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hello. i went out for the first time today. i went to downtown LA with mom.
my mom went to give her friend her present or whatever then we went to eat jjajangmyun and ttangsooyuk. it was good. except for the fact that i couldnt eat much. waow i cant believe it. but yeah i had like less than half a jjajangmyun bowl and like only 5 ttangsooyuk pieces :( i have no appetite. this sucks. i hate being sick. i am no longer fp anything for now.

a;sdlfjaslfasj RAAAAAAAAAIN. i love it. except no rainboots and rain stopped kindofish.
its kinda really horrible when youre hungers but you cant eat. its a wierd feeling. i hate it. im hungry but i cant eat. cuz my stomach feels wierd. its like wierdy wierd wierds. a;sdlfjas;dlfjadfa. i want to eat all the gogi in my fridge. we have like stocks of bulgogi, galbi, steak, sangyupsal, chadol in my fridge :( i havent had any of it yet. a;dlfjasd;lfjasdf. saaaaaad. the only thing ive been eating is fruit. JAJAJA. which is not that bad cuz i like fruit. i actually crave fruit. and i like fruit. fruityty fruit fruits.

I cant sleep :( ohmygaaaaaaaaah. i think i might have insomnia or something. i keep on waking up randomly at night and its so hard to fall back asleep. i wake up at like 5 in the morning and cant fall back asleep so i watch tv. and watch the news. the lady and the boi say: ohhhhhh storm storm floood flood. good things happen.

whyyyyyyyyyy my body screwed, my sleeping schedule screwed, desires to go out screwed. since i dont feel so good i dont want to go out like anywhere. i cant even see the light right now.

but i have a ceramtic electric heater thing next to me which keep me warm. sa;ldfjsa;ldfj jejejejeejjejejeejojojojojojijijijijajajajjejejejeejejjaijijjujuju. i have to go to mall tomorrow to buy presents.
i would buy my dad something, but he never uses anything i buy so its pointless. aaaahhhhh. i have to go shopping. i dont want to.
i want melona bars. they be light green. yummy. milky. melting in yo mouth. pure yummness. what a seductress melona bar be.

my laptop is finally fixed! YAAAAAAAAAAAAAY. im SOOOOOOOOO happy i can type the numbers 4 6 8 0. its almost like a privilege to be able to press on these buttons. YEYUH BOI.

my neck hurts. when i turn left. *stiiiiiiiing. *twiiiiiiiiitch.

i think i have bags under my eyes. except that its not really visible, but underneath it all, its there. i can see it. MAN THIS IS THE WORST FEELING EVER. im so sleepy, my eyes want to rest, but my mind wont go to sleep. what a ppang ddong face. cognitive dissonance. JAAAAAA! cheya boi. freakin psych term for final. JAJA. jejejjeje.

my broder is a baby brat face. waow. gosh. what abratty brat brats. chipotel brat.

i finally know the difference between a CUPCAKE and a MUFFIN waooooooooow. INNOVATION! INSIRATION! cupcake have icing, muffin dont. JAJAJAJAAJA. noiiiiiiiiice.

YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY. my dad is gona get me a dslr for christmas :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDD YAYAYAY. i didnt think he would get it, but dang dad is cool. jk. appa is always cool. despite feeling so crappy this week, i feel super duper thankful for a lot of things. and i thank God for his mercy and love because i can surely feel him working through me somehow through all these struggles.

:DDDDDDDDDD i have mixed feelings about my feelings. i dont even know if that makes sense. whatevers. chaop.