mi ultimio dia en casa.

hoydia, es decir el domingo, me desperte a las 2 de la tarde pk estuve muy cansada. me dormi como a las 3 o 4 de la mañana estudiando. se suponia ke tenia ke ir a la iglesia con mi familia, pero decidir en no ir este domingo pk en el primer lugar, nisikiera voy a ir a la misa, pk nunk voy a la misa de la iglesia de mis papas, y en el segundo lugar, no conozco a nadie. enverdad nunk hize el esfuerzo de conocer a gente en mi iglesia, pero bueno, eso es otra historia. me bañe a las 3 de la tarde pk mi papa keria ir a practicar golf. tb vino mi hermano.

changing back to english right now, just feel like it. so i hadn't practiced golf for 2 months. the consequences of that were clear after hitting a bucket. my hands were blisterless before, but by just hitting a bucket, my hands became hard, i got huge blisters, and one actually popped and bled like crazy. it also hurt a lot, but i still hit another bucket, just because my dad told me so and i know if i told him that i couldn't hit any more because of this, he would probably rebuke and scold me, and on with jansori. so i hit on. after finishing, we went home.

vjj came and picked me up to go eat dinner. missed her so much. we went to ishine. good gogi :) it was all you can eat and surprisingly the service was so much better than last time. they had this deal for 2 people: $6.99 each person, unlimited bulgogi and sam gyup sal. im actually disappointed at myself, because me and vjj only finished 2 servings. so little. :( whatevers. banchan was really good too. they had my favorite odeng and potato salad.

after dinner, we went to joyce's house. i was really happy to see her. we played with her dog and her mom peeled us some bomb korean pears. we went up to her room and talked a bit. wish we could have hung out more before i left.

came back home and listened to some lectures. i am actually proud of myself for actually have listened to half of the lectures that i was suppose to listen too.

then at 12:40 in the morning i went to jeesoo's house to get a t shirt she bought at berkeley for my friend, but she left so i have to send it to her in ny. i stayed and talked with jeesoo about my week in fullerton and so did she. came back home at 1:50. its so nice to drive at night, when no cars are on the road. you can basically do whatever you want, except passing a red light because there are cameras.

im going back to berkeley in 3 hours? i think my flight is at 7 30 in the morning? i hope i can survive this week because i wont be able to sleep.

God give me strength.

sacrificed my play time.

nothing ever goes according to my plans. ever. not since the moment i came home.
i kept on saying how i was going to study everyday while i was home, even if it was a little on some days, but that went down the toilet. because i flushed it :P but i didnt do anything on tuesday, wednesday nor thursday. i finally started doing some work yesterday night. i was also suppose to eat lunch with some high school friends, that went down the toilet too. why? because i flushed that too. i was also suppose to go snowboarding today at 3, so basically the whole afternoon and would come back at night, but you know what?! that went down the toilet too. actually i sacrificed that one, so i could go study :) that was pretty tough decision, but yee im so 짱 like that, i didnt go. plus car arrangement and everything got a little complicated so i just decided not to go. but i got to see some other cool kids.

chaerie left today :( sadness. i realized today.. or maybe a long time ago, that i cherish her. not not only as a friend, but as like a companion for life (not in the wierd way) and i think i will have a long lasting relationship with her, im even thinking for life. dropped her off at the john wayne airport at 6 in the morning. i just realized i only slept for 1 hour yesterday. that means in 24 hours ive only slept one hour. ok thats chill. i got this. im used to it anyways im only going to be able to sleep maybe 2 hours each day next week.

called emchoh up and picked her up at her house and went to meet john yeun at corner bakery in brea to studys, but i stopped at borders to buy a book for a class. i was suppose to buy the book a month ago :P i have a final paper due next friday based on the book? hooray for that. but good thing is, i got some work done at home! i thought i would actually get none and i was getting worried. i am currently studying, but decided to take a break so my brain wouldnt get poooped. i got another nose bleed today. this is the second time within 2 weeks. never had that happen to me before.cool beans. actually my mom freaked out because when my nose started bleeding i started laughing. she kept on saying to be quiet. i was like what theee. whatevers cool beans anyway.

my eyes are sleepy right now. no. i must 버텨!

so basically, today was another wasted day, except for the 3 hours i was actually productive at corner bakery.

2 nutrisci assignments done
earthquake assignment done

3 more to go......

nada siempre sucede como yo planeo.

hoydia, tenia ke despertarme a las 4 de la mañana para ir al mall, pero como siempre no funco mis planes pk no me desperte. me desperte a las 12:30 de la tarde. y tuve ke tomar una ducha rapidita pk tenia un almuerzo con la mama de la chaerie, sus amigas, y mi familia a las 1. llegamos un poco tarde. llegamos a san gabriel mas o menos a las 1:20 creo. comimos comida muy rica eso si :) era un restaurante japones donde un chef cocinaba al frente de nosotros. era un espectaculo. despues de comer entre a un hello kitty store, muy lindo y keria comprarme una sabana de hello kitty. keria ke me lo comprara mi mama pero en vez de eso, termino la mama de la chaerie comprandomelo. le agradezco mucho pero al mismo tiempo me siento mal jaja pk siempre me compra cosas :)
al seguir nuestro almuerzo, fuimos a comer postre.

altiro salimos al desert premiun outlet mall para ir shopping. nos tardamos 2 horas en llegar desde san gabriel hasta alla. solo tuvimos 4 horas para comprar. :( y yo solo alcanze a comprarme 2 cosas en polo ralph lauren. :( pero buenoo. talvez vuelva al mall mañana o el domingo para comprar mas cositas.

el mall cerro a las 10 asike nos tuvimos ke ir. pero en el camino, comimos mcdonalds. danggg. no he comido un big mac en mas de 3 meses! :P pero estuvo demasiado delishh. eskisito. llegamos a mi casa a las 12 de la mañana. estoy muy cansada pero no creo ke voy a dormir denuevo pk igual me tendria ke despertar a las 5 de la mañana pk la chaerie tiene un vuelo a las 8 30 de la mañana. asike mejor uso este tiempo en estudiar y hacer muchas de las cosas ke igual voy a tener ke hacer en estos dias ke vienen pk enserio, tengo demasiadas cosas ke hacer. y nose pk estoy escribiendo en este blog cuando deberia usar este tiempo para estudiar.

mañana sera otro dia. voy snowboarding. vamos a ver como me ira con eso.

buenas noches.

thanksgiving.

today was thanksgiving. i have lots to be thankful for. :)
i wish i could just express it in a better way. some of the things im really thankful for: my family, my house, my health, my friends, uc berkeley, my life, but i dont appreciate it enough. sometimes i feel like i really dont deserve what i have.

i am also thankful for having justin, james, james mom, chaerie's mom, chaerie over for thanksgiving. i think we had a great meal even though i just ate corn, tomatoes and jap chae. this was my first meal with my family since august.

ive been very unproductive these past 3 days.
i dont know what im doing. i currently have
2 nutrisci assignments due monday.
nutrisci midterm on wednesday.
extra credit and homework assignment for earthquake due thursday.
final paper for education on friday.

i feel hopeless right now. it doesnt get any better, because i dont know when i am going to find the time to study and get work done this weekend at home.

so black friday, im suppose to go shopping at the desert premium outlets/cabazon.
then im suppose to have lunch with chaerie, her mom, my mom, chaerie's mom friend in like alhambra or something. after that i either go snowboarding with ron and michelle or i go eat dinner with emchoh and her budds.

saturday doesnt get any better either. im suppose to meet chancho and ellen for like lunch or something then im suppose to meet umm someone else, but i forgot who. not good. all nighters next week are a must.

i should actually be thankful right now, but all im doing right now is complaining and venting. im sorry. i know i could be making better choices right now.

i actually want to get work done right now before i have to go shopping.
good night. happy thanksgiving.

corte de pelo arruinado

hoydia me corte el pelo. en 3 palabras el corte fue un desastre.
fui a cortarme el pelo donde siempre me lo corto, en la peluqueria donde trabaja la mama de una amiga. antes siempre me lo cortaba bien... pero esta vez fallo miserablemente. cuando le dije ke me lo cortara una pulgada, me lo corto 6 pulgadas. y me corto los layers demasiado cortos y cuando me amarro el pelo, se me cae mucho pelo. y parece ke tengo un mullet. me voy a tener ke amrrara el pelo por 3 meses. keria llorar pero como estoi mas madura, supongo ke no me salieron lagrimas. bueno al menos el pelo crece asike no estoi tan enojada. pero si arrepiento de habermelo cortado. pero hay ke pensar ke todo pasa por una razon. estoy triste eso si triste :(

cambiando de tema ahora estoy en mi casa. llegue ayer a las 9 de la mañana. pero dormi y despues fui a buscar a la chaerie del john wayne aeropuerto. estaba muy feliz en verla. hoydia me desperte y fuimos a comer carne con chaerie, mi mama, mi hermana ay la mama de la chaerie. igual fue bonito poderla haber pasado con la mama de la chaerie ke no la habia visto desde el verano. me da pena ke la chaerie se tenga ke tan temprano.. se va el sabado, me habria gustado ke se kede hasta el domingo en vez del sabado. despues chaerie se fue con su mama a kedarse alojar en la casa de la amiga de su mama. y yo me corte el pelo y despues fui a ver a ron y michelle. con ellas fui al cine. no habia ido al cine desde el año pasado. era diciembre. fui a ver the blind side. no fue tan mala la pelicula. en verdad si me gusto.

sera otra vez hoy, un dia en ke fallo en darme cuenta ke tenia ke entregar tarea. tengo ke hacerla ahora y mandarla por email y decirle a mi gsi ke si me puede dar una oportunidad mas. pero genia soy.

estoy pero re agotadisima. me kiero morir. tengo demasiado trabajo ke hacer para la proxima semana. y si no lo empieso ahora, me voy a tener ke salir de la u pk voy a reprobar todas mis clases. esto no es bueno.

ya por hoy esto sera. aunke kiera dormir, no voy a poder pk tengo ke hacer la tarea ke debi haber mandado ayer. :(

hwaiting!!!!!!!!!

home sweet home.

today i woke up to go to team workout at 10 in the morning. pain in the butt. but at least no more of those until next monday. i took a shower after that and met up with lindsey at the y to go grab some lunch. so me, lydia and lindsey lohong went to ramonas. had their paninis for the first time today. it was pretty delish. went back to the y. ohh. i bought my plane ticket finally. today at 2. there was one time slot left for a price of $39. but its a 6:25 am flight. but that was the only one at $39 all the rest after that started at $99. so im pretty satisfied with my flight. no sleeping for me tonight .. again.

i thought i had nutrisci discussion today and i did my hw and everything, then 10 min after my class started lydia tells me there is no discussions this week -_____-
so i just waited until nutrisci lecture because lydia made me go. after class we met gina and ashton on sprowl and decided to walk to the y together.well actually me and gina went to gbc cuz she didnt have lunch so i swiped her :) im so nice. then we went to y and i think i was ther for 2 hours until i left to eat with my roomate. i had bomb ddonkatsu today :) after dinner we went to moes to see if they had a book i needed, but they didnt. then we met mulan walking on telegraph, she was heading to her friend's apartment on dwight and college by herself so we decided to walk her because it was pretty dark. i dont know why, but i really like walking people to their apartments, dorms, houses whatevers at night. i feel like i can protect someone by doing so. but i do not like to be walked back to my dorm. i feel like i can protect myself and use my tae kwon do skills. i do not want that to go to waste. this is the only reason why i took tae kwon do my senior year!

i have to take the bart tomrow at 4:30 am. i hope i dont get lost and i hope i dont miss my plane.

on another note, TC was pretty awesome. it was also very funny. i enjoyed it very much.

songs i like listening to at the moment:

heartbeat-2pm
너에게 미쳤었다-2pm
my soldier-aj rafael
showstopper-aj rafael
meet me half way-black eyed peas
party in the usa-miley cyrus(i like the song, but not her singing it)
lucky-jason mraz ft. colbie caillat
falling for you-colbie caillat
매력쟁이-Lyn ft. MC Mong
wannabe-epik high
don't stop believing-glee
헤어지지 못하는 여자, 떠나가지 못하는 남자-리쌍 ft. 정인
fotografia-juanes and nelly furtado
and i miss you-the DEY
haven't met you yet-michael buble
where is the love-black eyed peas
lose yourself-eminem.

yeyuuhs socal baby. t-9 hours.

mi corazon no tiene espacio para mas.

no entiendo el amor. no tengo idea como la gente se casa. yo creo ke es una de la cosas mas dificles de hacer. como puede una persona saber si se va a kedar el resto de su vida con esa misma persona. y como sabe uno si la otra persona va ser fiel durante toda la vida. y como puede una persona compartir todo con esa persona. primero ke todo a mi me da miedo. por eso no me pienso casar. el amor es algo dificil de comprender. y yo no pienso tratar de entenderlo. el amor es como una libro en un idioma ke nadie comprende y por eso hay ke desifrar. yo para siempre kedare soltera. :)

odio ke me guste a alguien pk odio esa sensacion. odio pensar en esa persona todo el dia. odio extrañarlo. odio desesperarme por verlo. lo odio todo. por arto tiempo no me gustaba a nadie, pero como la universidad tiene a tanta gente, supongo ke tarde o temprano te guste a alguien pk hay gran variedad. a mi no me ha gustado a nadie desde decimo año. y pense ke no me gustaria a nadie mas, pero ekivocada estuve, pk en la universidad si paso lo ke nunk pense ke iba a pasar. nisikera de mi propia voluntad, me empeso a gustar a alguien. pero lo ke pasa conmigo es ke a mi solo me gusta tal persona por poco tiempo, pero por el poco tiempo ke me gusta esa persona, me gusta mucho. ojala ke ya no me pase esto despues de ke me olvide esta persona.

pero si amo a mi familia, a mis amigos, y a toda la gente ke me hace reir y sentir feliz.

esty segura ke Dios me ha llamado para servirlo a el y solo a el por el resto de mi vida.

christmas is near. i m pretty happy and excited since im going to new york to see my halmoni, cousins, aunts and whatevers. good stuff. i like to celebrate the holidays in new york. its pretty and entertaining plus a lot of fun.

its getting colder at cal :) i is pretty happy about that too. but too bad in socal its boiling hott. im really going to hate the weather there. but whatevers.

when i go back home i have to study. midterms first week of december. uncool. i hate how the semester was so short. maybe i enjoyed it too much. i wish time would just stop for a little bit.

thanksgiving. turkey time. i dont like cooked turkey. only turkey sandwich. sliced turkey i guess, so i dont eat turkey during thanksgiving. @@

today once again woke up at 2 pm.
i wanted to go see the strike. but i forgot there was one today. but i went later at night, at abotu 6 45 ish and ppl were at wheeler. interesting stuff. swat team . police cars. people getting hit on by police. i must say berkeley is an exciting place.

ok im so tired. no more. good nights.

lack of sleep.

so yesterday was a interesting day.
I had team workout at 6 in the morning, which i missed due to personal issues.
I also got locked out out of my building and room because i left my keys in my room. i realized this at 4 in the morning. but its all good because my roomate was still awake. then i just slept, missed my first class, as usual. my second class was canceled due to the strike, but I had to turn in my midterm essay, which had to be turned in at 11 to 11 30. I woke up and I thought i was so screwed because i thought it was like 2 in the afternoon, because i usually wake up around that time and i forgot to turn on the alarm clock. but luckily God loves me so much he somehow let me wake up at 11 11. i hadn't printed my essay out because suzie was editing it all night, so i knocked only like every floormates door to see if anyone had a printer available, luckily someone was kind enough to let me print my essay. it was 11 18 by the time i finished printing it. i ran. no. i sprinted. as i was running to campus, i crashed a biker. we both collapsed and sort of exploded and fell to the ground, but i had no time, so i just told him i was sorry and sped. by the time i got there it was 12 28. niiiiiiiice.
so yeah its all good. God is good.

after all that madness, i took a shower, i was suppose to swipe suzie at gbc or something, but somehow i ended up going to alameda with her. she had to drop off some salad she had made for kelly samonim cuz she was sick. then we went to jenny's apartment because suzie had to drop off salad for her too? i dont know whys. i forget. but we ended up staying at jenny's for a little bit because she actually made us ddukboki for lunch because i had told her i hadn't had lunch yet. dang. i was touched. i also met abigail. she hates me. i dont know what i did to her, but she hates me. oh wells. after that i went back to dorms. and i slept.
i was pretty tired.
at 6 i went to eat dinner with yangpa. we ate at toust. it was some delish boolgogi right there. we talked about lots of things, very interesting dinner.he has some very interesting parents. i tried yoghurt park for the first time yesterday after dinner. its actually pretty good. then we talked some more and then we went to asc. then i went to my room and slept. and then i woke up and went to drop off something downstairs. after that i met up with sen and johnny and hung out.

im happy. im going home next week. i still havent bought my ticket yet for either monday or tuesday, but i think i should buy it today, still its ok cuz the price is still $39 plus tax. im very excimted though.

my cheeks are soft again :) maybe cuz the weather is colder? may be... but i like. my eyes are burning though. cuz im tired? may bee. .. i dont like.

ok time to sleep now and wake up in 4 hours.

good morning.

nocturna.

ohh. asike ahora son casi las 4 de la mañana. pk tengo ke siempre estar despierta a esta hora. nunk he podido dormir antes de las 12...y menos ahora ke tengo ke trabajar en ensayos y tareas. y montones de otras cosas. pero ahora si tengo ke trabajar en un papel ke es para el jueves y no estoi tratando de posponer el ensayo hasta el ultimo dia.. bueno el ultimo dia seria mañana. y mas encima no deberia nisikera estar escribiendo aca. pero creo ke necesito descansar un poco. hoydia me sangro la nariz por la primera vez en la u. igual bkn. creo ke es pk no he estado durmiendo.
pero igual lo raro es ke no tengo tanto sueño. sera pk ya estoi acostumbrada.

hoydia ... falte clase... denuevo... pk me fui a dormir a las 6 de la mañana... y descubri ke tenia un reportaje para hoy.. pero eske habia pensado ke era para el jueves y para asegurarme chekee denuevo y si era para hoy.. asike me tuve ke duchar y trabajar en el reportaje. lo bueno es ke podia entregarlo hasta las 5 de la tarde, asike igual lo tenia ke eescribir super rapido, pero ya eran las 4 45 y no lo habia termindo aun, asike me invente cualkier cosa y lo imprimi y corri como nunk he corrido en mi vida para entregarlo. alcanze a entregarlo :) pero estoi apostando ke me fue demasiado mal pk lo hice muy alote. pero buee. almenos entregue algo.

me duele el estomago, denuevo. las cagoooooooo.

ahora toi en la casa de suzie. y en este momento esta durmiendo y roncando tan fuerte ke no me puedo concentrar. :P a mi tb me gustaria dormir ahora, pero no puedo tengo ke terminar el estupido ensayo. ya se me esta viniendo el sueño. me voy a tener ke retirar ahora pa poder terminar esta custion.

feliz pk no falta mucho pa ke me vaya a la casa.

-----que sera sera.

I miss you like the desserts missed the rain.

sunday was a nice day. i woke up late again. I dont know why.
we played our last volleyball game. we lost. but im ok with it. i had a lot of fun playing volleyball.
i really did. i wish i had played more, but i cant do anything about it because i suck :P
i really want to play next semester. but i dont know if i will be able to. it all depends on one decision i make. i really liiiiike volleyball. jejeje. i have never played in a team where i had so much fun with people like that. volleyball this semester made my first semester of college that much better.

sunday i stayed up all night... doing homework project.. that was assigned 3 weeks ago.... it took me 3 hours to do 2 assignments and 3 hours to do the project. but i did it falling asleep, so thats why it probably took the whole night.

I did some deep thinking yesterday. i thought about some really important things in my life. i normally dont like thinking those kind of deep thoughts. it doesnt suit me. but hopefully i will get it together. im scared that some of the decisions i make right now will hurt me or my family in the future. im one confused human bean.

today was my roomates birthday. man she young. i feels old. she just turned 18. i do really feel old. i hope she had a good birthday. i barely saw her though the whole day and i feel really bad. i just had a very busy day today. i feel as if i should have been with her. i love my roomate so much. i appreciate her so much as a roomate, person, friend, companion, and whatevers. i would never ask for another roomate. i love youuuuuuuu so much jeesoo :) happy birthday.

my stomach hurts right now. a lot. i think i have indigestion plus cramps. not cool.
my hair is really long. i want to cut it so badly. yes i will. next week.
oh and i cant wait for next week. so much to do in so little time.

i think boys are stupid. why do they do the things they do? you know. i can walk to the dorm by myself and i will be perfectly fine. i can fight bums. they got nothing against me. i have my tkd skills. i got myself covered. its all good. but i must say i was really touched today by someone for doing what they did, but still they shouldn't have done that.

lord thanks for your blessings :) i have many .
bye bye. cram time. essay time.

하하하하하하하하하하하하하하하하하하하하하후후후후후후후후후후후 :P

yummy.

desperdicie la mitad de mi dia. me siento tan mal. hoydia supuestamente tenia ke comer almuerzo con dos seniors a las 11 30. me desperte a las 2 30 de la tarde. nisikiera me pude despertar cuando sono mi alarma. y tp me pude despertar cuando me llamaron por cel. me estoi volviendo vieja o ya se me estan comiendo las orejas. me da pena ke los deje colgados.
pero bueno ya no puedo hacer nada sobre eso.
hoydia fuimos a comer cena a sanfrancisco pk celebramos el cumple de mi roomate. pero su cumple enverdad es el lunes. fuimos a japantown y comimos en un restaurante japones. aunke deteste la comida japonesa, me encanta el donkatsu, asike decidi en comer con ellas en el restaurante. peor idea comer ahi el donkatsu. era askeroso, la cosa estaba llena de grasa. solo me comi la mitad del donktasu. despues tomamos fotos y comimos postre. en general, la pase bien.

ultimamente estoy super cansada. kien sabe pk . pero lo unico ke kiero es ke ya se venga la proxima proxima semana pa ke me pueda ir a la casa.

tengo ke dejar de dormir a las 7 de la mañana. pense ke la habia parado hace una semana atras, pero supongo ke no pk ayer, o osea hoy tb termine durmiendo a las 7 de la mañana.

ojala ke mañana me pueda despertar a tiempo para ir a la iglesia pk no he ido en demasiado tiempo.

todavia tengo ke comprarle el regalo de cumple a mi roomate. nose cuando tenga el tiempo de hacer eso.

aun tengo hambre. y al mismo tiempo me kiero ir a dormir.
me voy a ir a dormir :P

la comida es muy rica. pk tiene ke ser todo tan delishhhh.

FRIDAY THE 13TH . COOL BEANS.

finding churches is pretty hard. never really thought that it would be. there is always something you like about a place and then you also find something you dont like about the same place. i guess one has to be satisfied with what is offered. i guess there is no such thing as a perfect church. but for the most part. i really like the churches at berkeley. the churches in socal are somewhat fake to me, but i think thats just me. church ministries are so different from high school and college. it amazes me. i just have to say that college part is so much better. its actually nice to have a "family" in college, i just hope that God can guide me the right way and lead me to a place where i can grow spiritually and mentally.

today i didnt miss any of my tues/thurs classes for the first time in like 2 weeks and a half. i have to say i am pretty proud of myself. but i actualy didnt pay attention for both lectures, so it doesnt count.

I is pretty sad right now. I was suppose to leave on the 25th, but now i discover that the discussion is optional to go to. when i first asked my GSI he said that there was discussion, then 2 weeks later he asks if anyone is actualy coming, and no one is, so he said it was optional. thats not fair, when i bought my plane tickets already. i have an 11 pm flight and i would get home at like 12 in the morning or something. not cool. plus my friend from ny is coming on the 24th, so what the hek would she do for a day without me.
so today i tried changing my flight back a day to the 24th... i was talking with the lady for more than 10min when she tells me that there is a penalty fee of $150 plus i would have to pay for the difference in ticket costs. o_O so not cool. i was like lady, forget about it and hung up. so the plan now is either get a ride on tuesday or buy a plane ticket for a one way, which would cost me aprox. $60. i think im going to buy another one way ticket, but now the issue is whether i should go home on the 24th, the 23rd, or if i think of leaving the 23rd in the morning, i might as well just leave the 20th. but i will probably not leave on the 20th. i am debating whether i should go to my classes on tuesday or not. because i dont even go to my tues/thurs classes anyways right now, so what are the chances that im going to go to my classes on that tuesday. so then i might as well leave on monday? but then i feel guilty going home instead of going to classes. ohh i dont know... i shall do a survey tomrow. but i do have to buy the ticket tomorow if i want to because i think the price will increase. cramps my style.

i got my graded miterm paper for asian studies. not too bad. and i also got my next prompt for my next midterm paper due next week. good stuff right there.

i have to get rain boots and some ugg's. next friday its suppose to rain. 60% chance. but i think i will get them on black friday, so i got me some soaked socks for next friday :D

semester is going by way too fast. college is eating up my youth. i is so jollies.

---------oh tomorrow. the confusion, the sorrow, and the despair :)
ok i am a wierdo. thanks a latte. :P

too much tired now. bye byes.

:(

siempre estoi alegre. eso es lo ke piensa todo el mundo. pero enverdad por dentro, no siempre estoy asi. si me siento un pokito mal, la gente empiesa a pensar altiro ke algo malo me esta pasando en la vida y me siguen preguntando si estoy bien. me molesta mucho cuando me preguntan si estoy bien. por eso nunk puedo mostrar como me siento en realidad pk no kiero explicarle a todo el mundo lo ke me esta pasando y por eso pretendo ponerme una mascara al frente de todo el mundo. hasta asi me siento con mis papas.
algunas veces me estreso tanto ke no lo puedo aguantar. pero al final siempre termino pensando en otras cosas.

ahora en este momento no creo ke me este yendo muy bien en la u. jaja eske me divierto mucho haciendo puras leceras. siempre estoi con gente y nunk me puedo concentrar y hacer mi trabajo, por eso necesito aprender a controlarme o sino ser mas antisocial -_-.
pero bueno al menos aprendi mi leccion, pero ahora voi a tener ke esperar hasta el segundo semestre para poder salvarme las notas. en el segundo semestre voy a tener ke empeñarme caleta en los estudios.

hoydia, no tuve clases por el veterans day. dormi hasta las 12 y despues fui a comer almuerzo con unos de mis amigos. estuvo delish la comida :) despues me vine a mi piesa y dormir por una hora y a las 6 fui a otra cena con alguna gente de mi fellowship.
nose pk, pero me duele la cabeza.

necesito despertarme a las 5 20 mañana para ir a hacer ejercisio con mi ekipo de golf. ke lata.
no me kiero despertar tan temprano. desearia ke ya se vinieran las 2 semanas pa ke pueda irme a mi casa.

ya no kiero escribir mas. estoi cansada.
chaito :)

today was a day.

so i woke up today to go to my 1 o clock discussion to find out that it was canceled -__-
how do i know this? well i went into the class and no one was in there except one girl doing her hw.
so i just decided to go to moffitt to print some of my slides for nutrisci. then i went to nutrisci lecture. after lecture, i went to the Y with suzie :)
i left at 3 50 cuz i had golf workout at 4 30, but guess what, i went all the way to memorial stadium to find out that workout today was canceled too -___-. what is it with todayyyy.

i have never spent so long on a hw as i did today. it took me probably 5 hours to do this, and i didnt even do half of it. suzie did most of it -___-. but it was haaaaaaaard. hardest hw ive had thus far since being in college. but its ok! i finished it at 1:35 am. yayyy.

so happy there is no school on wednesday. actualy it dont matter anyway cuz i wouldnt have gone to class anyways. no wrong. i would have gone to my classes cuz i have mandatory class attendance for my asian studies discussion. i think i dont go to class monday, tuesdays and thurdays. thats so bad.

i had some bomb spaghetti today. courtesy of suzie. man i have to swipe her like a million times now. i owe her like crazy. but its ok cuz i have over 680 meal points left thats bad too because right now i should be at 390 or something like that. well i guess some upper classmen will be very happy for the next couple of weeks.

I feel very wierd now. i havent practiced golf in a very long time. i mean before, golf used to be my life, and i wouldn't have missed a day of practice, but with this freedom in college and the pressure off, i mean it feels so good. but at the same time, it feels very strange because i feel guilty. i dont know where this guilt is coming from, maybe from my parents or maybe from myself. i have to decide whether or not i want to come back to playing golf for next semester. why do i suddenly feel so overwhelmed with decisions.

I have to buy my plane tickets for winter break with my credit card because my dad is being too lazy. but i dont even know when i should come back, so by the time i know, the tickets will be very expensive.

i have beeen eating way too much in the past 2 weeks. i got to stop now. actualy that is not going to happen with thanksgiving approaching and christmas right after it. oh well.
ok this is it for today :)

I just wanted to say that I love suzie kim. she is seriously the best unnie EVER. no more to say.

-----------LIVE. LOVE.LAUGH.------------always.

otro dia.

decidi ke ahora voi a escribir una entrada de blog en castellano cada otro dia. nose pk pero se me antoja hacer eso y mas encima no kiero olvidarme del castellano. dudo ke se me olvide pero, solo para entretenerme lo voy a hacer asi.

hoydia, otro dia muuy demasiado inproductivo. dormi todo el dia. y lo unico ke me acuerdo de haber hecho hoy es comer como chancha. me desperte a las 1:42 y no alcanze ir a la iglesia. eso me apena mucho pk no fui 2 domingos seguidos.

no tengo idea ke hice por 2 horas en la compu. ahhhhh si verdad, estaba leyendo mangas. ahora estoi denuevo a la antigua yo, cuando lo unico ke hacia era leer mangas en el ultimo año de high school. pero estoi haciendo mucho mejor pk ya no leo sin parar. al menos ahora leo por como 2 horas y paro y sigo el proximo dia. pero creo ke solo puedo leer ahora pk ya no tengo ke tomar pruebas pero las 2 semanas van a llegar tan rapido ke nisikera me voy a dar cuenta. y ya voy a estar bombardeada con pruebas.

pense ke tenia tarea para mañana, pero recien descubri ke es para el proximo lunes :)
estoi muy feliz ke me voy a mi casa en 2 semanas y media, pk lo unico ke voy a hacer todo el dia es dormir en paz, pero eso dudo hacer pk tengo ke juntarme con caleta de personas. y el tiempo es corto. solo me kedo por como 5 dias. tb estoi muy emocianada pk se viene unas de mis mejores amiga de nueva york :) va a pasar conmigo dias de gracias :) y no puedo esparar para verte chae!

ultimamente estoi tb muy estresada. es muy dificil de escojer una iglesia. estoi partida entre 2. y la gente en ambos lugares me tratan demasiado bien. algunas veces me siento tan mal pk se ke tengo ke elijir solo una, y me entristece solo en pensar como se va a sentir la gente de la otra iglesia cuando les diga ke no voy a asistir a la suya. :( pero ojala ke Dios me ayude a escojer a la ke mas me convenga y donde yo pueda crecer mejor como persona.

tb le kiero agradecer a Dios por haberme dejado conocer a tanta gente con buen corazon! si no fuera por esta gente, me estaria pudriendo! hoydia, una de mis amigas me regalaron unos guantes muy calentitos y calzones para mi cumple :P no es solo esa la razon pk digo ke me gusta tener amigos, pero realize ke enverdad les importo y ke se preocupan de mi. nose si tiene sentido lo ke dije pero bueeee. lo ke sea. :P

creo ke ya escribi mucho por el dia de hoy :) voy a decir ke voy a ir a dormir ahora, pero enverdad no voy a ir a dormir, pk se ke me voy a distraer y voy a terminar durmiendome a las 4 o 5 de la mañana como siempre lo hago. :) buenas noches.

cool.

Ok. cool. I have a blog now for my personal use. I was debating whether to get wordpress or blogspot and I decided to get both, but decided to stick with blogspot since its easier to figure out how to post posts :P I've never had a blog in my life before. I thought I was never going to get one of these, but I just want to ramble somewhere and maybe someday when I grow really old I will be able to see these again and think back in the day when I was so cool. :P
plus diaries get lost all the time.
I wish I started one at the beginning of college. man, I'm late by about 2 months and a half.

college has been hard. I admit. plus its berkeley. I failed my first midterm in college. thats a good start. but i do admit i play too much. being like this who even knew I would be able to get in here. I never thought, but certainly golf helps you a lot. With my grades I would have never been able to get in here. I also had no extra curricular activities whatsoever in high school because my life revolved around golf. how did i do that. i have no idea.

I feel super old now. I just turned 19 last wednesday. I feel like crying. last teen year left and then change of decade. wow. super scared of that. I don't want to be an adult. I am actually quite scared of growing up and entering the "real world".
this just makes me miss the old days so much. just chillin with friends and playing all the time whenever I wanted and never thought of the future. well actually I am wrong.
when I was 7, right before I went to sleep, I would actually think of my death and what would happen after I died and what would I do after my parents died. now that I think about it, I was a disturbed child. I would also think really hard about the carnival in heaven. thats what i was taught when I little. when I went to heaven, I would be eating cotton candy with God.

ok i would write more but im really tired and sleepy now. im just really happy right now i am done with my second wave of midterms :)
thank you God for letting me survive until now.
but today was super unproductive cuz I am sick. I am very sad I missed the retreat today :(