a crooked mind

soft face.
i love those.
but i havent really washed my face for a long time. with face wash that is.
just water it. cuz im too lazy. oh yeeh. but i do brush my teeth twice a day. sometimes thrice.
i should put a mask on .. sometime soon. so my face be soft. i either have white or black heads i forget which, but they be haters. but i dont have them as often i guess. its a good thing. a;dlfja;sldjf.

this week has been somewhat whatevers.
i realized that stacks was my home for about 17 to 18 days sraight. waow. seriously waow. and many more to come.
psych 2 midterm was easier than i thought, but i didnt go to the last 5 lectures, so i missed out on lecture questions. me genius. but whatevers.
but after midterm i wasnt relieved. i was kinda sad. because i has freakin another paper due next week. GRREATT. and i dont even know what to write really. i tell you.

ive realized how much i hate the studying part of college. here i break it down.
1. i suck at math. last math i took was trig in junior year.
2. i hate bio. last time i took a bio class was in 9th grade.
3. i suck at chem. i almost failed that class in hs.
4. lets not even talk about physics
5. i thought i liked us history, but no. no more of that.
6. i dont like english. i hate writing essays.
7. i would do psych, but got bio and chem. hek no.
8. i really dont wana do soc. but im already taking some classes for the major. i really do not want to take stats. gg my life.
9. basically i hate everything.
10. i just want to be fbi. jeez.

i hate polisci.

im hungry. but i dont know why. i just had a samwich an hour ago.

sometime me feels like going to bcc.

on monday. i went to bt. all day. studied. then stacks. until 2.
tuesday. i missed korean, soc 111 and polisci. yay. actually that was good sleep. then bt. to study. then take midterm. it was f;asldfjasldjfasl;f. then i went to get my stuff at bt. then i go home. i was kinda depressed. i dont know why. i had to write an email. johnny bought me thai noodle. that right thurr is miracle. then stackss but it was hella full so we went to dwinelle. then dwinelle close so we went to stacks. until 2.
heidi was angry/disturbed.
wednesday. class. noooooooooo dis for polisci. ohmygah. i was so happy. sooooo happy. i hate that dis. went home. took a 5 hour nappppp :P felt so good. went to bt. i dont know what i did there. foreals. came home early to talk to heidi.
overall. good talk. sweet girl. me bad roommate. thats the end of it.
in order to make up for lost time- i watched a kdrama w her.

i want to make a goal to sleep before 12. how wwill that happen? i foreals dont know. so foreals i think ima die. because i dont drink enough water. or liquid for the matter.
i think my health will soon be gone. deteriorated. kaboom. longgg byebye.

i hate berkeley weather. it makes me grow some feathers. fal;sdfjalsjfas.d get it. innovation!. cuz weather is hot. weather--> feathers. because its hot. if i have feathers it makes me even hotter. so WEATher and FEATHERS. for some wierd reason i thoughts that feather spelled wrong.

i really want to go home right now and sleep. i want to sleep sleep sleep.
have a good nap and everything. with my besfriends. i really like sleeping with peggy but shes somtimes stares at me wierd. actually mickey m. is also a wierdo. he has big eyes and they be black so dark. that sometimes i get scared and so i smash his face on the wall. but i really like dr. porky. hes nice to sleep with and to hug.
dude what kind of hunger is this. STOP IT STOMACHH STOP IT. jeez.

MAN OK. so this is it. i think im going to buy a new dslr. i was going to pay $250 to repair my canon but i dont know if its worth it, i might as well buy a new canon rebel 2ti or the t1i. or perhaps a nikon d90. im looking into it. i dont know. though. ok i think ima buy a new one. or i can actually just ask one for my birthday. but i would want to pay for half of it because i would feel bad.
OHHHHH. yeah i could do that. i don tknow. whatever. no thinking no more for now.
actually sometimes. i want to be a photographer. im not good. but i want to learn. i have to take class then . ohhhhinnovation.

HOLLAAAAAAAAA.
i dont want to stay in polisci.
i think ima leave really soon. because this is stupid.
i need to do something better.
man i have this wierd hunger feeling which is relaly wierd to the max. max max.
paper paper paper. boring professor.
i want the recon backpack. should i get.... yeah still thinking about it.

MAN. im sad at the thought of turning 20.
in exactly one month and some days. lets say 4 days? yeah AS;DLJKFS;LADKJFSDAJ;LSDAF. im so old. old old old. until bday comes. i will complain about my 20 years age.
actually no. i shall enjoy these last weeks of teenage dreams. as;dlfjsdl;fjslfjs. but im really really really sad though. 20 is an ugly number. because new decade age. uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuh. as;ldjfslfj.
so seulpuhs.

i just realized that parents anniversary is on sept 11.
my family is cute. kind of.

i wish i could have deeper relationships with every person i met. that would be pretty nice. but there is not enough time and not enough space. i think. but i really wihs i did know every single person better.

dude my freakin polisci professor is bogus. HE IS SO BORING AND WHY IS HIS VOICE SO MONOTONE AND GAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHr.

i LOVE THE SMELL OF LAUNDRY OH SO MUCH. i cannot get enough of it. actually its tide. but i dont think its tide. cuz when i go back home the laundry smell is SO FREAKIN GOOD but mommy bought me the same kind of tide she uses at home, but mine doesnt smell as nice. WHYYYYYYY. i dont get it. gosh. gosh gosh.
ok ima going to leave polisci because i dont need it to write my paper. ok maybe not. because actually lydia told me today... that im paying for this class anyways. so i think i will stay.

whatever. dude. whatever.
ok i think i been writing for too long.
hasta la vista. i want a camera.
FP.