a crooked mind

soft face.
i love those.
but i havent really washed my face for a long time. with face wash that is.
just water it. cuz im too lazy. oh yeeh. but i do brush my teeth twice a day. sometimes thrice.
i should put a mask on .. sometime soon. so my face be soft. i either have white or black heads i forget which, but they be haters. but i dont have them as often i guess. its a good thing. a;dlfja;sldjf.

this week has been somewhat whatevers.
i realized that stacks was my home for about 17 to 18 days sraight. waow. seriously waow. and many more to come.
psych 2 midterm was easier than i thought, but i didnt go to the last 5 lectures, so i missed out on lecture questions. me genius. but whatevers.
but after midterm i wasnt relieved. i was kinda sad. because i has freakin another paper due next week. GRREATT. and i dont even know what to write really. i tell you.

ive realized how much i hate the studying part of college. here i break it down.
1. i suck at math. last math i took was trig in junior year.
2. i hate bio. last time i took a bio class was in 9th grade.
3. i suck at chem. i almost failed that class in hs.
4. lets not even talk about physics
5. i thought i liked us history, but no. no more of that.
6. i dont like english. i hate writing essays.
7. i would do psych, but got bio and chem. hek no.
8. i really dont wana do soc. but im already taking some classes for the major. i really do not want to take stats. gg my life.
9. basically i hate everything.
10. i just want to be fbi. jeez.

i hate polisci.

im hungry. but i dont know why. i just had a samwich an hour ago.

sometime me feels like going to bcc.

on monday. i went to bt. all day. studied. then stacks. until 2.
tuesday. i missed korean, soc 111 and polisci. yay. actually that was good sleep. then bt. to study. then take midterm. it was f;asldfjasldjfasl;f. then i went to get my stuff at bt. then i go home. i was kinda depressed. i dont know why. i had to write an email. johnny bought me thai noodle. that right thurr is miracle. then stackss but it was hella full so we went to dwinelle. then dwinelle close so we went to stacks. until 2.
heidi was angry/disturbed.
wednesday. class. noooooooooo dis for polisci. ohmygah. i was so happy. sooooo happy. i hate that dis. went home. took a 5 hour nappppp :P felt so good. went to bt. i dont know what i did there. foreals. came home early to talk to heidi.
overall. good talk. sweet girl. me bad roommate. thats the end of it.
in order to make up for lost time- i watched a kdrama w her.

i want to make a goal to sleep before 12. how wwill that happen? i foreals dont know. so foreals i think ima die. because i dont drink enough water. or liquid for the matter.
i think my health will soon be gone. deteriorated. kaboom. longgg byebye.

i hate berkeley weather. it makes me grow some feathers. fal;sdfjalsjfas.d get it. innovation!. cuz weather is hot. weather--> feathers. because its hot. if i have feathers it makes me even hotter. so WEATher and FEATHERS. for some wierd reason i thoughts that feather spelled wrong.

i really want to go home right now and sleep. i want to sleep sleep sleep.
have a good nap and everything. with my besfriends. i really like sleeping with peggy but shes somtimes stares at me wierd. actually mickey m. is also a wierdo. he has big eyes and they be black so dark. that sometimes i get scared and so i smash his face on the wall. but i really like dr. porky. hes nice to sleep with and to hug.
dude what kind of hunger is this. STOP IT STOMACHH STOP IT. jeez.

MAN OK. so this is it. i think im going to buy a new dslr. i was going to pay $250 to repair my canon but i dont know if its worth it, i might as well buy a new canon rebel 2ti or the t1i. or perhaps a nikon d90. im looking into it. i dont know. though. ok i think ima buy a new one. or i can actually just ask one for my birthday. but i would want to pay for half of it because i would feel bad.
OHHHHH. yeah i could do that. i don tknow. whatever. no thinking no more for now.
actually sometimes. i want to be a photographer. im not good. but i want to learn. i have to take class then . ohhhhinnovation.

HOLLAAAAAAAAA.
i dont want to stay in polisci.
i think ima leave really soon. because this is stupid.
i need to do something better.
man i have this wierd hunger feeling which is relaly wierd to the max. max max.
paper paper paper. boring professor.
i want the recon backpack. should i get.... yeah still thinking about it.

MAN. im sad at the thought of turning 20.
in exactly one month and some days. lets say 4 days? yeah AS;DLJKFS;LADKJFSDAJ;LSDAF. im so old. old old old. until bday comes. i will complain about my 20 years age.
actually no. i shall enjoy these last weeks of teenage dreams. as;dlfjsdl;fjslfjs. but im really really really sad though. 20 is an ugly number. because new decade age. uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuh. as;ldjfslfj.
so seulpuhs.

i just realized that parents anniversary is on sept 11.
my family is cute. kind of.

i wish i could have deeper relationships with every person i met. that would be pretty nice. but there is not enough time and not enough space. i think. but i really wihs i did know every single person better.

dude my freakin polisci professor is bogus. HE IS SO BORING AND WHY IS HIS VOICE SO MONOTONE AND GAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHr.

i LOVE THE SMELL OF LAUNDRY OH SO MUCH. i cannot get enough of it. actually its tide. but i dont think its tide. cuz when i go back home the laundry smell is SO FREAKIN GOOD but mommy bought me the same kind of tide she uses at home, but mine doesnt smell as nice. WHYYYYYYY. i dont get it. gosh. gosh gosh.
ok ima going to leave polisci because i dont need it to write my paper. ok maybe not. because actually lydia told me today... that im paying for this class anyways. so i think i will stay.

whatever. dude. whatever.
ok i think i been writing for too long.
hasta la vista. i want a camera.
FP.

home alone

heidi went to pbl retreat.
me alone at home.
since yesterday.

its so funny. cuz whenver she be home..i sleep over.. but whenever shes not home i always sleep over at my place..is kinda funny. and i cant believe 2 nights in a row on the weeekend.
was supposed to sleeep over at mr fruity carols place but their bathroom broke. pooor them i would die. I THINK THE BEST INVENTION EVER. IS THE bathroom. foreals. no joke.

bathrooms are important. i mean yeah. we go to the bathroom to do the things we need to do in order to stay clean. like shower and take care of our business. i think the toilet is innovaaaaation. the sink too.
everything else that comes with the bathroom is good stuph.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4HjR4dLHxy4 need to keep this so i dont forget but i like this.

man
JAJAJAJAJA how is it that i never have food at home? i seriously dont get iT..
as;dlfjas;dlfjasldjfaslfjas;dljfasldjfa. have ccereal but no milk. butter but no bread. onion ... onion for what?! i have no idea. foreals. seriously living in apt sucks. i have no idea what to cook. im so lost. in the aprtment living world.

why in the world. do i get bullied so much :(
first i get called a man. now a hippo.
waow. messed up ppl.

ok fine. ill just live with if it means to live with awesomeness and courage like that. that made no sense but i dont care.

mikey is a yuhj. jejeje. waow such a yuhj. its cool.

today. what did i do.
slept. woke up. stacks. JAJAJAAJ. thats my day basically. foreals. nice nice huh.

i want more JOHN $1SCOOP ICE CRAeam. its so good. ima go tomorrows too.
psych is interesting.
butt i dont wana be a psych major.
i cant stand math or bio.
why do we have earwax. to me its random .

man what the hek now. i have to go pick up johnny.
what a baby. dude. what a baby.
midterm midterm midterm!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
yaaayuuuuuuuuuuuuh.
i need water
i need a water filter! why dont i have one! im so stupid. i need to do laundry
but no coins.
gosh i fail at so much
at making rice too... i think i got it but i really dont.
:(
im saaaaaaaad. bery bery sad.
ok im so full.

i have donuts. i got it. but it looks hella disgusting.

oh man im alone
lonelyyyyyyyy. i am so lonelyyyyyyyyyy. i aint got nobodyyyyyyyyyy. all on my owwwwwwwn. man i wana go to seven eleven and buy me some water.
ok i think i will.
ok bye bye.

not done yet

actually never.
tired. restless. no more.

ok ive decided. im going to become a recluse and become wang-ta status if thats what it takes to be productive.

i hate suffermore year. alot. i suffer.

sometimes i dont understand my own head.
how can i be so dumb sometimes. i mean it is a usable good and potentially hazardous at times, but why. it dont make sense.

sometimes i think im possessed by something because my mind works on its own. i cannot control. i guess for the good of humanity me needs to keep away from the world for some time.

i live at the stacks anyways.
i wana die already. siiiiiighs.
ive been thinking about going to bcc for a year or so. it might be kinda stupid, but sometimes, i cannot handle. and some things need to be done.

have also been sleeping 3-4 hours everyday since school started. i am so sleep deprived. maybe. that be why my brain dont function properly. well actually. when does it ever.

liiiiiiiiiight. shine on me. shine on me. enlighten the cheese.
cheese sounds good and yummy right now... like a quesadilla with sour cream tomato sauce guacamole.

also been eating out almost everyday. no- not almost- ist been ERDAYYY. i dont know how good or bad that is. im not sure if youre supp0se to eat out everyday. in the past 2 weeks, ive only eaten a home cooked meal once.

i really like my netbook. i actually really really really like it. '

psych 2 midterm next week. ㅠㅠ
this weekend is another one of those. at stacks. no time for play anymore. for sometime beckysong shouldnt talk to no one and meet no one.

man im really hungry right now. .... i just wana go home and sleep.

i realized that im super really spontaneous. im the up for anything kind of person.

sometimes. toward people. im really thankful. so thankful that i wana cry. the way i express my gratitude is not enough. i wish i could do more. but i just dont know what else to do.

should i go study abroad. junior year. for a semester. either chile or korea.
i dont know.

i turned in my soc111 paper. i should have this sense of satissfaction. but funny. me doesnt. beceause. i feel like i need to do more. continue on with this fight with the books.

mothers who enjoy work, have better health.

what the hek is blast. seriously. blast. what the hek.

i want to go try the maoz vegetarian place. im thinking of becoming vegeterian. ... i think unless you are a hermit, being a vegeterian is quite diffficult. i mean if you be a hermit then you dont really have to be tempted by yummy smells and images of meat or so. but when your family eats every other kind of korean gogi plus steak at home- nooo waaaay joseeeeee.

im very sleepy.
i want to sleep.
i need sleep.

polisci paper. :( gg.
its over-

GGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG

like wrestlers.
i wana take tkd agian.
my hair kinda like is wierd. my bangs front goes flingg but at the ends it gos boom... like hella low and down and on my face and i dont like at all.

ggggggggggggggggg my life. gggggggggggggg. to the max. all the time. ohmyosh.
stacks 24/7...
have been to stacks 13 or 14 days in a row. neverstopping work and reading and sadness and everything. so depressing. really.

yesterday. me FAILED quiz. basically cuz i didnt show up for the class.
JAJAJAAJAJA. i didnt hear my alarm clock. so gg korean.
missed psych 2 experiment thing. gg that too.
but went to soc 111 office hours. tried to study at bt.
got something done. im not sure how much. met up with emchoch ate some yogurtland. yay awesome pawesome talk about stuff. good deep stuff. i love you eeeeeeeeem.

ate la burrita with johnny. what a retard boi. seriously.
then study at bt for something hours. then u3 get copy done something something something.
YEYUHS i get free photocopying at u3 :) yayayaayayayayaya.
WAOW my hair is bothering me soo muchies.
2 in the morninggggg taco bell fail. it was closed.
mr fruity carols jack in the boox. woot wooooot. waow peach ice tea is the bomb. so goodness graciousness.

anything you can do i can do better.
i can do anything better than you. no you cant. yes i can. no you can. yes i can. no you cant. yes i can. :P
thats stuck in my head.

MY BRAIN IS POOOOOOOOOOOPED. OHHHH YEH. foreals. II WONDER IF ITS GONA BE POOPE FOR THE REST OF THE SEMESTER.
i think i should just live at stacks like the books. just stay in a shelf and then get out during the morning.
there is no point of coming to polisci lecture because i dont even pay attention though. i really dont get why i come to polischi... i think ima stop coming to polisci and soc 111. but then i dont know what i would do instead. pointless. OHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH WAAAAAAAAAASHHHHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOM. poinltess.

ohmgysohha;sldkjfasdl;fjasd;lkjfa. why is mylifeso gggggg. all the time. aaaaaaaaaaaaah . stacks today. psych ... i dont know about that. i dont know if i should go. ohmygosh i have to do psych hw ok i will.
ok i dont wana say anything anymore because im really tired and so are my eyes and my hands.
my hair is bothering me.
im hungers jingers.
ok bye byes.

dim sum in the sun

nah.
normally not.
really.
no thank you.
you are very bleeeeh. hmm . yeah sorry.
foreals.
i dont really like it that much. if you were to take me somewhere. dont ever take me to dimsum. a;lsdjfalfjaslfjasdlf.
its ok actually. but just saying.

hmmmmm ice cream. hmmmmmmmmm. fried rice. hmmmmmmmm. stuff.
todaays. oakland for dimsumm. seriously itwas ok. really. im just hmmm trying to express my love-or not so love about dimsum.
but rest assured. it was a good lunch. foreals.

2 30 STAAAAAAAAACKING IT. oh yeah baby. left at exactly 10 pm. waaaaaow. yeah
BOIIIIIIIIIIIIII. foreals. PSYCH 2. i finally caught UP! AS;DLJKFASD;LFKJAS TOO EXCITED UYHUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU. AYAAAAAAAAAAA. YEA YEAH YEAH I THOUGHT THIS DAY WAS NEVER GONA COME. it took me 2 weeks.
oh yeah .
but surprise surprise!!!
quiz on monday. 100+ for p0lisci. midterm essay due thursday. OH BOI. IM JOLLY EXCITED.

me is currently over at mr. fruity carols place. chillaxing with the monster house. indeed. there is mr raccooon. mr fruity carols cleopatra. mr mongolian beef and mr jinjijojong. which are fantabulous ppl .

so i took myers briggs again. for the 5th or 6th time. i gets. the ENFP. hmm. dubious. yes. doubtful yes. but hmm accurate. no. i says. its the first time i gets that. man i really like this house. jejje. the pink sheet cover does wonders when you sleep.
man and they got so much food. itslike they could feed a whole zooo. waow. waaaaow.
i met jinji jojongs friend today. her name is christine i think. or christina. well one or the other. but i think ha;ldfjasdlfj. i dont know what me thinks. i think we connects. i think she loves me. ok jk.. no she dont. but shes cool. jinjijojongs friend is cool..

im currrently so sleepywaoow. man. that kinda sucks a little. everytime i writes on here i is sleeepy. waow. gosh .
hello mikey. good stuff today :P
it was crunch time.
crunch time crunch ang ang ang munch munch munch.
cant waIT TIll tomorrow morning to eat .
man isnt that exciting. to know that the next day you is gona has food in yo mouth. i think its something quite exciting.

INnOVATION yes? succh a cool word. ohmygash. i think its very practical and ...well if you execute it well. its well worth it. :) fshoo.

marissa sorry today no arc with you :( really sorry. me feels very bad foreals.

man i thought would never say this. but i really like one of justin bieber's songs. SOMEBODY TO LOOOOOOOOOOVE . A;DLKnanananannannana. its a good song. i think... or more like i like the beat of the song, i have realized that i dont like a song because of its lyrics, but jus because of the beat and stuff. OOOOOUHHHHHHHHHH. uhus . jejejjeejejje :P
waow JINJIJOJONG IS FREAKEN SMART. dont mess w that girl. hek no. dont dont. ill give you the no no finger. fsho.
ok man its dying time week. OHHHHHH YEAH. NO JOKE. ok
since its gona be this way. hmmmm. it has to be done with apples and appples of apples of apples or apples play apples.
oh yeah
mommy and daddy sold a car. :P
so that means new car. i dont know what the getwhich one they sold. a;dlfjas;dlfj INNOVATION!

im not an idiot. i dont know why so many people call me that.
that is not cool. crampps mah styyyle. oh yeeeeh.
oh yeah jinjijojongs friend's last name is yeh. i think that is seriously by far THE coolest last name ever. YEEEEEEEEEEEEEH. basically. she rocks my socks.
ok
me goes now.
its kinda gettting late.
not really.
its getting nightish. or morninghish.
sometimes the world has some hella wierd concepts.
oh yeah i learned alot today. reading about psych. waow. SEROUSLY . lots of innovations,. oh yeah. good stuuuuuuphhhh. like baby phaaaat. uhuuuuuu.
ok im really really sleepy right now. so ima go now.

PEEEEEEEEEAAAAAAAAAAACCCCCCEEEEEEEEEE. peace sign .

feliz cumple chile

chile feliz cumple- 200 anios. ke la pases re bien. no te he olvidado
y me la pierdo. debe ser de lujo las fiestas ke van a ofrecer durante la noche. y te apuesto ke la van a celebrar grande. no es como ke me importe pero igual al fondo de mi corazon siento un lugar vacio ke necesita ser rellenado por algo ke calme mi inquetud. un dia como este me de vuelve a las memorias de mi neniez cuando todavia estaba viviendo en chile. las buenas memorias de aquel tiempo nunca fallan en dejarme con una sonrisa. lo triste es lo ke hago yo cuando estoi en facebook. cuando veo las fotos de mis amigos de chile, siempre pienso en el pasado. que hubiera pasado si no me hubiera mudado a los estados unidos. seria yo una persona diferent. viviria la misma vida ke vivien mis amigos. las preguntas siguen sin fin. ojala ke un dia .... ke sea dentro de 3 anios, pueda ir de vuelta para estudiar ke sea. ke pase. ke pase.

me is tired. very sleepy for some reason.
today i almost missed my korean class. i woke up at 8:05 again. i did that yesterday too. but today i had a test. the only reason why i wakes up at 8 was cuz heidi's alarm went off. if it werent for that i woulda missed it. big time. waow. i had to run to class. thats the first time i run to class. i hate running to class cu its uncomfortable. foreals. whatevers. i took it.
i slept pretty late though. i think 2 30. maybe that be whys.
me skim and daniel was at fsm studying for korean. i dont really know if we got much studying done, but i gots my papers done and i studied somewhat. who knows if they gots anything done. whatevers.
i also took soc quiz yesterday. waow. i ammm freeeeee. NOT. waow. so not free. what the hek am i talking about. more than anything i feels dead. like hmmm dead skin on your skin. something like that.

after korean test. i came back home. slept. heard phone ring. uaou. joeun and san locked themselves out of apt. so they came to home and pick up laundry detergent. man. gaaaaaaash. i was having such a good nap. they cramped my styyyle. :( ok jk. that is pretty selfish of me. so i was seriously jk. then tried t go back to sleeep buto good. so washed dishes and showered and did some other stuff i dont really remember. then heidi came back home. then joeun and san came back too.
ohhhhhhhhh yeeeeeeeeeh. today was the first time ever. i made kimchi bokumpab. WWWWWWAOW. heidi said it was pretty good. but i think she be lying. just to be nice cuz i put in too much gochu jang and it was hella spicy. waow. hella spicy. but for seome reason.... jang gi ruhm kinda neutralizes the spicyness. kinda. just kinda. but whatever. it was good. to beckysong. it was heavenly delish. no not really. i was jk. because no. it wasnt. but you know what. i mad eit. whae;fjasdlfkajsfda. ok maybe not good. whatever. joeun and san stayed at my homsis until jeff open their door. i went to bt for game and announcement thing.
soudns fun and doable.

then i just stayed a bt . i slept some. and did some something. i dont remember. maybe bobaed it. then went to eat blah blah blahdl jfas;dfj. eat eat eat. then went to bstudy. then sf
in n out. didnt crave it that badly for reason. dunno why. oh i was full that be why. then ghirardelli. earthquake. shake shhhhhake. no more. i dont . man i love icecream but after i eat ice cream i always hate it. like. right. now.

i needs to study . study. i think i aam officials obsessed with studyin. i dont want to, but my brain just wants to . i cant control it. its like robot. it just moves
on its own. or mayeb its like something else. i duno what. whatever. im so sleepy. i would write more random thoughts. have lots stored. but forget easily . and im sleepy and my mind no funtion properly. meeting too many people
this girl named melody is my st=yle. shes kinda cool. not as much as me i think, but shes up there.

i taught slang to these 2 fob girls. waow. so funny. brabiiiiiisimoooo. this one fob girl has legit fob accent. SOOOOOOO funny. i taught her how to say legit, but she pronounces it rigid instead. which cracks me up. but i cannot really show that i am laughing at her accent. i mean i dont really mean to, but its just funny. i mean i suck at korean. so i dont know. its like a give and take? i dunno.
ohmygosh. im sleepy. i cant no more. fooooooooreaaaaaaaalssssss.

MAN I FEEL UPPERCLASSMEN. maaaaaan freshmen are little jassheeks. maaan. ok whatever.
gud nightuh.

JAJAJAJJJAJAJAJAJAJAJJAJJJAJAJA

yeah incredulous. it is.
everything is so seriously not cool.
sleeping schuedule is messed up. eating habits messed up. studying time messed up. lets just call it a messed up me.
my stomach hurts again. dude. my system is a failure to the max.

i am seriously sleep deprived. i know so. i have been reading non stop for alittle over a week now. my brain is seriously frying. not only can i hear it sizzle, but i can also smell it. yeah cool huh. uhu.

been at stacks erday all day. kinda.

yesterdays. i went to school. i didnt go to psych 2 because i just couldnt. just overwhelmed with the amount of work i have in my hands.
did dts at btown.
i know officaly live there.
i stays there until eating with ashton kutcher, but somehow it ended being like me jinji jojong, annie, winnie, this other girl i forget her name at ghetto. then i goes home to do something, i forget what. then i goes to prayer meeting.
then me jenny and rosy goes to ghetto to get donuts. man donuts. i dont think i want to eat a donut for some time.
then we were gona to go stacks but we goes to btown instead. MAN i think the 2 hours or so i was there i got nothing done. shilmangs. to da maxxxxi.
i played with abby, held nico and who knows what else i did. but no studying at all.
so at 11 i decided to go to stacks. ohhhhhhh got some stuff done actually.
it dont look like it but i did get what i needed to get done for today.
so mr fruity carols got locked out of her houssseee cuz she didnt bring her keys.
so she slept over at my place. :)
we talks and sleeps.

today. korean. man early classes. shoot today my goal before 2. thats all i want before 2. i didnt even finish some reading though, but my stomach hurts therefor is all good.
after korean. i eat bagel w skim. bt. then chill then section for polisci. JAJAJAJAJAJAAJAJA i fell asleep infront of the gsi. for about 40 min. whatever dudes. i was tired. but whatever. it wasnt like i missed anything cuz i read it. :P DUUUUUUUUUUDE. yeah i read it. i dont think that has ever happened before. where i read something in advanced. well i have but that was cuz i needed to for that class that day, but this time it was kinda like ohhh speedy gonzalez.

dying. dying. dying. foreals.

1. quiz for soc tomorrow.
2. test for korean on friday.
3. korean report due friday.
4. midterm essay due next thurs for soc
5. next next week psych midterm
6. 120+ pgs for polisci and psych and soc.
7. YYAAAAYUUUUUUUUH. GGGGGGGGGGG.

only good thing happpen today. in my life. volleyball.
man i really suck at volleyball, but really i wana be good, but i jus dont know how. my body wont listen to me. foreals. its not like im dumb and i stand there doing nothing becaause i jus feel like standing there doing nothing. i guess i am just a little slow at being smart and witty and fast. but its really really fun.

i miss my camera.
i stacked it today w jinji jojong.
people always know where to find me.
cuz im either at btown or stacks. :P
ok tomorrow ima be a loner to the mx. i dont think ima go to psych class again.
its like at 3 30 . no i will not. ima go to stacks. well actually i have to eat at home since i havent had a meal at home in who knows how long. and then bymyself i will stack it. and study until the daylight shines with joy and happyness forever and ever like the gummy bears and their friends with pony and dancing.
my stomach hurts.

:(

suckydy suck suck suckers.
bleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeh. byebye.

sleep deprived

lately yeah.
i dont sleep enough.
난 바보다.
but i still have energy despite the lack of sleep.
i havent had one meal at home since saturday or friday. thats pretty really sad.
i dont even know what im eating because i dont eat at home.
:(
heidi must be pretty sad and lonely without me in the apt.

ive been reading like a madman. trying to catch up but as much as i read, i never seem to be able to be on track.

man. ive been at stacks alottttt. ALOOTT. and many more to come.
yesterdays i went to korean. hoorray for mondays and fridays. for korean. but bum bum bummer its a 8 am.
10 am went to bt. did dt (that rhymes, what a mastermind). started reading for polisci.
yesterday eating was bad. i had fries for lunch and ice cream for dinner. :) JAJAJAJa. so bad. messed up eating.
was at bt for about 6 hours. reading reading reading reading reading. reading reading. reading. and more reading. i dont even remember what i read.
then went to stacks w jennyy. but then i forgets to have dinner w someone. :( what a kinda bad person.
근데 그레도 나는 짱 .

haaaaad $1 john's ice cream with 호재. :)) gaaaaaaaaah. finally had cake batter ice cream. it was so DEELISh. i wish i could go erday, all the time. after that we went to study. i cant read anymore. im done with reading. im going crazy reading. ohmygoodnes i cannot no more.

unable to do my job. unable to fuunction properly. unable to unables.

i lost my phone today. at dwinelle. some good samaritan turned in my phone to the office. there should be more people like that in this world. like me. jk. nope not like me.

i am super hungries. wow yeah i am. i had an apple. not good enough. i need to go home and eat. and read. man. my life consists of READING. that sucks. i wasnt like this freshmen year. i wish i was back to freshmen year and takin it chiiiiiilll. but my brain wont let me do that. i dont even know why im coming to lectures. i cant even listen to what the maestro is saying.

LLOYD is a retard. someone needs to go to japan. nurf gunned.

i wish yogurtland went back to the apple flavor one. i like it better than peach. i dont really like taro and pumpkin pie flavor. yuks.

i really dont understand ppl who study at home. i really cannot cannot. sometimes i wish i could od it, well not really.
i want to go to the berkeley marinaaa. take my laptop and watch a movie right next to the skunks and the raccoons. thats what im talkin about.

i wana go see my mom. and i wana eat korean delish food from home. im foodsick.

i need to cut my bangs.

ohmygosh im going home.
bye.
soc 111-good class to sleep in.
polisci1-also good class to sleep in.
psych2-super good class to sleep in.
gona go take a nap now until .. forevers.

rotten

yeeeeeeeeaaaaaaaah. rotting at hoooooome.
lovelyyyyyyyy.
writing on blog has been ever more difficult. oh yeah.
i dont really knows whys.

today . i rot. jejejejejajajaajjojojjijijijjujujujuju.
home all day.
i thought i was gona go study at stacks, but no.
fails jejej. fail fail fail fail fail.
the only thing i did today. was seriously nothing.
OHHHHHH WAIT.
korean market
to get rice, mandoo and yeah thats it i think .
it should last me for 2 months or so . i dont wana go grocery shopping. i hate it. dude with a pssion. i dont know how my mommy does it.

anyways yesterday i went to watch
a korean movie. for korean class
i watched hae un dae... i think thats what it was.. it was good movie. i liked it. i really did actually. foreals.
i think everyone should watch it. really.
it made me cry. kinda .
its about a tsunami hitting korea. busan i think. somewhere there.
after movie i called my mom and told her to stay home for the rest of her life and never come out.
i will never ever live somewhere near a tsunami.
never.

ok you know what its so late. and so sleepy. and no more .
i go ice cream safeway but scary walking so come back.
sorry lloydatrons.
no bus. no more. me solo. come back.

ok
me nighty night night. byebye.

i hate tuesdays and thursdays

with a passion.
i dont know how i m supposed to live. i really dont.
im so freakin sleeepy.
i am writing on my blog so i dont fall asleep. polisci is boring
i slept through most of soc 111. i cant do this no more. this is too much.
i want to give up and not come to class no more. if it were the last year me, i would def gone home and been sleeping at this moment. gosh this sucks like a baby sucking on a tree. the tree is so icky and yucky the baby is crying. yeah i feel like that baby.

i need me a printer. oh yes. i does. i used to love going to stacks last year and i still do, except that i don t like going there. its so far. i dont want to walk. its sooo far. i dont want to study at home. i dont even know why i have a desk. i have never used it. i have junk on it. but i was thinking, ok i dont wana go to stacks should i just study at home. but i dont think ima do that because i wont study. period. i just wana sleep. i know i will. i need me some real something. i really dont care about politicians.

ohmygosh. so to the awesome advice of the wise mr fruity carols. i am seriously considering some other major. she said that i shouldnt do soc cuz that aint no good for life. and i got no job after college. ohmygoodnes. i dont know what to do know. shoot. i need me a counselor right now. but i m too lazy to go see one. ok i think ima do media studies for sure but i have no idea what my other one be.

ohmygoodnes im so stupid. i keep on typing a c after my h's every word. that is ridonk.

i got a new id card because i lost both my other ones. im so genius. i bet you another id card next semester. shoot. im pretty sure ima need a new one twice a year. i can forsee it already.

i am one hella studious human bean. i dont know even why i try. ive been reading alot. alot alot. and studying. its incredible and horrible its incorrible. i really dont know why im doing this. when i could be doing something else. sleep.

DID I SAY I HATE TUESDAYS AND THURSDAYS. i dont know if i wana go to psych today. i really will think about that. i dont want to read anymore! everyday i have planned to read. GOSH. can i please stop doing that.

im going to go get that freaken recon. i dont care. ima just get it. whatever. before i eggsplode.

i want to cut my hair. i think ill do it myself. PUAJAJAJa. ima probably ruin it then write how horrible it looks and then im going to cry on my blog. i also want to dye it. that one i will probably do this weeekend or next weekend. im seriously balding. my hair is thinning. i don tknow what to do . im not only going to have alzheimers but also have bald spots disease. this is foreals. i am not exaggerating or kidding or whatever. i am seriously balding. my hair feels so much thinner. blah blah blah.

i dont know anyone in my polisci 1 class. i dont now anyone in my soc 111 class. i should make some friends, but too lazy to talk to anyone. i guess id rather talk to my computer. rather lame you must think. but fear not. its not lame at all. because i do so. because being a loner status is cool and ok. forsure.

yesterday i didnt go to class. none of my classes. not because of sleep. but i did sleep instead of going to my classes. i had major headache and stomach ache again. I AM ONE DESTROYED CHILD. my body is retarded. it wont function properly jeez. whatever i guess its ok.

i need a job. please.

boys are really 바보. soooo much.

SO this weeekend. i have to read. alot. yay. this is so awesome. weekend is stacking time. plan this saturday is waking up at like 12. taking shower blah blah blah and then going to stacks at like 2 and staying there until 10 or something. OHHHHHHHH YEAHHHHHHHHH.
i wana go homesis.

oh sujin came to visit from socal. jeje. i hadnt seen her since forever. actually since grad. she llooks like fob. FOB alert to the alertnesssessss. so me sujin and jeesoo went to eat zacharys. it was pretty bomb. yeah pretty good. uhu. and then we went to icys or icis or however you speell that.i had the vanilla balsamic caramel. PUAJAJAJA. i had that. i cant belives it too. yeah the ice cream has the balsamic, vinegary taste. aside from that gross vinegary taste, it was perfect. i have no idea why in the world i got that because i couldnt enjoy it. boohoo. you know. i don tknow what about icis or icys is so good. i meean what is all the hype about. its just ice cream. like seriously. i think johns dollar one is better. i think i want to go there today to get ice cream. cake batter. yyyyyuuuuuuummmmyyyy. if i could advertise this i would: anyone who would come with me today to eat ice cream. i buy for you.

my ipod died. i dont know why. well the stupid usb thing for ipod died. and it says i have to reconfigure my ipod with itunes. but i dont got no usb thing. JAJAJA. to lazy to ask anyone for it.

you know whats really really yummy. honey roasted peanuts. oh yeah man. honey roasted peanuts R THE BOMb. i was gona eat that for lunch, but i think i need to finish my green leaves in my fridge.

i dont care about checks and balances. ok 30 min left for my class to be donezzo. i think ima just go now because i cant take it anymore. its not like im listening to that guy.

i need a water filter. i need one desperately. yeah how unfortunate i am.

i want skull candy headphones. like legit big ones. :P
i need to go to rsf now. i have to make membership.
ok i cant take no more. i need to leave.
bye bye.
the guy sitting next to me is breathing hella loud. i wana tell him something, but hes really really tall and bigger than me. so no. its ok.

complications

hellow.
im sleepy.
i forget what happened.
ok this happened not in order:
1. alice house ate bulgogi.
2. church
3. babysit kids.
4. cafe milano me loner
5. stacks
6. skim house. korean study.
7. watch dinner with smucks or something like that.
8. asian ghetto
oh this is in a span of 2 or 3 days. not sure.
9. my ears hurts right now.
10. when i chew and swallow it hurts.
11. life is complicated.
12. friends are good for the soul
13. volleyball hurray!
14. my throat hurts everytime i swallow.
15. no more cereal
16. sad.
17. i want chicken salad. i make em bomb.
18. i love cake batter ice cream. goodness. hurray for 1 dollar john scoop ice cream.
19. im sleepy.
20. IREAD for the first time today. psych 2.
21. got polisci 1 books! aldfjasdlfkjasdfla
22. payed month's rent
23. found out i didnt pay credit car bill month of august. genius.
24. im alive.
25. i have pimple on uppper chin. great.
26. i walk around telegraph like a retard
27. someone ripped the tag off my backpack. not cool.
28. im full.
29. wooooohoo for the word of God.
30. i dont like bear walk.
31. i dread tomorrow.
32. quiz in korean class tomorrow. i studied.
33. i dont want to brush my teeth cuz im too lazy. (but that wont happen. im a teeth clean freak)
34. school there is school this week which means hw due and papers due and stuff. ohmygosh. freakin out here. kinda.
35. goodnight

holla at yo boi

donkey kong.
i am not fully recovered yet.
my ear is still blocked.
when i blow mah nose, strange noises made by my ears. ;sdkfjas;dlfjasdl;faj. it sounds like that. that be the only thing.
im eating way too much now since ive gotten back to my groove.

its been hot. again. and i hates it. ohmygosh yes. i hate it.
my stomach hurts.
jeez.
food. yeeeees. no more starving for a little while.
it kinda sucks cuz me and heidi have no idea what to buy. we have very basic things and run out of food really fast because we buy the bare minimum.
chris chan wents to cotsco today. asks him to get me some foood.
thank you chris chan.
so kind of you.

yesterday slept over at mr fruity carols place. su joined too. it was fun.
skim is epic.
no more words to say.

i need to study. I HAVENT DONE ANYTHING. since school started.
i havent gotten books yet. i dont know what im doing exactly.
i need someone to hit me. punch my face. whatever it is.
i have gotten so much better at king kong shower. im actually super happy. i have a grin on my face. but i wish i could play it more often.

today. i had a quiz. in korean. I FAILED 100%. i thought i had it. JAJAJJAJA. wow i have a delusional head. i thought i knew the alphabet and everything but no. i didnt knw jack. niiiiiiiice. i know. thats sad.

after korean. me and skim we was sitting on a bench at sproul just stalking/staring/checking out people's backpacksss. or maybe it was just me. for 2 hours. i could sit there all day and just stare at people's backpacks. its wonderful. but skim had to go to class and blah blah blah. then met trong. walked with him up until somewhere and bye bye. went back to fruity carols. then me jinjy jojong fruity carols and su went to eat JJAJANGMYUN AND BOMB TANGSOOYUK at chef yu. so freakin boooomb. gehhhhjejej :P went back to katown and studied. i think. whatever.
met timchoi's sis christy. shes so cute and cool unlike her sibling. jk. actually i dont know if tim is cool or not. but they just seem different. that be all.
mongolian beef christy steph me jamie went to zacharys to eat pizza. then went to trader joes. it was good fun time.
then went to pick up grocerys from dwight. then went to home and then went to jamie's place to sing, puzzle , and play labrynth or something. it was super fun. i wana play it again and again and again and again.
came back home. and then now stomach hurts.

im currently obsessed with backpacks. more like northfaces.
chrome on my computer lags. no like here.

peace.

WOOOOOOW whadacoowww

YEEEEEEEEEEEEEES.
ok i feel so much better.
no more headache.
foreals.
man
concussion was pretty bad last sunday. but now all good.
ok basically last sunday i had a concussion.
my head hurt too much to actually write about it.
one word: pretty awesome experience i must say.
seriously. but down side to it, i suffered major pain and headache.
no recollection of anything for 2 hours. thats pretty amazing. what can i say.
ok im not saying it was a good move, but i mean its just pretty cool i guess. i got to ride on this cool firetruck. JAJAJAAJ. i think it was a firetruck. maybe not. i dont remember. maybe an ambulance. and when i actually gained normaal consciousness, i was at the hospital.
IM OK NOW.
foreals.
woot woot.
major tylenol dosage. most ever taken. i normally hate medicine. cuz seriously no medicine. i can heal naturally. it dont matter how long it take. its ok . but i had to take tylenol because i had a fever and a major headache which blows, but i learned my lesson.

i hate tuesdays and thursdays. i will say this over and over again every single week.
yesterday had a good talk with mr. fruity carols cleopatra. wow. i feel like blocks and blocks of gold bricks were ripped off my head. gaash.
i forgot what i did on monday and tuesday. oh i slept for most of the day.

korean 1ax is fun. chill.
i might actually learn stuff in korean. i think i made the right choice to drop spanish. well i got dropped cuz i didnt show up to class 2 days ina row. but thats ok. i knew i was gona drop spanish the moment i saw the syllabus for korean class. it said: 5 absences without penalty compared to the 3 absences in spanishhh. jojojojo.

yeeeeeeeeeeeh.
i feel stupid. everytime i come home, heidi is always sitting on her desk writing, styding, doing something and im doing nothing. ok whatever ima live it up at stacks this weekend. and read hardcore articles and all that good stuff. not really good stuff. but whatever.
i like psych 2, for now its interesting.
i dont know if i can graduate in 4 years.
am i really gona do soc and media studies? ohmygash what if i decide i dont wana no more like a year after. i think by then i will really shoot myself.
soc 111 sounds hella interesting.

yeeeeeeeeeeshhhhhhhh. polisci 1 lecture tomorrow is cancelled WOOOT WOOOOOT. put your hands up right now. yeeeeeeeeeees.

appetite is back! yessssss. ive been so sad cuz ive only been able to eat one meal a day since like last saturday or something. ohmygosh how sad i was. no moreeeee. i can eat now!

korean class. dt with skiiiim :) good dt! i like.
dis for polisci. kinda forgot everything he talked about.
is ok.
then buy folder at walgreens
ka-town talk with suzanne.
lunch. thanks steve.
then chill.
then talk with sieun.
ok but i must say. i feel so much better after talking to suzanne and sieun . jeez. it wasnt that hard. ok jk. it was pretty hard, but got over it and feel free now.
feels alllrighties.
yess things are so much more clearer! no more emo or sad ordepressed.

then soph thing at y. fun fun.
talk with annie at melanese or intermezzo or something i forget. dang mang lotssa talks today. then did yesterdays dt bymyself.
then go home. then go print stuff then johnny came to check out my apt then i went to his apt to print some but lame cuz no lecture was posted.
apt.
and its late. really late. adfj;lasdjf;alsdkjfasdl;jfalsdjfa;sldjfas.
but im finally happy for once. gaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhh.
yayayayaay.

i have no food at home. which is fine. because its not something new.
we cereal but no milk
2 jars of kimchee.
butter
bread
i think thats itJAJAJAAJ. wow that is pretty lame . i dont know how to cook for my life. i should learn yeah maybe. MAYBEEE. i think if the cow goes to the moon ill learn how to cook.

need to get rsf pass. but i lost my id card.

OHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. CHEYA BOI finally got northface backpaccccck gosh. i wanted it. i had my eye on it for the longest time and finally it has become MINE! i gots the black borealis. its ok. i was hella debating whether to get the recon or the borealis but i think i kinda close my eyes andwhich ever backpack appeared first i pick i think it was that. me thinks.

man i love cheese. what can i say. except goat cheese and blue cheese and any wierd cheese from europe. maybe some fancy ones.

ok now i gota chillax because ive been out all day.
ok goodnight. BYEBYE. BYE. <-its like the nsync song bye bye bye. or was it by by by whatever. it just reminded me of that. whatever.
i want to play volleyball.
:)
talk with mommy today :) i miss her.