green thing

today. felt longish. dont know whys. but it did. to my dismay. OO like scream face.

dont really feel like writing today. so ima keep it short. short.

-woke up.
-did stuff
-ate lunch at homesis.
-stayed home watched some tv.
-went to rancho.
-pick up bro from alpha hagwon. poor guy. sat for 8 hours a day.
-sibling shighan with bro and sis at barnes :) JAJAA. was feeling nice. did dt's there and bought my bro his christmas present: books. he likes it. what can i say.
-dropped themm off at homsis.
-i went to pick up chunky
-went to vjjs house to pick up her snowboard. dang she lives in a hella shady place. oh i think i already said that, but dang at night. its like saw or like texas chainsaw masacre or something scary like that. shoot. no lights or something. first time i went on high beam. oh and no signal either. spoookay.
-went to rons work. stood there like retards looking into the glass. see how little kids play at little prince. waow little prince= a high class playground for children. shoot. ohmygosh i wish i could take pics and put it up. its ridonk.
-we go to rons house. we chilled for a bit.
-go to nrb. OHMAN. what good therapy for the soul . sHOOOOOOOT. i havent been there in exactly a year. didnt even go over the summer. cannot believes. i misssed it! especially with hs friends. oh gosh but too short. only 1 hour. dad was >:/ so had to go homesis cuz kinda lateish i guess. whatevs.

me snowboarding tomorrow. excited :) havent been in a year. i bet i still suck. ima fall down on my butt a lot. and stuff. ohlordy.
melona bar. tomorrow? YES MUCH.
ok
me
goes
now
me
tired
and
sleepy ish
goodnight. ish.

shoot for the stars

its such a dayish.
i didnt know the canadian border looked like that. drivers license and government id. i guess you dont need a passport. waow so simple and easy to cross the borderish. he wanted to comit suicide. and he got a bloody nose. and he had to kee his hands in the air. move to the left and stuff ish. nosebleed eww gross. get down on your knees. why suffer. handcuff. there are some crazy people. fbi.

thats what i wanted to be. an fbi. solve crimes. and get the bad guys. get trained. with guns. and stuff ish. its kinda cool. not only that. but . its legit. its something smart and stuff. but ive realized. that i cannot. because i dont meet the criteria. sad. i would though. but i wouldnt like to brutally kill someone or torture them for answers and confessions. thats kinda low. me no low stuff. its all about being sleek. cool. sly. real coy. to get it out of theres. i cannot be so cool. im so lame. gosh. whatevs.

today i woke up. got readies. called chunky. man that girl dont never pick up her phone like eber. gosh. so i had to go to that girls house to bring her out. to mah surprise her mom came right up to me and chunky was in the car. so picked her up. went to my homie. signed up for winter retreat. banked it. then went to banana bay. waited for vjj and mike. then we ate togethurs. second time in rowland/diamond areaish within 3 days. i realized that the pad se eww and pad ke mow is better at berks. banana bay is not that good. so i guess. today. i missed berks thai food. after eatings. we goes to cue to take pics. personally, i dont really like taking cue pictures. i think they be a waste of money. but gots to go with the crowd on this one i guess. cant be the party pooper. like poopity poop poops. bbang.

visited vjj's new house after. she lives in hilly secret place in hacienda heights. kinda shady mcshade shades. but oh wells. wouldnt wana live there cuz its i dont know. really grassy and big hilly mountainy. but its nice though, the view and stuff. wide spaces and stuff. i guess its depending on your taste. spent some time there. vjjs grandparents are hella cute jajajjaajajaJAJAJAAJA. they are.
we goes to brea mall after. eugene joined us there.
i spent like 2 hours at pacsun cuz i needed to exchange a jacket. MAN talk about indecisive. i MUST seriously BE the most indecisive person in the WWW. foreals. its gona even take forever to explain what i went through in those 2 hours. basically short. i couldnt decide between like 2 or 3 jackets. i got to exchange it though. period. good stuff.

i dropped off chunks at her house. came home. watched some tv. ate some good din din w good banchan. :) lovely.
the street life must be hard. but sometimes i think ppl do it because they want to. they like it? i dont know. i wish i could ask them. i wish i could ask each and everyone of them their life story and how they got there. that would be pretty darn interesting. i wonder if i could do that for a living. going around like that. that would make me a bum too? JAJAJAJAJA. yeah it prob would.

my brother is annoying so is my sister. so so annoying.
som epeople in this world are really really scary. and can be scary and are psycho. like piggys in their pig pens. so so scary. like nervending parts of the body.
oink oink.

psych seems pretty cool. maybe not.
i dont know.
my legs i cant feel. heartburn . spicy? i think so . imnot sure whatever.
JAJAJAJJAJAJA hydroxycut.
ok im done.

samba

annyoung chingoo with changoo head. changoonim. stone bart.
I forget all the time.
I forget what i do all the time. bummer ish. kinda. whatever though.
i have good sleeping schedule now. not very good. but its ok. cuz i actually sleep at night and wake up with the sun is up.

woke up today. blah blah blah and then met up with kevin at islands. dude gg. the menu at islands has calories right next to the dish or whatever. DUUUUUUUDE GGGGGGGGGGGG. the burgersss are like 1300-1700 calories. gg. ohmygoodnes. i dont think i can eat more calories no more from any tgis fridays, rubys, islands, applebees and whatevers mores. its siiiiiiick. so many calories for a freakin burger. ohmygoodnes. im glad i dont go to those. i only had half of the burger anyways so i guess that was better. i was full anyways. gave the other half to mom. :) then we can be fps togethuuuuhs. yeeeeee. kevin bought lunch anyways. so all good.

then came home and chillaxed for 2 hours. then went to borders at brea. met up with skimmy pants to do dts. i bought a molskin snoopy special edition thing. i dont really even like those. just cuz errone has one i dont wana get it and it s just bleeh but i like snoopy and i need a journal thingy so i just got it. its kinda expensive though. like 4 bux more than the regular one. ish. dang i thought that thing was molkaskin. freakin skimmy pants is a liar pants on fire who wants to seriously go in the fire. we stretched dt on for like 2-3 hours ish. we was gona go to brea mallskis but too late :( dropped skimmy pants off and thens i went home .
home sure is good.
its like coming home to food. kinda. kinda.
but i really did come home for food. had some good ol bap and gim and o jing uh. man so good :) that be all i need. for meal. so yum yums in the tum tums.

soooo close to getting cameraa :) yayayayay. almost ish.

im hungry.
i need to get a phone. im sad. i dont know which one to get. i have a black berry right now, so i thought i would get a bb bold, but everyone saying no good. go with droid. but droid is like meeh cuz its touch screen and i dont really like touch screen, but internet surfing super smooooth. what a sleeeeezaay. man. im so undecisive. i hateme. everyone should just hate me. maybe people already hate the me.

like all the time. like everyday. i havent had bingsoo yet. who the hek cares if its cold gash. i want my bingsoo. but i realized that i love bingsoo. banana, and strawberry and kiwi and watermelon and something anish something stuff and other stuff is so yummy. i wish i could cook but i suck at cooking. MAN im not even saying that cuz i say that. but i SUCK foreals. i cant even make rice or mandoo. oh mygosh i tried making mandoo and i seriously SUCK. its so freakin nastay. the mandoo i make. how hard can it be to make mandoo. put oil on the pan and put the freakin mandoo to cook and whatever. but no. there must be something more to it cuz apparently i dont know.

quiero cavalgar en caballo. ahi estan los muertos. con sangre. asqueroso. que mas podemos hacer mas que mirar desde el mas alla. jujujuju.

after cutting nails. it feels super good. so fresh like ahhhhhhh and like bunch of squigly lines. but it hurts a little when i press the keys. oh wells. the world is kinda funny.
berkeley really makes me think alot. i dont really like thinking, but berkeley makes meh think . i need some veggies. i always thought kimchi was veggie and ok and enough, maube its not. dang blockbuster is still in business. i thought it went bonkers long time ago. ish.
ok bye. im kinda talking nonsense now. bye bye.

icky stuff

hi hi hi hi hi. helo helo helo.
i didnt do anything on christmas day. stayed home all day. i didnt do much except for dt and watch tv. watched some korean dramas with parents. quite fun.
went to play golf with my dad.. i don tkonw why i kinda have to keep on practicing. i guess i do though, so i dont completely forget it since i devoted so much of my serious lifetime to that.
and then i dont remember blah blah blah.

sunday. i went to riverside gp with vivian. went to service. saw some old faces. good to see sieun, ray, lydia, and other ppl. i forget. :)

a;sldfjasldfjasdlfajs. im tired.
came back from homsis at 6.
went golfing with my dad. again. its ok.

went to rowland to eat with jose and johnny. ate at gypsys. admit it was good, but not worth the money.
dropped off jose at homsis.
went home and spent time at hime.

time for me to get a hair cut and to cut my nails.
ive never had hair longer than right now. its not too bad right now. not bothering me or anything, but i still think its too long. my nails are so long its bothering me. alot. when i type, when i scratch, when i shampoo my hair blah blah blah.

i need to go to the mall. and get something. i dont know what but i do need to get something. :)

got all of my grades. didnt do too shabby :) best semester ive had in college since ever. i got a disappointing B+ in polisci though :( gash i coulda done better now that i think of it. but ill just say thank God for no C's this year and no failing or something. since so many people didnt do too well this semester. :( i need to cut my nails.

woho for after christmas salesss.

aww man. my face has gotten oilier :( i liked it non oily. bo.

ok bye byes. :)

christmas eve

woke up early today. had to meet up with ronny and chunky for lunch. havent seen chunky in a forever years. missed that girl. something special. to make me smile. we met up at starbucks. sat down. and chatted for a little. just catching up on lyfe. man im hungry. so yeah hungers. so we went to eat lunch at yoko. me nd chunks shared some donkatsu and odeng. since my freakin appetite is not back :( miseryyy. oh wells. nevertheless. it was yumm fun for my tum tum. we stayed there for a bit and moved on to the starbucks again. sat down hung out for a little and decided to go to brea mall.

at brea mall i bought my mom her michael kors handbag and since i was already there i bought her a wallet too. dang. i can already see her radiating smile. face.ish. i dont think ive ever really bought her a proper gift. :)
right now i dont care about soccer... i never really do.
chunky bought a gift card at urban. bleeh. we left. my dad was waiting at me at home. so went home.

me and dad visited 4 different cell phone places. -______- i dont know why. i didnt even change my phone today, but i am seriously in between a bb bold, curve or a droid or a galaxy or -_____- i dont know.. and im super indecisive. me sad. whatever. we were roaming around like bummies for like 2 hours. then i just wanted to go home.

my parents and my bro went over to michael's house to eat dinner. i didnt want to go. kinda likke for no reason. my sister didnt want to go either. i dunno if i did good in staying cuz they ate galbi. parents said they were gona come back right after the dinner. yeah right. that aint happenin.

im hungry. i dont know how to cook anything in my house. so i had cereal and milk and a korean peanut butter ppang and a choco pie. i made my sis the last ramen left. i guess we had a ok dinner. both of us. cozy and stuff.
JAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAAJAJAJAJAAJAJAJAJAJAJA.
ronny called me at like 10 ish. we went to pho 21. i hate pho. i really really hate pho kinda like alot. i hate pho. pho is not cool. pho is kinda like poop. because its kinda like not cool. alot. came home and talked a bit. started the pianist at home. waow what a depressing movie. so freakin sad gosh.

my face is so soft. like baby's butt. i did a mask thing yesterday. waow so sweet. smooth everything. dang mask thing does wonders. like alice in wonderland.
ok i wana go to sleep now.
i feel like im not doing much with my time. but i like it. kinda.
whoooooooooooooooooooooooooooosh.
merry almost christmass

weather reverse

man. weather lookin good. no good though. i hate it. man . come on. in needs to be rainy. and gloomy and colder.

i kinda forget what i did today. jaja. jeje. jo jo jo.
hmmmmmmm. oh yeah . i woke really really early in the morning. waow. yeah. its good i guess. woke up early to go to do dt with vivian and skimmy pants at starbucks.
good stuff. was there until 12 ish or so.

met with emchoh to eat lunch :D
gave her her late birthday/late baptism/early christmas present jaja.
ate at souplantation. yeeeeeeeeh. i like that place. i like the greens and i like the pizza bread and the cheese bread and the mac and cheese and the spaghetti. ohh that last one just kinda... cuz sometimes its kinda not good. foreals.

dang i spent like 2 hours just talking with her, catching up about life and blahs. it was all good in the hood. chillaxin. man wish we had more of these times. i never even saw her like once in berks. i will next smmesteeeeeeeeeerrrrrrrrr. oh figity fig fig fiiiiiiiiig.

then i went home. and i bummed around. bumming around is good. feels real good. with cearmic heater next to me.
ceramic heater is my new bestfriend. his name is stanley. because. it reminds me of a train face.
im hungry.

and sleepy . ok bye bye.

outside world

hello. i went out for the first time today. i went to downtown LA with mom.
my mom went to give her friend her present or whatever then we went to eat jjajangmyun and ttangsooyuk. it was good. except for the fact that i couldnt eat much. waow i cant believe it. but yeah i had like less than half a jjajangmyun bowl and like only 5 ttangsooyuk pieces :( i have no appetite. this sucks. i hate being sick. i am no longer fp anything for now.

a;sdlfjaslfasj RAAAAAAAAAIN. i love it. except no rainboots and rain stopped kindofish.
its kinda really horrible when youre hungers but you cant eat. its a wierd feeling. i hate it. im hungry but i cant eat. cuz my stomach feels wierd. its like wierdy wierd wierds. a;sdlfjas;dlfjadfa. i want to eat all the gogi in my fridge. we have like stocks of bulgogi, galbi, steak, sangyupsal, chadol in my fridge :( i havent had any of it yet. a;dlfjasd;lfjasdf. saaaaaad. the only thing ive been eating is fruit. JAJAJA. which is not that bad cuz i like fruit. i actually crave fruit. and i like fruit. fruityty fruit fruits.

I cant sleep :( ohmygaaaaaaaaah. i think i might have insomnia or something. i keep on waking up randomly at night and its so hard to fall back asleep. i wake up at like 5 in the morning and cant fall back asleep so i watch tv. and watch the news. the lady and the boi say: ohhhhhh storm storm floood flood. good things happen.

whyyyyyyyyyy my body screwed, my sleeping schedule screwed, desires to go out screwed. since i dont feel so good i dont want to go out like anywhere. i cant even see the light right now.

but i have a ceramtic electric heater thing next to me which keep me warm. sa;ldfjsa;ldfj jejejejeejjejejeejojojojojojijijijijajajajjejejejeejejjaijijjujuju. i have to go to mall tomorrow to buy presents.
i would buy my dad something, but he never uses anything i buy so its pointless. aaaahhhhh. i have to go shopping. i dont want to.
i want melona bars. they be light green. yummy. milky. melting in yo mouth. pure yummness. what a seductress melona bar be.

my laptop is finally fixed! YAAAAAAAAAAAAAY. im SOOOOOOOOO happy i can type the numbers 4 6 8 0. its almost like a privilege to be able to press on these buttons. YEYUH BOI.

my neck hurts. when i turn left. *stiiiiiiiing. *twiiiiiiiiitch.

i think i have bags under my eyes. except that its not really visible, but underneath it all, its there. i can see it. MAN THIS IS THE WORST FEELING EVER. im so sleepy, my eyes want to rest, but my mind wont go to sleep. what a ppang ddong face. cognitive dissonance. JAAAAAA! cheya boi. freakin psych term for final. JAJA. jejejjeje.

my broder is a baby brat face. waow. gosh. what abratty brat brats. chipotel brat.

i finally know the difference between a CUPCAKE and a MUFFIN waooooooooow. INNOVATION! INSIRATION! cupcake have icing, muffin dont. JAJAJAJAAJA. noiiiiiiiiice.

YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY. my dad is gona get me a dslr for christmas :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDD YAYAYAY. i didnt think he would get it, but dang dad is cool. jk. appa is always cool. despite feeling so crappy this week, i feel super duper thankful for a lot of things. and i thank God for his mercy and love because i can surely feel him working through me somehow through all these struggles.

:DDDDDDDDDD i have mixed feelings about my feelings. i dont even know if that makes sense. whatevers. chaop.

ohmyygaaaah

shoot me foreals. last naight was the worse night of my life.
i really thought i was gona die. :(
i had high fevers. i was awake all night. i had to wake dad up at like 1 in the morning cuz i was getting shocks all over my body. how is that even possible. i dont know. its like some eletric thing going on. ohmygaaah. horrible. i couldnt stay still for about 2 hours. my arms were paralyzed and i couldnt move my hands. if i tried moving any part of my arms, it hurt. and if i looked down ohmygash, it hurt like bees sitting on yo butt.
im so thankful for daddy. he stayed up with me and massaged my body until i was ok. i finally fell asleep at like 5 in the morn, but woke up shortly after. ohmygash. i hate being sick. i dont think ive ever been this sick in my life. ok maybe i have but not within the past decade.

didnt do anything today. i think i took like 2 to 3 hour naps here and there cuz i didnt sleep at all at night. stayed home. its kinda suffocating. my head hurts.
im dizzy. i guess its ok since it happened after finals. but stillll. i cant go out. :(

but im thankful! for the rain! yaaaaaaaaay. i loveeeees the rain. and im thankful for my family who takes care of me when im sick. except for my brother. he freakin hits me when im sick. what the hek. no matter how many times i tell him to stop hitting me, he still hits me, knowing i have mom sal. whatevers. i feel miserable though. i really do . its gotten better.
i havent met any of my friends yet. ad;fljlasjdfa. they all be working. its so different now they in college. its like workin people now. makes me look kinda bumish.

i cant look at too much light. it hurts. or something. or uncomfortable. or something. too much for my head.
i have to cut my hair. really really long. but i dont know how much to cut it. asld;fjasdlfjasdl;fajsdflasdfa. prob gona be crappy.
i guess sickness not too bad. i can stay home all day and watch movies all day long errday. bro got a month free of netflix. movies are not that good. its actually super bleeeh. but whatevers. i guess i can watch the princess and the frog.

i dont get why people get a sugar high.
i cant stare at this screen no more. its hurting my eyes or my brain or something.
bye bye. jolly jelly belly in your tum tums.

home->mom sal

hommmmmmmmmmmmmeeeeeeeeee.home. home hoooooooome.
yee yeeeeeeeeeeee boii.
but im sick.
man yesterday was grueling 8 hours. but i got home. broke in my house through the window.
thats how safe we should feel at home :)

slept for 15 hours. oh yeeh. actually im sick. i got mom sal. throat hurts, body feels freakin cold when heater is on, body hurts and head hurts :( actually i dont care. i deserve this after making my body work sick hours during finals and dead week.
IM COLD!
whatever home feels good.
had chipotel tonight. its not that special no more cuz chipotel is so available and close to homesis back at berks.

im not sre what i will be doing this break. just chillax. i dont know. whatever whatever whatever. me bum around house. and me sleep all day. i shouldnt do that. all i know is that imsnowboarding lots. joyful joy oh joy.

ok i cant even write anymore.
me sick me cold me out.
bye bye.

FINAL

destination at its service. a;sdlfjas;lfjdal;f. SHABOOOM. like mayo and ketchup.
waow i love ketchup. i seriously cant live without ketchup. its like ash kachum or what ever pokemon namj. ketchup good with chicken, any type of potato, including chips, steak, keesh or howevey you spells that, i cant think of anymore at the top of the cerebellum but ketchup make errthang bettas. oye loca.

finals week is like a weaksauce. got nothing on me. but today is opposite day. me sinks. but oh well.
poor neglected sad blog. me has more important things to do now. you know. bigger and better things. maybe. just maybe.

i am a caveman. i just need beard. thats all. i could probably make it with my hair. its be long. anyway. my sleeping pattern be so messed. my days are nights and my nights are days. what can i say. its the life of an owl. except that i dont coo coo or wwoo woo, dont have big eyes, but thats ok i guess. man this week is crazy. i feel crazy. normaly i dont feel like that. its finals week.

i am doneeeeeezzzo with POLITICAL SCIENCE USELESS THING for thing. jk. it must be useful for someone. but just not for me. i dont even vote. i dont know anything about the issues or whatever. i could careless actually. but maybe in near future i will be more interested. polisci is dreading. i would rather take a bio class. and i hate bio. man but me fail essay portion final because i bsed it so bad. i wrote it in like 3O min, but not enough time. my grammar is worse than a 5 year olds. sad. i spent too long trying to answer the ids, which i think i did fine. not great. just fine. i didnt really study for it. but i dont feel like i shoulda studied more, i think i woulda done the same. so that be good. no actually kinda great.

i man i dont think ive slept at regular hours. the earliest ive slept in like the past 2 weeks might be at like 5 ish. which no good. what keeps me sane is pandora. man pandora kinda great? except that i skip lotsa songs cuz i dont like. i dont like the fact that the times you can skip a song are limited. cuz i dont like kinda like a lot of songs. oh well. i also find out that pandora includes kpop. not too shabby.

i think this semester might have been one of the hardes semesters in my life. oh joy. it was like an emotional rollercoaster. relationships here there little bit go go cra cra. man but im so happy that this semester done. i dont get post grads who say they miss school like ginasong. i wont miss it. doing the work . no. bye bye i will say. dang my pandora is playing some ses music. i dont really like their songs. just like one. why must i have a final on friday at 7pm. man finals is one hater of beckysong. it just wana punch my face and leave me bruised. actually i wouldnt mind if finals did that cuz then i woulda have an excuse to not take finals. kinda. question mark.

so me dont know when i go home. i want to go on friday. that would be ideal, but too packed and time tight. then i would forget a bajillion things at home and regret and sigh and sigh some more and be not happy at home. JAJAJJAAJAJAAJAJA. im procrastinating like max right now. so bad. whatevers. i want a new camera. i was talking to the wrong jason. im dumb. so i might go home on saturday or sunday or monday. i want to go snowboarding on saturday too. man only if vivian took us :( why only guys go :( a;sdlfjasdlfasjdfalsjfalsf asl;fjasdlkfjasdlkfa. me too. i wana go.

i love winter. and cold. i hate the sun and the hotness. its not cool.
whwhen im done with finals. im going to cry. fake cry. because no more tears left. since i used up all of them during my sleep prob crying about my hair disappearanceness. yeah there is no point to hide it or evade it. i cant wait to go home and drive, sleep, eat, watch tv, and play with my brother and my sister. and watch movies. and snowboard. oh yeah baby. and eat. yeah thats right. im FP universe. oh man i want a british accent. oh man i love music. oh man . ohman. o woman. oh woman. OHMYGAH. me fail. psych final oh well. my appa and bro always said im good working as cook at mcdd. how encouraging of family. oh man i feel loved. yes i do.

i ma be me some moccassins. yes i am. yes i am . yes i will. oor maybe not. cuz i want sperrys too. i think ima just buy them tomorrow. oh yes. like korean thing you eat. OH YES.

yay im sitting here. moffitt. doing nothing. jejejeje. this is kinda great. dang me gay.
today again. stay until like 7 in the morn. go sleep at jiyoung's house. actually my first home because i dont even go to my apt. havent really slept there since more than a week ago. i should just move in with them. DUUUUUUUUUDE i wana go snowboarding. ohmygashi.

im eating grape fruit snacks . its pretty yum yum . i had gypsis tonight. gypsys? whatevers. i have a frog on my laptop. my dad fixed my other laptop. YAAAAAAAAAAY. yaaaay. man i actually wana stay longer to sleep all day. if i go back home. dad is gona make me wake up at 9 in the morn errday. waow oh joy. so much for winter BREAK.

apple clouds are goold. cielo de manzana. ok i have to study now.
good song of the night: misery- maroon 5

:D