time to KO

I have this nasty thing on my upper lip. its so gross. it got big. i dont know if i mentioned it before, but it is truly gross. its like big and.. i think its a blood clott or something cuz i know its dried blood there, but i dont know. it doesnt hurt anymore, but it just annoys the hek outa me cuz its like right there on my lip and i cant lick my upper lip, which means that my upper lip stays really really dry. actually lower lip is really really dry too. oh and me been sick for 17 days now -____________- this is the longest i have ever gone. wants me to go sick and what. surprise? ok i guess ill just wait for it. anytime soon is fine. the sooner the better.

I finished with my first dt book today. JAJA. im actually quite proud cuz ive never finished a notebook before, cuz normally i stop half way and use something else cuz i get bored of my old one thus moving on to another better, cuter looking notebook or something, but this time i stuck with itt shoot. i wanted to finish the notebook so badly, but i did it yeee boi. ok its an amazing feat for me. now i have the snoopy one waiting for me in my aptttt. JAJA cant wait to write on ittttttt. but actually the molka skin was is just black i guess cool thing is it has snooopyyyyy weeeeeeeeee. its cute. i like it cuz its not normal and i bet you no one else has it, or at least here at berks. jijijijijojojojjjiujujejejejeejej. YEEEEEEEE snooooopyyyyy has been my bud ever since the the 5th grade. much love much love from the real world. but its a sercet.

JAJA IM LIKE PICK AT MY LIP MORE LIKE SCAB/BLISTER/COLD SORE ewwwwwww its bleeding JAJAJAJAJA I HATE IT. i want it gone now its so freakin annoying ahhhhhh its pouring blood basically pouring. yeah some ew it is.
it looks like a big very very big booboo.

i dont know what to do for the summer. i thought i had it all down, but clearly i dont when i might not even be able to take summer school . for some wierd reason my dad doesnt want to pay for it. i mean i guess i could understand because hes beeen paying for my full tuition since freshmen year. i feel bad. i could work to pay for it. , but i do not have a job at the moment. hmmmm. so i might not even be able to do that, but the wierd thing is, i think he would be willing to pay for my ticket to korea this summer. i think that is kinda funny. ish. maybe he wouldnt i dont know. i didnt leave home on a good note with him, so i dont know how me and dad relationship goes right now. so i might also go to korea this summer, but all this talk is up in the air. my mom really wants to go to korea. i feel so bad for my mommy. really. she suffers so much by herself. takes on so many burdens. she has no relatives in the states. and often times, my dad dont treat her too well. i think they be going through rough times right now.
on another note, my brother sent me a text that seriously made me cry. i was so super touched that yeah i cried. it was obviously about my parents. and the courage he got from something i did in the past.

im really really sleepy. really really sleepy. sometimes. i wonder. i honestly wonder (aside from bible and various recollections from other sources how peeps could worship a God they cannot see touch hear smell and see. faith is amajing. im sleepy. my contacts are dry. and my stomach hurts again. JAJAAJAJAJAAJA. ok. it feels wierd when my mom texts me. especially when she types in english and her grammer be all broken. i guess its ok. i dont mind. not that im any better on this blog JAJAJAAJAJAJAJAAJAJA. ok i know . i just dont careJAJAJAAJ OK.

a simple apology could amend a relationship just whoosh. its so easy yet why cant people
including myself gather up courage to do the right thing. why is it so darn hard. sometimes i dont think pride makes sense. i dont even feel like i have any left. or had any to begin with.
dang someone left fsm doors open and its so freakin cold. im so freakin cold. like wind blowing right here where me at ok hopefully some nice person will close the door. JAJAJA. or maybe not. i guess im cool with either.

my teacher didnt get my scandi essay :( i thought i totally drop boxed it, but i guess me so freaken dumbs that i didnt double check JJAAJAJa. i normally always douhble check something must be so wrong with me. oh yeah. it must be all that cheese. you know, when you have lotsa somethings that you love you go nuts. man i love nuts, i actually like almonds alot.. just not like plain man i love peanuts. my favorite is the honey roasted peanut. its soooooooo good. soo good. but i get full really fast, so its not very good to eat too much of it, but i always eat until im full that i cant ever have a proper meal so i actually try to avoid those when as much as i can.

i learned the secrets behind the snaps game and the bang game! weeeeeeeeee. im genius. ok im clearly not because it took me a couple of millions of years to find out. im so dumb at figuring out games :( WHYYYYYYYYYY. adlfja;lsdjfa;sldfjals a;sldjfsl;adjfaslfj. i really really try to think. but sometimes i wonder if i have reached full capacity. i dont think i have. because yeah i just know that i havent.
i really like christian music. its soothing, good stuff.

whooooole spring break i didnt do anything but play. i didnt study a bit. i dont know if thats a good thing or a bad thing. i think ill just have to make it up by reading alot later. :( actually i dont even read.
actually i dont think im doing very well in school this semester because i got FREAKIN lazy this smester, i dont read, and i do things very last minute. at least last semester, i read. i dont even do that anymore. im sleepy.

you know that writing a blog takes quite some time. its not like 1O min, its like 1 hour. i would say normally it takes an hour cuz i normally pause and do other stuff me thinks. im not sure, i thinks thats why i stoppped blogging for a while, cuz i got really really lazy and i dont want to right a whatevs short entry cuz i actually dont know. man i just wana go home and sleep right now.
i failed my korean test today because i didnt study for itJAJAJAA. I THINK I might fail korean. i have basically never studied for any of the tests, the most i have done is skim through it. and that is pretty bad considering that everything on the test is from the lessons in the book. JAJAAJA. ok i fail. i think i need to move on to spanish. oh yeah. then i dont have to stress or anything. but i dont even think i will be able to fit that in my busy schedule. i dont know if im making the right decision by going with social welfare and media studies. sigh. i dont want to regret it when im old.
i might actually be pre law. i know i shouldnt for my parents, but i might do it for my dad because i feel bad. FA;LSDJASL;JF A;SDLJFSDL;FJADS;. what is this pressure i feel :(

i realized that no one in my family is ambitious JAJAJA i think to some extent this is not very good because no one in my family really has any goals. JAJAA. hmmm not too good. my dad is not a very ambitious person, nor am i and def not my bro. it may be cuz we be too spoiled. and i guess me not being too smart also plays a part in my decision to be whatvs.
ok i think i rambled enough. i wrote as thoughts came into my head. that is all and im really sleepy.

sometimes i want to be a guy. seems appealing. im sleepy. and my stomach hurts. but mostly, i want to sleep. but then i have to go home and take my contacts off and brush my teeth and take my make up off and put the pjs on. that wakes me up. then it take sme some time to get into sleep mode again. ugghhh.

summer and her brother are funny. brother=winter. this will be a reminder of the funny times of summer and co.

fun fun in the sun sun. it rhymes. i like things that rhyme.
ok farewell fellow fungi.