IM OLD

ok so i just read my last post.
man i sound retard. JAJAJAJA.
i just realized how retarded that sounded. oh well. i musta been on a food high or something.

so i will try to write more often. because i like writing my thoughts. because it liberates my mind from all the poop inside. so basically this page right hurr is the toilet. :D
good though right there. score.

southwest airline tickets for 3O bux.. thats a steal. i would buy it, but i aint needin it cuz me get a ride from mr fruity carols for thanksgiving and then winterbreak.. the offer not available. so whatevs.

man i need to spend more time at home. i will. starting tomorrow. no wait tomorrow i have to go to stacks. i think.

man i need to start eating better. this sucks. my eating schedule has gone hiya. wayward. basically. i never eat until dinner time. ja. that sucks for me. but ive been craving chipotel since forever.. so i think i will get it tomorrow. for lunch. i dont think ive had lunch in like a week. JAJAJA. thats really bad. man i think me ruined my body system already. my dad is gona hate me. he warned me about this. this sucks. oh well. its ok. when its my time. it will be my time.

man cant believe the semester is coming to and end already. oh swells. it was ok. but kinda really fast. wish it stopped for a little. so i could take a breather and chilx.

im kinda scared. because next week. i will be 2O. man thats a scary number. im changing decades. i dont know why im so scared. well im not really scared. cuz if i was really scared i would have to poop in my pants, but i dont feel like pooping in my pants. its more like. i dont want nov fourth to ever come. it should just stop on nov 1st or something . yeh. just stop. im not a teenager anymore. thats scary too. which means. that i have to grow up. man. life is complicated indeed. but i dont want to grow up yet. the world out there be too serious. yeah life has to be serious, but not all that much.

man i am technologically challenged. my laptop broke, it wont turn on- blank black screen. and the stupid four six eight and zero key wont work on my netbook. gosh. and scratch on my screen. but all in all. i am thankful. MAN AM I THANKFUL. for what i have when i dont deserve.

maaaaaaaaaaaan ive realized how much i love my mommy and daddy and my brother and my sister. man you need college to teach you these things. why am i bad daughter. i dont know. i need to be better to my parents. they do so much for me. man im s p o i l e d. so rottenly spoiled. i get everything that i want basically. i should be more thankful and take care of my stuff better. man i miss my mommy and my daddy despite the fights that will arise when i go back home. its ok i still love them. i wonder when ill be able to muster up the courage to say the 3 simple words: "i love you".

this week. me been freee. very free. no pressure. but wait till sunday. ohman. allnighter JAJAJAAJAJ. and sat all day at stacks. i hate myself. i mean i could have read so much yesterday and today. and i wasted it.
i didnt go to korean, soc and polisci wow gg. cuz i woke up late. i hate sign in sheets they should die. and break free. and fire. and KABOOM.
aish .. i think ive already missed more than 5 times. korean is gona gg me. good. ohhhhhhhhhhmeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeen.
i want to go watch a movie. man actually i want to do lotsa things. but im too lazy. how sad. there are so many wonderful things to do in life. but im too lazy to do those things.
man foreals. im not girly. foreals. i really am not. i AM NOT. i say i am not. so thats the end of it.

did i say i crave shadow babies? reallllly bad? maaaan . i want them so bad. thats the first thingim doing when i go back homsis. im eating THAT. i wana go snowboarding. soo beeeed. living in apt sucks.

i need to cut my nails. they are LONG. man my stomach hurts.
man. I NEED TO STAY HOME.
i had cake twice. today and yesterday.
brenda's bday and ari's bday. sweetness explosion.
ok. im getting a camera. i think ima either get a xsi or a t2i. either used or new. dont matter. im getting it.

i also need ralphlauren goodbye dry lotion. and uggs. and skullcandy heeadphones. a and f vest with fury hoodie. and a job. i have to get those asap. maybe uggs not so much. but whatever.

im dying my hair foshiiiz either this thanksgiving break or winterbreak and cutting my hair. but im also scared of that because they always cut it wiierd. like mullet and some eightys style or something.

man the jjangs has to sleep now. one day.
one day i will be able to sleep before 12 i believe i can.
GOODNIGHT. stomach is upset i should make it happy somehow.