21

Being 21 is a scary thought. 21 means I am officially an "adult" waow I hate that word. I know that growing up is a part of life, but I wish time could just stop right now so I could stay right here right now forever. I try not to think about it because it gives me a headache, so yeah I basically continue living life pretending I am ageless. Being the oldest, doesn't make me feel any better. I guess I just have to live life to the fullest right now because I know that when I'm 30... I'll want to go back to my 21s.

Anyway, I'm going home in 2 weeks and I cannot wait. So much awaits at home. Like my mommy's cooking, snowboarding, eating out with friends, hanging out with my family, black friday shopping etc... I just need a break from berkeley because sometimes it's suffocating. but on the bright side. I LOVE THE WEATHER right now. It makes my day errday all day.

I can't wait to go snowboarding. I cRAVE it. I need it. I want it. I don't even care if no one wants to go. I am going under any circumstances. period. This is how ridiculously I want to go: there was this one night a couple of days ago when my living room was EMPTY at about 2:30 am. BTW that never happens. Someone is ALWAYS sleeping on one of the 3 futons or attempting to study, but failing miserably by falling asleep on the floor. So I took this opportunity to look up some snowboarding videos on youtube and attempted imitate the dudes as I took my stance in the middle of the living room. Basically, I was doing some virtual snowboarding. This went on for about 30 minutes I would say. Sad you say? not at all. This is how you learn. shoot. sigh. not really. Maybe I am just that sad. But it's okay. I am sure there are other people who do lamer things than I do, so that makes me really happy.

I want to be vegetarian. ehhh. yeah. JAJA. I really REALLY do. But sad thing is, it's kind of impossible. I love meat too much. One of the reasons I anticipate going back home is for the all-you-can-eat krn bbqs. Yeah what would I make of life without those. SHOOT. I'm so hungry now. My stomach is growling.

ok bye bye

life is short

diane kwon is no longer on this earth.
a week ago she passed away.
this was the first time ive had a friend die. now i know what it feels like to lose someone.
she was young. really young. 21. she had her whole life ahead of her.
how. why. why?

sometimes, i picture her. she is still there. so i guess i cant imagine her gone. man. how. really.

im here at berkeley mainly because of her.

i still remember considering berkeley. i thought man i can survive, there is hope cuz diane is on the team and shes cool, she'll be there for me
i still think that if it werent for her, i wouldnt have come to berkeley.
thanks diane. for just being there.
I still remember all the times we laughed. i still remember when you helped me, gave me advice, encouraged me. thanks.
i dont know where you are right now, but i hope that you are well and resting. im sorry. we never got to catch up and eat.

sigh.

i want to know. i just want answers.
life is tough.
am i making the right choice?
am i doing it wrong?
tired.
God. please. give me strength.
I wish He could tell me. straight up whats up.

sssssssssssssssssssssssssssss

los perdidomos y los demas

so finalmente un nuevo post. no he escrito en un tiempo pero siento como escribir y desahogarme un poco. ya supongo ke terminando el segundo anio en la u me hace pensar de muchas cosas incluyendo del futuro. en los 2 anios en la u la he pasado viviendo dia en dia sin pensar en manaiana. pero de repente se me ocurrio ke ya no puedo vivir en el hoy. es un poco dificil de explicar lo ke siento exactamente pk nose como expresarme muy bien :(

a pesar de ke haya pasado por un anio inestable, he aprendido mucho. empezando con clases y el la u, las diferentes amistades con mis amigos, mi relacion con mi roommate, mis papas y ultimamente mi relacion con Dios. nunk me olvidare de todos los obstaculos ke encontre en el camino para llegar a donde estoy hoy. mas ke nada fue un anio muy interesante, pero algunas veces me pregunto si tome las decisiones ke me van a ayudar en el futuro. talvez estoy yendo por otro camino, en uno ke no kiero. supongo ke nunca sabre. la vida. es cruel. algunas veces.

ya caput. :)

time to KO

I have this nasty thing on my upper lip. its so gross. it got big. i dont know if i mentioned it before, but it is truly gross. its like big and.. i think its a blood clott or something cuz i know its dried blood there, but i dont know. it doesnt hurt anymore, but it just annoys the hek outa me cuz its like right there on my lip and i cant lick my upper lip, which means that my upper lip stays really really dry. actually lower lip is really really dry too. oh and me been sick for 17 days now -____________- this is the longest i have ever gone. wants me to go sick and what. surprise? ok i guess ill just wait for it. anytime soon is fine. the sooner the better.

I finished with my first dt book today. JAJA. im actually quite proud cuz ive never finished a notebook before, cuz normally i stop half way and use something else cuz i get bored of my old one thus moving on to another better, cuter looking notebook or something, but this time i stuck with itt shoot. i wanted to finish the notebook so badly, but i did it yeee boi. ok its an amazing feat for me. now i have the snoopy one waiting for me in my aptttt. JAJA cant wait to write on ittttttt. but actually the molka skin was is just black i guess cool thing is it has snooopyyyyy weeeeeeeeee. its cute. i like it cuz its not normal and i bet you no one else has it, or at least here at berks. jijijijijojojojjjiujujejejejeejej. YEEEEEEEE snooooopyyyyy has been my bud ever since the the 5th grade. much love much love from the real world. but its a sercet.

JAJA IM LIKE PICK AT MY LIP MORE LIKE SCAB/BLISTER/COLD SORE ewwwwwww its bleeding JAJAJAJAJA I HATE IT. i want it gone now its so freakin annoying ahhhhhh its pouring blood basically pouring. yeah some ew it is.
it looks like a big very very big booboo.

i dont know what to do for the summer. i thought i had it all down, but clearly i dont when i might not even be able to take summer school . for some wierd reason my dad doesnt want to pay for it. i mean i guess i could understand because hes beeen paying for my full tuition since freshmen year. i feel bad. i could work to pay for it. , but i do not have a job at the moment. hmmmm. so i might not even be able to do that, but the wierd thing is, i think he would be willing to pay for my ticket to korea this summer. i think that is kinda funny. ish. maybe he wouldnt i dont know. i didnt leave home on a good note with him, so i dont know how me and dad relationship goes right now. so i might also go to korea this summer, but all this talk is up in the air. my mom really wants to go to korea. i feel so bad for my mommy. really. she suffers so much by herself. takes on so many burdens. she has no relatives in the states. and often times, my dad dont treat her too well. i think they be going through rough times right now.
on another note, my brother sent me a text that seriously made me cry. i was so super touched that yeah i cried. it was obviously about my parents. and the courage he got from something i did in the past.

im really really sleepy. really really sleepy. sometimes. i wonder. i honestly wonder (aside from bible and various recollections from other sources how peeps could worship a God they cannot see touch hear smell and see. faith is amajing. im sleepy. my contacts are dry. and my stomach hurts again. JAJAAJAJAJAAJA. ok. it feels wierd when my mom texts me. especially when she types in english and her grammer be all broken. i guess its ok. i dont mind. not that im any better on this blog JAJAJAAJAJAJAJAAJAJA. ok i know . i just dont careJAJAJAAJ OK.

a simple apology could amend a relationship just whoosh. its so easy yet why cant people
including myself gather up courage to do the right thing. why is it so darn hard. sometimes i dont think pride makes sense. i dont even feel like i have any left. or had any to begin with.
dang someone left fsm doors open and its so freakin cold. im so freakin cold. like wind blowing right here where me at ok hopefully some nice person will close the door. JAJAJA. or maybe not. i guess im cool with either.

my teacher didnt get my scandi essay :( i thought i totally drop boxed it, but i guess me so freaken dumbs that i didnt double check JJAAJAJa. i normally always douhble check something must be so wrong with me. oh yeah. it must be all that cheese. you know, when you have lotsa somethings that you love you go nuts. man i love nuts, i actually like almonds alot.. just not like plain man i love peanuts. my favorite is the honey roasted peanut. its soooooooo good. soo good. but i get full really fast, so its not very good to eat too much of it, but i always eat until im full that i cant ever have a proper meal so i actually try to avoid those when as much as i can.

i learned the secrets behind the snaps game and the bang game! weeeeeeeeee. im genius. ok im clearly not because it took me a couple of millions of years to find out. im so dumb at figuring out games :( WHYYYYYYYYYY. adlfja;lsdjfa;sldfjals a;sldjfsl;adjfaslfj. i really really try to think. but sometimes i wonder if i have reached full capacity. i dont think i have. because yeah i just know that i havent.
i really like christian music. its soothing, good stuff.

whooooole spring break i didnt do anything but play. i didnt study a bit. i dont know if thats a good thing or a bad thing. i think ill just have to make it up by reading alot later. :( actually i dont even read.
actually i dont think im doing very well in school this semester because i got FREAKIN lazy this smester, i dont read, and i do things very last minute. at least last semester, i read. i dont even do that anymore. im sleepy.

you know that writing a blog takes quite some time. its not like 1O min, its like 1 hour. i would say normally it takes an hour cuz i normally pause and do other stuff me thinks. im not sure, i thinks thats why i stoppped blogging for a while, cuz i got really really lazy and i dont want to right a whatevs short entry cuz i actually dont know. man i just wana go home and sleep right now.
i failed my korean test today because i didnt study for itJAJAJAA. I THINK I might fail korean. i have basically never studied for any of the tests, the most i have done is skim through it. and that is pretty bad considering that everything on the test is from the lessons in the book. JAJAAJA. ok i fail. i think i need to move on to spanish. oh yeah. then i dont have to stress or anything. but i dont even think i will be able to fit that in my busy schedule. i dont know if im making the right decision by going with social welfare and media studies. sigh. i dont want to regret it when im old.
i might actually be pre law. i know i shouldnt for my parents, but i might do it for my dad because i feel bad. FA;LSDJASL;JF A;SDLJFSDL;FJADS;. what is this pressure i feel :(

i realized that no one in my family is ambitious JAJAJA i think to some extent this is not very good because no one in my family really has any goals. JAJAA. hmmm not too good. my dad is not a very ambitious person, nor am i and def not my bro. it may be cuz we be too spoiled. and i guess me not being too smart also plays a part in my decision to be whatvs.
ok i think i rambled enough. i wrote as thoughts came into my head. that is all and im really sleepy.

sometimes i want to be a guy. seems appealing. im sleepy. and my stomach hurts. but mostly, i want to sleep. but then i have to go home and take my contacts off and brush my teeth and take my make up off and put the pjs on. that wakes me up. then it take sme some time to get into sleep mode again. ugghhh.

summer and her brother are funny. brother=winter. this will be a reminder of the funny times of summer and co.

fun fun in the sun sun. it rhymes. i like things that rhyme.
ok farewell fellow fungi.

something about myself

pleaseee broooo no berks. no berks.
i shouldnt have come home. its luxury compared to berks. shoooot. its hard.
i was gona leave today, but pushed it back to tomorrow cuz i wanted to eat jjajangmyun with my family since that couldnt be done yesterday. and i felt like i needed to eat with them before i left. well results? ME FULLLLLLLL. to the max
we had cho man won. and i had a 탕자장 which is half 탕수육 and half 자장면. so bombbbbbb bomb bomb bomb.

break has treated me very well shoot.
i have been out most of the times, but i was also at home.
saturday i chilled with ron and chunky for a little, came home and just chilled, watched tv and stuff. AHHH FELT SO GOOD. jijijijji.
sunday, went to church, but couldnt go to service :( ahhhh sigh.
it started raining that day. after church went home and just chilled for about 3 hours. man life is so free when there is no golf to play. i am certainly thankful for thaat time that i have now, cuz now i dont have to schedule around golf. and i can nap peacefully. yee yee. at night went to pick up joko and johnny. met some mama yeo and papa yeo. nice ppl. johnny looks like his dad. and pauuuuul jajaja. so much cooler than johnny. jaja . jk. ok maybe not. we had some interesting chinese food. spicy and stuff. it was interesting i must say. then basketball. me sits there. then wierd shaved ice at some wierd place. ok .

monday. missed the metrolink or something. so had to take the amtrak to LA. met up with cool kids joko lloyd walked about 2 miles JAJA on wilshire blvd. met johnnys parents on wilshire. crazy. ate all you can eat koreanbbq. jannys parents paid for all of us. dang i was thankful. after lunch and alot of ffreakin meat. it was bingsoo time. fanncy shmancy place.
then we goes home
hung out at home. chillaxed. and it was all good.
yesterday. was pretty awesome. snowboarding at mt. high yee boi. it was hella fun. i took carving to the next leveeel weeeeeeeee. basically it was a long day. and had all you can eat krn bbbq again. ohmygosh i gained like 2 more lbs. :( cuz ive been eating so much meat. shoot. bingsoo again. it was a good glorious day. yet again.
came home had an argument with my dad.

bummed around all day todayyy. it felt ridonkly nice. i tried to take a nap. but fail. somehow the day went by really really fast even though i didnt do jack. the only time i actually went out was for din din with fambam. it was too short though. woulda liked to spend more time with them. :(
it sucks not having a car. alot. cuz dad sold his car so hes using mine. i appreciate cars alot. cars are so convenient. i loove cars. i think the cars are the greatest invention in history, ofcourse, that is after the bathroom. my dad is planning on getting his new car this sept. dang i cant wait that long, so im thinkng of buying a car at the beg of the summer. :/ i need to find a jooooooob. cuz i want to pay for this car. dang thats gona be hard, but whatever needs to be done needs to be done.
ive been eating waaaaaay too much. waaaaaaaaay too much. but ima enjoy while it lasts i guess.
i really dont want to go to berkeley. i feel suffocated in that place. i remember i used to think how NICE berkeley was. man me delusional. home in some sense makes me feel free, but at the same time i gues sit doesnt, actually i feel like that at berks too, so technically i am never really "free" but as i come home, there is a different kind of freedom. whatever maybe me talking outa mah butt. foreals cuz im full or something.
i really really really dont want to start school because i just dont like school. i wish it were summer break already. but actually i dont even want to come home because of my dad. but ugggggggh. i dont know. sigh.
tomorrow car ride :( leaving at six in the morn to go up to berks. wake up early again. i dont want to go to berks. i dont know how many times i have repeat that kinda feel like ive established that already.
ive not felt very happy these days. im kinda glooms and anxious. maybe all the negative feelings if i must say. many things must be bringing me down. but sometimes im ok... i think i may be bipolar or something. maybe not.
i wish the world could stop spinning for a week. so i could just sleep for a week. JAJA. ok jk. but that would be awesome.
"some things never change" i dont believe in. it changes somehow. all time.
lets reevaluate life and the little things.


people change. time flies. where am i. who are you. why. grenade.

home

socal. home. always feels good. always. except when my mom and dad get into argument and make it all wierd. which did kinda happen today. whatever.

yesterday took a viet bus down to socal. first time i do that. the bus wasnt that bad, actually it was nice and seasts were nice. no shady looking people. actually there were so many old viet peeps, it smelled like old viet ppl. no joke. it really really did. there were also some college students, so we werent the only ones going down.
we almost missed the bus yesterday.
woke up fine and everything. actually i only slept for half an hour packed, got ready and everything. i was ready called jenny at 6 but she wouldnt answer :( called her 7 more times and she didnt answer :( it was already 6 25, i knew she fell asleep on me. but i needed to go home today, so as a last resort i called chris chan . yay for chris. i didnt think he would be awake, but he was. asked him to give me a ride to the bus station. came to pick me up, then johnny and kenneth came along. what a nice kid he is. made the bus JUST in time. if we were like 5 min late, it woulda been gggg. ok but good thing me smart. shooooooooot. ok jk.

socal is hot. i dont like it . i really dont. i wana be experiencing cold rainy socal weather :( i heard it hailed and rained yesterday. almost snow? LUCKY. but i guess i shall enjoy some of this weather, which is not too shabby.

HOME FEELS SOOOOOOOO GOOD.
yesterday for dinner me and fam bam went to surah to eat kkrn bbqqq with appas friend and wife from argentina. dang gogi was so hella good. then we goes to hanamchain to get chips and melona bar babyyyy. dang im in heavcen :D

even though home is good. i be sad. im just struggling with relationships, evaluating church, rethinking about my major and what ill do afterwards. :( who can i talk to. really.

ok time to go .
and enjoy more home.

Hi, my name is becky song

dang boi.
its been a while. foreals. its not that me not interested anymore, but i think i just prioritize better. JAJA jk. no i dont. that makes no sense at all whatsoever.
i feel like i want to write today, cuz there are too many things that have happened to me in the past 2 months? i need to document it in order to preserve these glorious memories! but i have a really bad stomach ache right now. i think im seriously gona have like some stomach disease soon. :(

hmmmm im really going to try to remember the highlights of the last two months.

-I FINALLY applied for social welfare major. i think that was in feb ? shoot. that sucks . i forgot. ok whatevs.
-I got majorly lucky with classes this semester. og sched: stat 2 anthro r5b korean 1bx history 7b. long story short i managed to get in soc 5 instead of stat 2 and scandi instead of anthro. God is good.
-I made my Lordship decision. i forget the date :( but i know its the same day as su's birthday. JAJA.
-lots of my cool friends made salvation decisions. and for that im super happy. PTL. foreals.
-I learned how to CARVE snowboarding on march 12 2O1O. tis was fun with soph at kirkwood :D
-have gone through many ups and downs because of relationships.
-got a new phone. im not sure if i mentioned that before. i dont like it. i really dont like touch. battery life sucks. but i guess its a phone.
-i cried watching jim elliot and friends documentary.
-i got my first B on a paper since freshmen year. sad.
-why do i sleep so late?
-my mom went through some tough stuff last month.
-i need to mature. foreals.
-im scared
-im not really good at anything. even if i try. :(
-my heart is ugly
-im really sore. like seriously . alot. no joke. my biceps triceps forearms thighs calves whatever. you name it. i cant even put on a shirt. shooooot.
-my stomach really hurts
-ive realized how important relationships are for me. and i truly cherish them.
-sieun had her baby. yayuh. and so did becky jaja.
-i have a manly voice right now
-i ger jacked ALOT- which i dont mind much. but i do get jacked ALOT
-some relationships are really hard to foster. its crazy, but i really try.
-im moved 2 weeks ago. from one bedroom to a studio. 3rd floor. not worth it. JAJA.
-i am living with Globro ronke nd jenle. :D happy, excited, scared, at the same time. we ll see how much we can grow togethus.
-i havent gone grocey shopping since last october JAJA. i havent had a meal at my new studio.
-i have started to wear clothes other than sweatpants. JAJA. hmm thats a first, since soph year in high school. i got tired of them . i cant believe this day finally came.
-i struggled alot ALOT. at the beginning of this semester. whether i should my decision or not, but i have good friends so it all be good.
-life is hard boi.
-i dont listen to my ipod anymore :( this makes me really really sad. because i used to listen to my ipod EVERRYWHERE for the last year and a half.
-i have a stuffy nose. eww. boogers.
-reaching oout is hard
-be more patient
-i took for granted alot
-i have my nails painted all the time, except for these 2 weeks, which i didnt. longest time having nails a la nude.
-my taste in music hasnt really changed
-berkeley weather is still so hella bipolar. why the hek am i using hella. i told myself i wouldnt. cuz its so norcal. jeez.
-i really love my family, i should call them more often.
-ive decided to GO HOME for spring break. for short time that is and not stay up the whole time cuz i need to see my family. they are.. important.
-woohoooo. snowboarding trip on schedule for next week.
-sadly didnt get any work done today, except for going to office hours
-having manly voice is pretty cool. i really like it. even though for short time.
-korean is hard :( i dont study. but still JAJA. its hard.

and i dont remember anything else. there is probs more but whatevs.
there. life.

undercover for the greater cause

ok. no update in like 2 weeks. kinda sad. whatevs. here goes.
a whole week at ucsd. for missions. kinda wierd calling it a missions when it felt like it really wasnt. but i guess it technically is.
i was certainly hella blessed. ohmygahh. i learned alot. and i think i also grew. my perspectives changed in many areas of my life. man i would go on and on, but i will make it short.
everyday was really tiring. but i loved it. meeting people. going up to strangers. sitting with strangers. they think you be wierd. i didnt care. man
i felt God's love. it was certainly amazing. i am so thankful. for everything. i got alot out of this trip. ;)
oh and another thing. -that week i gained like 3 pounds. it was wonderful. -___-

monday:
-JAJAJAAJAJA i cut my hair. 7 inches off. like goners. like that. shoot there was so much hair on the ground and around me. dang im so sad. it was a sad moment. i must say. what else can i say. oh wells. i also dyed it. its like a wierd brown. i dont really like. actually i just dont like. but other people like and think it might be ok, but i think they mite be just saying that. me thinks. oh wells. wheatver.
-went to eat dinner at banana bay with johnny, skim, jose, nd lloyd. twas fun. food was pretty good. afterwards we go to where? hmmm. class 302 JAJAJA. I HATE MANGOS JAJAJAJ yeah. i pretty much do . sweet potato fry good. mango notishthoughish.
-after dat we go to chino hills to watch movie. they watched true glit or something but i had to leave early :( cuz of dad. gaaaaaash. but i understand. man im mature. jk. im not. but me better daughter. though. ds;fljas;ldfjsal; jJAJAAJA.
-go home. dad was sleeping -_____- oh wells.
-i think ive been wastin lotsa monies. im never like this though. sad. sad. ive gone mad i tell you mad.

tuesday:
-wake up. and do something. JAJAA. oh yeah. wake up. go buy bro donkatsu. DUDE. donkatsu 5 pieces. for 10 bux. JAJAAJAJAJA. why did she even buy it. what in the world. cra cra foreals dude. so shtupiiddd.
-go to dads office.
-go to LA to see camera. ohhh camera kinda shady ish. forealsssskis. so didnt get it.
-went to some place on olypic to see some phones. we were there for 2 hours. i dont even know why. we are getting sprint. JAJAJAA. switch switch. i guess 4g better and cheaper and ish. yeah.
-another phone store in fullerton. me sleeps in car.
-home. pack nd ish. for chunkys thing
-ron picks me up we go to chunks house then we go to coyote hills cc to eat.
-DANG JAJAJA I AM SERIOUSLY FP UNIVERSE. NO ONE CANT DENY IT FORSURE. in between 3 ppl we ordered bbq chicken pizza, chicken quesadillas, asian chicken salad and chicken alredo. JAJAJAAJA. ok we didnt finish it. but still. thats cra cra. im cra cra.
-go back to chunks house. i dont know what we did. tv?
-mochilato. meet jlim there.
-go back to chunks. tv again? jaja i dont remembers.
-vjj comes.
-noraebang 501. meet sue there. sing for about an hour. felt pretty nice nd stuff. :) but was pretty tired.
-chunks house. i dont really know what we did. ... talk.. but i was fallin asleep. because i sleep kinda normalish now. which is around 1 . and it was like 3 and i really REALLY wanted to sleep. but girls are ddongs. whatevs.
-i tried to sleep. but chunks and vjj wouldnt let me sleep. they talk about wierd stuff. i dont even remember.
-SLEEP BABY. finally.

wednesday:
-wake up at like 11 50. eat lnch even though i wasnt freakin hungry .
-crazy trying to find another camera. through all the research nd stuff. i found something. i think. JAJA. but camera is 750 JAJJJJJJJAAAAAAA. whatevs. me try to go check it out tomorrow.
-went home. chilled with brohomes nd siscabob. yays.
-went to brea mall to exchange pants. yaaaaaay plus discount yaaay.
-came back home. ate like beast again. sigh. samgyup. bomb potatoe thing my mom made bomb mandoo that i will never bee able to make. sigh. cry. aite aite.
-MELONA BAR. LALALALALLA. WEEEEE. MELONA BAR! MELONA BAR. WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE. WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE. m e l o n a b a r. love.
-kdrama.
-without a trace and criminal minds :) yeeeeboi.
-NEW PHONEEEEE BABY. ok not yet. tomorrow. or friday. but i guess me stick to verizon now and get droid incredible. i hope i dont regret cuz i dont like touch. we'll see. HMMMMMMMMMMMM. a;lsfjsldafjsalfjsadlfja.
-maybe cancel my plane ride.
GASH
-i hate decisions. oh yeeh boi.

have lots to do tomorrow since im leaving on friday. i have very mixed feelings about it cuz i kinda dont wana go and ikinda do . but i guess 60% wants me to stay in socal and just chill. i really hope my broder will grow taller. that would be pretty cool ish. i guess. interesting.
salfjsadlfj bre bre bre bre yeeeeeehaaaaaaaaaaaah.
LAW AND ORDER SVU. rocks my sister socks. actually only my brothers jeje. actually only mine jejeje. im full.
PEOPLE from texas ya'll. they be pretty cool. i like ppeople from texas. they like that orange color. jaja very amusing ish. but i met cool ppl. almost subpar- to me JEJEJEJEE. jk. jk. im full. man i hate being full.
im kinda excited for melona bar tomorow JAJAJAA. i could only have one today. cuz i was full and that would be pretty sad if i ate more when im full. what am i saying. i eat anyways. JAJA.
man im sad. im missing the snowtrip tomorrows. oh wells. whatevs. i need to take care of alot of stuff. so i guess its gona be cool. i think i should just take th eplane though. its been a year since i have taken the plane i think. waow. ok no i guess i could always just drive. its pretty fun too. i guess.
jeje cant wait for the new camera. jejeeje.
yeyas. :)

i should be fbi. or detective or something. but jaja. i m too dumb . sad. yeah . should give some melonas to skimmy pants. cuz she love em toos.
bubbbbbbbba.
some things in this world. sad.
lets pray.
joy to the world.

HAPPY 1.1.11.

ok. just wanted to say that. yeyha.
havent felt like really writing at all.
dont feel like it right now.
my stomach hurts.
i had cheesecake factory today. good din din . good steak oh yeah boi.
and fetucci alredy. saucy yes.
good stuff. i guess.
MAN THEIR braed is good. I WOULD JUST GO for their bread. anyday.
shirley temple is good too. OHGOODNESS yeah . that is.
but just had chocopie. :( and chocolate. and pears. so full. i wish i could grow watermelons in my stomach. like if i ate a seed or something. it would like soil iteself in my stomach and acid and stuff and start growing.

thhursday. was a day. filled with dayness.
ima just make it hella short cuz me tired nd stuffish.
-woke up
-went to pick up skim
-dt at paris baguette.
-go homesis.
-michelle came
-ramen time and kimchee. yum yums.
-go to dennys house
-MAJOR traffic on 57 north. only suppose to take 45 min to his house from my house, but took like 1 hour and a half.
-dennys house. finally.
-denny, joseph, michlle, me, skim, johnny, nd josh all fit in dennys van. so off we go to mt high at 4 45 ish .
-only suppose to take less than 30 min to mt high from dennys place. it took us like 2 hours and a half -_______-. i love traffic. shoot.
-lift tickets suppose to start at 5pm. that was og plan. but we arrived at like 7 30 ish. janny mishelle and denny needed to rent boards and stuff. so we wait in van they go rent.
-me nd skim look for them. no good.
-i go look for them again. no good.
-joseph and josh go look for them. good.
-that was at 8 20.
-started boarding at like 8 40 ish. waows :(
-me nd skimy jose josh go on bunny, then jose josh leave us.
-i teach skimmy snowboard. im a noob too though. what the hek. whatevs
-bunny sloped it 5 times. i guess worth it sorta ish.
-after freazing off we go to rancho. skim dads bestfriend owns a boston pizza in rancho.
-dang nice food. ate like 60 dollars worth of food for free. it was kinda awesome. had good jolly time. man it was late. i was sleepy and full.
-dennys house to get our cars.
-drop off skim
-home
-die.
-sleep.
i guess. good long dayish. thing
earlier next time. 3 hours earlier.

i did absolutely something yesterday. home. what a thing yeah. cool i knows.
all day home. it was pretty good. i liked it. it was real real real good. planned on going to brea mall. but didnt. cuz me lazy buutttt. yeeeyah. just stayed home and enjoyed some law and order and criminal mind and without a trace. gota love detectives nd fbis cuz yeah.

today morning. woke up. my dad made me vaccuuum room. shower. sae bae to parents. got money from dad and grandma. the grandma whos in nj. i guess she sent the money or something. SAE BONG MAH NI BA DEO SA YO- YO. brea mall. it was ogy only suppose to be me bro nd sis but all fam tagged along. i guess good stuff.
bro bought me yahgt or however you spell shoes at steve madden. those lookin like sperrys . its actually nice. i went to mall to get moccasins. but i saw those and i wanted them i guess. man sister is wierd. to the max. we went to cute tokyo store at brea. she wanted this bear lookin doll thing from japan. its the size of my hand. its 17 bux. waow. forealskiis. shoot. i can buy like. 15 mcchickens with that. so i didnt let her buy it. she like pii juh suh to max. i got a nice peach smellling thing there though. for car. why they be so expansive. jeez. but i guess. i get iit.
dang i did something stupid thing today. juicy couture speakers. that dont even work JAJAJAJA. thats all i must say.

my stomach hurts. :'( a;sdlfjasdlfjasdlasjd. as;fljasdflsaj.
dang reconnecting with people i havent talked to in like 5 years. feels kinda distant wierd nd stuffish
north korea declaring peace. coo coo.
holiday oh holiday. i saw really cool cute huge animal plushie thing. at the tokyo thing store. JAJA but the thing is like 90 bux. JAJA. i would get it. i would. i want it . but its expansive. and so im not gona get it
but i wish i did hhuuuuuuuuuuuul.
my spanish! its failing me now! oh nos. me sad. dang i need to do something about it. like when i talk to dad. it comes out all wierd nd stuff. and i get stuck sometimes. man that feels like suckity suck sucks. shoot. i dont wana lose it no more. maybe time for me to take spanish 25 or something. isssssssh.

ikea. i really like that place. sometime about that place. is kinda special. ish. i dont know. time to change some stuff. like phone. hopefully soon. i dont know what to get though. what a dilemma. whatever. its petty stuff. jeez. i get worked over nothing.
there are greater things in life.
like
man. trying not to crash a car on the road. like stuff like that ish.
far east movement. eyebrow raise. cool stuff. the girl never sings though . live that is. which is sketch. but whatever floats her rootbeer float. i just thought of that. dont really know if it makes sensy.
my stomach kinda hurts. its already 1 2 11 which is kinda not cool ish. cuz its like bleeh now.
whatevs.
bye bye. nighty night night nights.
stomach
hurts ish. filled with chocolate stuff. it would be better with pear. man I LOVE KOREAN PEAR. its bomb. i love it. i just like korean fruit more than ... other places fruit... i guess. cuz i dont like gam from anywhere else other than korea or kmarket or something i guess. oh and also chameh. dang that thing is good. whatever fruit is just good in general. except when there is cheese. :)

BYE!