life is short

diane kwon is no longer on this earth.
a week ago she passed away.
this was the first time ive had a friend die. now i know what it feels like to lose someone.
she was young. really young. 21. she had her whole life ahead of her.
how. why. why?

sometimes, i picture her. she is still there. so i guess i cant imagine her gone. man. how. really.

im here at berkeley mainly because of her.

i still remember considering berkeley. i thought man i can survive, there is hope cuz diane is on the team and shes cool, she'll be there for me
i still think that if it werent for her, i wouldnt have come to berkeley.
thanks diane. for just being there.
I still remember all the times we laughed. i still remember when you helped me, gave me advice, encouraged me. thanks.
i dont know where you are right now, but i hope that you are well and resting. im sorry. we never got to catch up and eat.

sigh.

i want to know. i just want answers.
life is tough.
am i making the right choice?
am i doing it wrong?
tired.
God. please. give me strength.
I wish He could tell me. straight up whats up.

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