something about myself

pleaseee broooo no berks. no berks.
i shouldnt have come home. its luxury compared to berks. shoooot. its hard.
i was gona leave today, but pushed it back to tomorrow cuz i wanted to eat jjajangmyun with my family since that couldnt be done yesterday. and i felt like i needed to eat with them before i left. well results? ME FULLLLLLLL. to the max
we had cho man won. and i had a 탕자장 which is half 탕수육 and half 자장면. so bombbbbbb bomb bomb bomb.

break has treated me very well shoot.
i have been out most of the times, but i was also at home.
saturday i chilled with ron and chunky for a little, came home and just chilled, watched tv and stuff. AHHH FELT SO GOOD. jijijijji.
sunday, went to church, but couldnt go to service :( ahhhh sigh.
it started raining that day. after church went home and just chilled for about 3 hours. man life is so free when there is no golf to play. i am certainly thankful for thaat time that i have now, cuz now i dont have to schedule around golf. and i can nap peacefully. yee yee. at night went to pick up joko and johnny. met some mama yeo and papa yeo. nice ppl. johnny looks like his dad. and pauuuuul jajaja. so much cooler than johnny. jaja . jk. ok maybe not. we had some interesting chinese food. spicy and stuff. it was interesting i must say. then basketball. me sits there. then wierd shaved ice at some wierd place. ok .

monday. missed the metrolink or something. so had to take the amtrak to LA. met up with cool kids joko lloyd walked about 2 miles JAJA on wilshire blvd. met johnnys parents on wilshire. crazy. ate all you can eat koreanbbq. jannys parents paid for all of us. dang i was thankful. after lunch and alot of ffreakin meat. it was bingsoo time. fanncy shmancy place.
then we goes home
hung out at home. chillaxed. and it was all good.
yesterday. was pretty awesome. snowboarding at mt. high yee boi. it was hella fun. i took carving to the next leveeel weeeeeeeee. basically it was a long day. and had all you can eat krn bbbq again. ohmygosh i gained like 2 more lbs. :( cuz ive been eating so much meat. shoot. bingsoo again. it was a good glorious day. yet again.
came home had an argument with my dad.

bummed around all day todayyy. it felt ridonkly nice. i tried to take a nap. but fail. somehow the day went by really really fast even though i didnt do jack. the only time i actually went out was for din din with fambam. it was too short though. woulda liked to spend more time with them. :(
it sucks not having a car. alot. cuz dad sold his car so hes using mine. i appreciate cars alot. cars are so convenient. i loove cars. i think the cars are the greatest invention in history, ofcourse, that is after the bathroom. my dad is planning on getting his new car this sept. dang i cant wait that long, so im thinkng of buying a car at the beg of the summer. :/ i need to find a jooooooob. cuz i want to pay for this car. dang thats gona be hard, but whatever needs to be done needs to be done.
ive been eating waaaaaay too much. waaaaaaaaay too much. but ima enjoy while it lasts i guess.
i really dont want to go to berkeley. i feel suffocated in that place. i remember i used to think how NICE berkeley was. man me delusional. home in some sense makes me feel free, but at the same time i gues sit doesnt, actually i feel like that at berks too, so technically i am never really "free" but as i come home, there is a different kind of freedom. whatever maybe me talking outa mah butt. foreals cuz im full or something.
i really really really dont want to start school because i just dont like school. i wish it were summer break already. but actually i dont even want to come home because of my dad. but ugggggggh. i dont know. sigh.
tomorrow car ride :( leaving at six in the morn to go up to berks. wake up early again. i dont want to go to berks. i dont know how many times i have repeat that kinda feel like ive established that already.
ive not felt very happy these days. im kinda glooms and anxious. maybe all the negative feelings if i must say. many things must be bringing me down. but sometimes im ok... i think i may be bipolar or something. maybe not.
i wish the world could stop spinning for a week. so i could just sleep for a week. JAJA. ok jk. but that would be awesome.
"some things never change" i dont believe in. it changes somehow. all time.
lets reevaluate life and the little things.


people change. time flies. where am i. who are you. why. grenade.