21

Being 21 is a scary thought. 21 means I am officially an "adult" waow I hate that word. I know that growing up is a part of life, but I wish time could just stop right now so I could stay right here right now forever. I try not to think about it because it gives me a headache, so yeah I basically continue living life pretending I am ageless. Being the oldest, doesn't make me feel any better. I guess I just have to live life to the fullest right now because I know that when I'm 30... I'll want to go back to my 21s.

Anyway, I'm going home in 2 weeks and I cannot wait. So much awaits at home. Like my mommy's cooking, snowboarding, eating out with friends, hanging out with my family, black friday shopping etc... I just need a break from berkeley because sometimes it's suffocating. but on the bright side. I LOVE THE WEATHER right now. It makes my day errday all day.

I can't wait to go snowboarding. I cRAVE it. I need it. I want it. I don't even care if no one wants to go. I am going under any circumstances. period. This is how ridiculously I want to go: there was this one night a couple of days ago when my living room was EMPTY at about 2:30 am. BTW that never happens. Someone is ALWAYS sleeping on one of the 3 futons or attempting to study, but failing miserably by falling asleep on the floor. So I took this opportunity to look up some snowboarding videos on youtube and attempted imitate the dudes as I took my stance in the middle of the living room. Basically, I was doing some virtual snowboarding. This went on for about 30 minutes I would say. Sad you say? not at all. This is how you learn. shoot. sigh. not really. Maybe I am just that sad. But it's okay. I am sure there are other people who do lamer things than I do, so that makes me really happy.

I want to be vegetarian. ehhh. yeah. JAJA. I really REALLY do. But sad thing is, it's kind of impossible. I love meat too much. One of the reasons I anticipate going back home is for the all-you-can-eat krn bbqs. Yeah what would I make of life without those. SHOOT. I'm so hungry now. My stomach is growling.

ok bye bye