 miles in 40 minutes at a speed of 6.5. it felt good, but my head hurts and im dizzzy cuz i havent done this in a while. so my goal for the remainder of the semester is to run at least 3 miles every single day on the treadmill or outside. hwaittiings.
i cant help, but feel hopeless right now. :( i know i shouldnt but i am, i think i have suddenly become depressesd. so many thoughts hit me today. i kept on wondering why i always do things half-heartedly. many times never going through with commitments i make. i feel like a bad person today.
i want to find the garden of eden.
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